Belonging...hmmm...no. I never have felt like I truly "belonged" anywhere. I was always treated as an outsider, teenager, and young adult. It wasn't until I discovered what made me different that I could pretend to blend as it were. (I have Asperger's).
However, now that I know that I view the world differently from others, I am better able to explain myself and 'fit in'. Still, I don't let it define me. I'm always pushing against my limitations but I still know, no matter how good I am at 'faking it', on some energetic level I project my 'otherness'. People know. It's an instinctual thing. I can feel it when certain people look at me.
I still feel very much outside but I accept it now and even enjoy it. I realize now I never really needed to belong because I'm connected. We're all connected.
