[LoyalWolfsBlade]

My very long to-do list that has to be accomplished today and the one that has everything that HAS to be accomplished by Friday. I have already marked off three things on today's..got more then 4 hours sleep last night, ate breakfast (chocolate donuts), double checked flight reservation for Saturday...checked and done.

Thankful my lay over in Phoenix is short enough no to drive me crazy yet long enough just in case the flight out of Chicago is running late (since I know I will be sitting on the tarmac pas take off time after all) so I do not miss my connecting flight. Thankful that I am in a get things done mode today and my brain is not on overload as of yet.

Grateful for friends that are able to help answer questions and remind me of all the stupid carry on rules. Grateful one of those friends is the Queen of travel (cheap travel) and had ideas to help me figure out how I can make sure I am in Chicago for such and early departure. Grateful the other friend is close enough to my heart that I can trust her advice and know she will be there should I need her.

Hopeful that I get everything done today and am able to sleep tonight. Without nightmares would be a good change. Hopeful this holiday season will not be as sad for me as I fear it will be but wise enough to know my bio-family will disappointment me again so I am at least prepared for it.