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Originally Posted by Andrew, Jr.
Apocalipstic, 
Oh yes. My father has a razor sharp tongue. Plus he was always good at being highly critical of me. And it was nothing for him to hold a knife at my throat and threaten me. Even when I see him today, in his 80's, he hasn't changed much at all. His tongue is still sharp. And he still calls me derrogatory names, and when I stutter, well, that just seems to add fuel to his belittlement of me.
Someone once asked me if I had chemo. I said no. I asked why they thought that. I was told that I stop talking totally when I start stuttering or saying the same word over repeatedly. It is known as "chemo brain".
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As you know my Dad died last January, he was also very abusive. But in 1998 I wrote him a letter stating that I could only have anything to do with his as long as he treated me with respect. We never spoke again.
I still have his voice in my head, but it is getting better thanks to Bit and Gryph, medication, therapy and a lot of great friends listening to me and helping me.
Have you considered walking away? I think I would not be alive now if I had not just walked away.