[sylvie]

It's true Tawse, it will be one of the hardest things to do..
i was such a hider, at my highest weight, i would take pictures that were face shots only.. and it's been a slow progress in finally allowing pictures of my full body.. That shame and embarrassment i still carry around with me.. (& these things are SO hard to admit, sometimes but i'm a firm believer in hard honesty to work through stuff like this...) helps me forgive myself.

And soooo trying to shake that off still - i am still petrified of how people look at me, and if they'll laugh at me or are judging me - and i know that all comes from the negative mindset i was in (and currently still trying to work through).. Hell, looking in the mirror is progress for me.. i used to look at one certain area at a time, never a full look myself up and down lookover.. But now i can look myself over, and actually admire that image looking back at me, and that feels great!

While i'm SO stinkin' proud of the weight i've lost so far, it's hard to not get caught up in that mumbo jumbo and i need to stop - definitely trying! So it's about taking small steps to win the love for myself back, and trust that i am so deserving of this..

That step feels huge though! But, i'm going to do it, because you are right, the pictures will show the truth and hopefully will help me celebrate my ass off!