[Lady Pamela]

TODAY MAKES 1 YEAR SMOKE FREE FOR ME!!!

My mother and father would have been so pleased.
I can so feel them smiling today.

By family and friends, I was the last person they ever thought would quit smoking.
They are all so pleased and shocked as well.

I smoked anywhere from a pack and a half to 2 packs normally.
I want to thank each and every one of you for your continued support.
And for allowing me to ramble and carry on during this entire year.

Your words and time have most definately helped in the process.

Today I also come out for the first time about other struggles that smoking has created for me.
I have kept things very silent but I feel others need to know.
Also if my story can help even one..It will make my hard times worth it.



When I stopped smoking, I found out about 1 month afterwards that I had COPD/Emphysima.
That was very hard news to process for me, because I have had others with it.

I am a fighter when things get togh. I am not one to give in so to speak.
So COPD was just an obsticle I needed to get through. And day to day, I do what needs to be done to do just that.

Last week I hurt my rib so I had to go to E.R. to have it checked out.
They gave me a x-ray and cat scan to see what damage I had done. ( Or atleast I thought that was why.)

My daughter was with me as a team of doctors came into my room and shut the door.
They told me that they had found some marks. Left side it is 5mm in size and right side is 4mm.
And that the cat scan was to confirm the spots on the ex-ray were actual mass or nodules.

My mind was spinning. And quite honestly, scared to death at that moment.They set me a doctor appointment and said no matter what, do not miss it.
So I went home to process this day and get ready for whatever the doc would say.

On February 1st I went in to the doc.
They said they will send for my last years ex-rays to compare to which will take a few weeks.
They will also then be able to get all meds I haven't been able to have for other things I have. After they come and my medical gets on the go.

Also that no matter what, they will be very active as to my treatment.
And aiding in making me more comfortable with my other issues as well.

A part in my letter to medicade states this....
" Pamela was recently evaluated in E.R. and found to have had two nudules that are suspicious for cancer. The nodules should be compared to other medical records and also reevaluated and possibly biopsied. In order to determine whether or not they are malignant or not."

I would not wish having this type of scare for anyone.
It has made me tottally evauate my entire life and what I truely think that matters.

I am a strong soul and have endured alot in this life, including cancer years ago.
But this news took me by suprise even with the copd and smoking past.

I will update as I am updated as well.

I normally do not post stuff of this nature in public sites.
But like I said, If one person hears my story and it makes them stop, think and react before it happens to them..Then it is worth it!


Today I celebrate myself for making great choices.
I celebrate my life, and all I can do still due to stopping now.

I am deeply full of gratitude to those who have been there for me.
And to all of you who have listen and helped throuout this year.

Thank you so very very much. I value you all.
And can only hope I can and have been there for you as well.

May your day be full of beauty and dreams.
And may you see past moments that hard.

Blessings to you all,
Pamela





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