[Leigh]

Originally Posted by MissItalianDiva

Are you ready to claim your life back and be happy? I know you want to say yes but are you REALLY ready. I think sometimes it can be easy for people to kind of become addicted to dysfunctional existence.

Diva, I read this one part of your previous post and I see so much of myself in that one post that its almost scary. I have become very used to the dysfunctional existence that I've been leading for about 10 years now, and I truly do want to change but I see now that its the part of me that is clinging to that "comfortable" life that is sabotaging my happiness. Many times when one gets used to living a certain way, its almost like they think (me included) that this is as good as it gets and this must be the kind of life that we deserve to live. I was at that point, and still am, but reading this thread is helping me more to see that while yes i am f*cked up in my own way (who isn't?), I deserve to be loved just as much as anyone else in this world.

I want to thank everyone who has posted in this thread so far ~ your not just helping CB, but others as well