... cuddling. I'm in cuddle deficit
My Malaysian ex hardly ever cuddled me and I really missed that physical contact. Hand holding, snuggling or touching in some way on the sofa, the stroke on the arm when you're looking at something together or talking. Even when it's too hot to cuddle - touching feel
just that little something that says "I'm here, I love you, we'll wake up together." Damn, now I'm going to make myself cry.
I remember in my first year psych class that researchers found (in the good ol' days before research had strict regulations), that babies and toddlers in orphanages who only got the bare necessary touching got sick more frequently and more severely than babies who had a lot of loving touch. So, we need to be touched, to be cuddled, to be hugged. We need it like the we need the air we breath.