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Gráinne · 11-10-2012, 05:45 PM

A great lunch today with ArkansasPiscesGrrl, who had me in absolute stitches. The most I'd laughed in a good long time. <3 you, my friend!

I had two huge epiphanies just before and during the lunch:

1. My life is not totally lost, as I'd thought. "Lost" would mean I have no idea what I want or where I'm going. I know very well what point A looks like-I can see that in every facet. However, I also know what point B would be like, so I actually have a vision. The trick is to take the steps to get there, however long.

2. At last year's Reunion and this year, I told myself that I didn't want to take up a hotel room for myself (being local) that someone from out of town would need. I came to a sudden thought last night that this is a cop-out. I didn't take a room because I was afraid of potential intimacy or a serious conversation breaking out, or actually facing myself. My way, if things got uncomfortable, I could bail. I felt as if I had my feet in two worlds. I had a wonderful time, but I know it was what I call "Reunion Lite".

Well, no way. I'm there, in a room next year, whatever happens. More to the point, I'm setting out for my points B, full steam.

11-10-2012, 05:45 PM	#5357
Gráinne Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Neither, nada, out of the box Preferred Pronoun?: My name always works Relationship Status: Happy whatever happens Join Date: Dec 2010 Location: Little Rock Posts: 1,864 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 2,117 Thanked 7,388 Times in 1,457 Posts Rep Power: 21474852	A great lunch today with ArkansasPiscesGrrl, who had me in absolute stitches. The most I'd laughed in a good long time. <3 you, my friend! I had two huge epiphanies just before and during the lunch: 1. My life is not totally lost, as I'd thought. "Lost" would mean I have no idea what I want or where I'm going. I know very well what point A looks like-I can see that in every facet. However, I also know what point B would be like, so I actually have a vision. The trick is to take the steps to get there, however long. 2. At last year's Reunion and this year, I told myself that I didn't want to take up a hotel room for myself (being local) that someone from out of town would need. I came to a sudden thought last night that this is a cop-out. I didn't take a room because I was afraid of potential intimacy or a serious conversation breaking out, or actually facing myself. My way, if things got uncomfortable, I could bail. I felt as if I had my feet in two worlds. I had a wonderful time, but I know it was what I call "Reunion Lite". Well, no way. I'm there, in a room next year, whatever happens. More to the point, I'm setting out for my points B, full steam. __________________ The odds of going to the store for a loaf of bread and coming out with only a loaf of bread are three billion to one. ~Erma Bombeck