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BrutalDaddy · 05-09-2012, 08:36 PM

Just wishing like hell that I wasn't so internally torn when it comes to what is best for everyone versus what's best for me.

Ever since I've been able to think for myself, I've had no issues with going down paths less used by those like me. I always tried to put the good of others in front of my own selfish wants/needs. Yet here I sit now struggling because of what I've learned in the past few hours.

Why can't I just have it my way and their way? It's not like I can just ignore the facts and do what I feel like I want. Just doesn't work that way anymore.

Maybe I'm evolving. Maybe I'm just getting cranky with each passing year. Maybe I just need to sleep on it. Maybe I just need to realize that it'll never be easy to decide which will take priority. Damned if I do, damned if I don't.

It's just so hard to understand. Having one foot in one part of this world because of my beliefs and the other foot in the other part of the world because of who I am. That makes it so much harder. One side judges me because of where my left foot is planted and the other judges me because of where my right foot is planted.

Why can't everyone else just come out of the dark ages so EVERYONE can be happy and feel like they belong.

Bleh,
Brute.

05-09-2012, 08:36 PM	#7971
BrutalDaddy Member How Do You Identify?: Her Asshole. Preferred Pronoun?: Him, hym, he, whatever. Relationship Status: Bitch has no more excuses now. Join Date: May 2012 Location: Lower Alabama Posts: 519 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 206 Thanked 2,784 Times in 499 Posts Rep Power: 21474850	What isn't on my mind???? Just wishing like hell that I wasn't so internally torn when it comes to what is best for everyone versus what's best for me. Ever since I've been able to think for myself, I've had no issues with going down paths less used by those like me. I always tried to put the good of others in front of my own selfish wants/needs. Yet here I sit now struggling because of what I've learned in the past few hours. Why can't I just have it my way and their way? It's not like I can just ignore the facts and do what I feel like I want. Just doesn't work that way anymore. Maybe I'm evolving. Maybe I'm just getting cranky with each passing year. Maybe I just need to sleep on it. Maybe I just need to realize that it'll never be easy to decide which will take priority. Damned if I do, damned if I don't. It's just so hard to understand. Having one foot in one part of this world because of my beliefs and the other foot in the other part of the world because of who I am. That makes it so much harder. One side judges me because of where my left foot is planted and the other judges me because of where my right foot is planted. Why can't everyone else just come out of the dark ages so EVERYONE can be happy and feel like they belong. Bleh, Brute.