[lillith]

The slow evolution from then to now.

I am timeless, warrantless, and even a bit effortless. I am no damsel-in-distress. I am eager, and often submit to my fancies. I am opinionated, and sometimes, overbearing and crass. I am not thoughtless, but thought full. I am heavy with concern, and lighted by my spirit. I am educated, and perhaps that lends to many people in my life who say I am intimidating. I am solid in my sex, and do not wince too easily. I profess that I am not a fan of horror, it makes me cringe. I am often dissatisfied with my body, and will bitch about it, but I do not see myself as you do. I see the crow’s feet and am reminded of the laughter. I see the stretch marks and look at my son who created them, and am forced to smile. I see my overly large tattoos and I am reminded of who I am inside; what caused me to get them in the first place. I have triumphed over many fears and have given in to them, as well. I am messy and sometimes, a pain in the ass. But I promise, I pick my fights fairly, and will admit when I am wrong. I am soft little girl who cares too much, and I am loving mother who stands by her child. Yes, I own dresses, and make-up, and high heels, but I am also a devote wearer of jeans and t-shirts. I can sway my hips and mesmerize. I can touch a face with a gentle caress, but it is not only a face I want to touch; it is the heart and soul. I am a caretaker, a nurturer, and someone who just wants to see a smile.