You are very welcome, psykbush. I am happy to be able to help you, even a little bit.
You do have a fair possibility of finding a gender therapist that accepts a sliding scale. I've had two of them, so far, since I started transitioning.
TG does mean transgender, as DapperButch mentioned, but there is also another category that people use to describe themselves, at times. This is known as: gender queer. I don't really know how to explain it, though, at least not right now. Perhaps someone that is more articulate then I can step in and explain it for you.
Look, there are prices to pay for every choice that we make. There are also the tiny details that we find out about, AFTER we venture into something new. This is definitely true in transition.
For example, I recently bought a swimsuit for the first time since I transitioned. I tried it out this past weekend, at the park pool. Unfortunately, I stayed too long at the pool and managed to obtain a sunburn (not too severe, fortunately). This suit happened to be a one piece swimsuit.
When I went to put on my bra, yesterday, I encountered one of those tiny little details, I'm afraid. As I'm sure that many of you know, it is absolutely NO fun to wear a bra over a sunburn. :P
Don't worry overmuch about the muting of emotions yet. First, hie thee to a gender therapist to help you sort things out. This will help you gain the information that you seem to need, right now. Then you can begin to make any decisions that are needed.
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