Update
Saw my weight loss doctor this morning and we discussed me not being hungry, able to eat and/or forgetting to eat. He told me that there is nothing wrong; that I've developed a "healthy body" and in time my brain will catch up with my body much the same as it had to do when I had the disconnect between what was in the mirror and what I still perceived to be there...though there are still those times when I don't recognize me or when I suddenly do recognize me or can really see the difference.
But he also told me I needed to be more mindful about eating at least once a day and more than an 80 or 100 cal fat-free plain Green yogurt. And a couple of 2 calorie breath mints and a bottle of water do NOT count as lunch!
Still I struggle with my appearance and am unsure of myself, especially when paid a compliment. But I still try to always look my best, or as I am fond of saying to myself..."well, this will have to do for now"...lol
With this new appetite "problem" I managed to lose 22.6 lbs in the last 5 weeks. My doctor declared me extremely healthy this morning and said we'll be discussing and implementing a maintenance plan by the end of the summer.
With only a few quickly corrected setbacks I've managed to keep off my initial 130 lbs for nearly 5 years! Now the challenge is keeping that off plus the additional weight I've lost and will lose.
In all honesty, when I began this journey I had my doubts that I'd lose so much and keep it off with only diet and exercise. I figured I'd fail yet again and be forced into having a surgery I did not want or I'd die. Thankfully neither of those alternatives came to fruition.
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