[CharmingButch25]

As far back as I can remeber which is about 7 I have had horrible terrifying dreams,

The main one is a very recurant dream where I am at the beach, usually with a family member or members, most times either my grandparents (who both passed years ago) or my mom, one minute we are sitting at the beach, the next huge massive waves come running after us and we cant escape,like a tsunami,but ive never ever experienced a tsunami nor have I ever had a bad experience at the beach, all the sand gets wipped away and we are wiped out into the waves,I always see their dead bodies floating and that of others(strangers) but I am alive under water swimming, its like I cant die, and the same song plays every time I have the dream Sara Mclaughlin Arms of an Angel, I usually wake up scared that I actually lost the person(s) in the dream.

I have nightmares most nights, so i find it easier to just not sleep for many hours which definatly wears on the body but I am used to it by now, I had counceling when I was younger from age 7-18 and they never did figure out why or stop or help the nightmares,they vary but a lot of them end up with me being killed, or chased,or more recently the woman I was in love with kept dying , either in a plane crash or she was being shot and raped and tortured, she however left me, but when she was around the nightmares werent as bad, I guess I felt safe, or I usually feel safe when I have a partner I trust in the bed with me, they dont occur as often as usual,

Anyway sorry for going on so much