I really want, and possibly need, another night like that one *points at calendar*. I really needed it then and could really use it again.
Also, I am thinking a lot about my grandpa who passed away this weekend. I didn't think it was a big deal and wouldn't upset me, given his history with my family and the fact that I haven't seen him since 1991. I was wrong. Very wrong. I'm more upset than I want to admit (and those who know me know I do not admit when I am upset or hurt). I just kind of want to be held for a little while (and that is not like me either).