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Originally Posted by Lady Pamela
I just wanted to say thanks for sharing your srory. And I am so happy you chose to live.
I found out after I stopped that I have emphysima and copd...really is a kick in the ass when you are responsable for your damage huh.
It has taken me months to forgive myself honestly.
Not for me but what I have cheated my children and grandchildren out of.
And possibly what I may be putting them through in years to come.
I am still deciding if relationship ..for me..is going to be a true option...we shall see.
It hurts me to think I may put someone else through rough times due to this.
I so love the honesty on this thread...smiles
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lady pamela, i understand exactly what you are feeling. thank you for the reply.
i need to write all these feelings down, sort it all out. i just want to stay away from the pity pool. keep going forward.
my niece and nephew, ... seeing me go through the surgery was emotionally difficult for them. i hope my living helps them. i'd like to say that i quit smoking for those that i love. but i don't think that i did. for now, i just remember the fear.
thank you.