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Anomaly · 04-04-2013, 01:58 PM

I work tonight, and what's on my mind is being single and trying to date while working at the gay bar. It's a pretty small town. There's a men's leather bar, a dance club gay bar full of straight people, and a small town gay bar place where lesbians actually go, and that's where I work. I get hit on at work all the time. I mean, the boys don't really hire lesbians, so I got hired because they thought I was a cute straight girl, I'm guessing. Haha, worked there for years and years and a lot of girls still don't know I'm gay.
I was seeing a FTM for a little while, and she told me her whole clique "knows better" than to hit on me because they all thought I was straight, and I'm like, if I'm straight, and you're a guy, why did it take you so long to hit on me?
Idk, it is kinda confusing. Because I am kinda straight for women. Mostly when I get hit on, it's straight curious girls or girly girls or that kind of undeclared midwestern kind of woman who wears her hair long in the back like she's fooling the rest of her roofing crew. It's very rarely an out lesbian with that gorgeous masculine presentation I can't get enough of.
Sometimes it feels like the butch/femme dynamic is very misunderstood in a small town. Although the lesbians I've known forever, the ones who were out before GSA's and anti-bullying legislation, those couples are very apparantly butch/femme. All the real couples, the happy couples. But every day I work I have to explain to a feminine woman that I'm gay, but that doesn't mean I want to sleep with every woman or that I don't have a style preference beyond "female."
And I get teased a lot, by the guys mostly. I mostly hang out with gay guys. And they tease me because I only date fire fighters, lumberjacks, and journeymen with tattoos and craftswomen on motorcycles and bad girl criminals who look like really rough dudes. I think it would appease their asthetics to put me next to another hot chick, maybe a blonde or an Asian, something that would look good next to an Irish redhead, and then everything would look like a party / porno, but I'm just not into it.
So the last time I went to work, a straight girl flashed me, and the time before that, an older woman with a neon yellow mullet told me she's been trying to find me (I mean, nothing else happened. She found me and then didn't ask me on a date or anything).
One time a butch fire fighter reached over me to change a keg, carried that heavy sucker out of my way, then apologized and said she was sure I could handle it. Why can't THAT happen every night?
It's a fine balance to flirt with everyone and sleep with no-one, and I'm realizing more and more that it's irresponsible and unprofessional to meet women at my job... at the only lesbian bar in town.
And that's what's on my mind.

04-04-2013, 01:58 PM	#11146
Anomaly Junior Member How Do You Identify?: Femme Preferred Pronoun?: She / Her Relationship Status: Single Join Date: Mar 2013 Location: Minnesota Posts: 17 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 37 Thanked 69 Times in 15 Posts Rep Power: 1638514	On My Mind? I work tonight, and what's on my mind is being single and trying to date while working at the gay bar. It's a pretty small town. There's a men's leather bar, a dance club gay bar full of straight people, and a small town gay bar place where lesbians actually go, and that's where I work. I get hit on at work all the time. I mean, the boys don't really hire lesbians, so I got hired because they thought I was a cute straight girl, I'm guessing. Haha, worked there for years and years and a lot of girls still don't know I'm gay. I was seeing a FTM for a little while, and she told me her whole clique "knows better" than to hit on me because they all thought I was straight, and I'm like, if I'm straight, and you're a guy, why did it take you so long to hit on me? Idk, it is kinda confusing. Because I am kinda straight for women. Mostly when I get hit on, it's straight curious girls or girly girls or that kind of undeclared midwestern kind of woman who wears her hair long in the back like she's fooling the rest of her roofing crew. It's very rarely an out lesbian with that gorgeous masculine presentation I can't get enough of. Sometimes it feels like the butch/femme dynamic is very misunderstood in a small town. Although the lesbians I've known forever, the ones who were out before GSA's and anti-bullying legislation, those couples are very apparantly butch/femme. All the real couples, the happy couples. But every day I work I have to explain to a feminine woman that I'm gay, but that doesn't mean I want to sleep with every woman or that I don't have a style preference beyond "female." And I get teased a lot, by the guys mostly. I mostly hang out with gay guys. And they tease me because I only date fire fighters, lumberjacks, and journeymen with tattoos and craftswomen on motorcycles and bad girl criminals who look like really rough dudes. I think it would appease their asthetics to put me next to another hot chick, maybe a blonde or an Asian, something that would look good next to an Irish redhead, and then everything would look like a party / porno, but I'm just not into it. So the last time I went to work, a straight girl flashed me, and the time before that, an older woman with a neon yellow mullet told me she's been trying to find me (I mean, nothing else happened. She found me and then didn't ask me on a date or anything). One time a butch fire fighter reached over me to change a keg, carried that heavy sucker out of my way, then apologized and said she was sure I could handle it. Why can't THAT happen every night? It's a fine balance to flirt with everyone and sleep with no-one, and I'm realizing more and more that it's irresponsible and unprofessional to meet women at my job... at the only lesbian bar in town. And that's what's on my mind.