Well, here it is....the wall. I hit it every semester right about midway through, and it's come again. It's at this point that I start feverishly hoping the semester will end soon, and start questioning myself and second-guessing my decision to return to school. It never lasts long...and I know that I'm doing the right thing. I KNOW it. But right about now, I find that I have to work harder to convince myself of that. I think about the time I spend in classes, and studying, and writing papers...time that I could be spending doing something else. I think about the fact that my breaks (I'm on spring break now) never seem to coincide with my son's breaks from school and therefore, we can never make plans for a vacation. I keep telling myself that I'm doing this for the both of us...to make BOTH of our lives better. But right about now, in the grip of the "school blues," I wonder if what I'm doing is the right thing.
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Out beyond ideas of wrongdoing and rightdoing there is a field. I'll meet you there ~ Rumi
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