[Dude]

Everyone was sure I would be a boy.My name was to be
Lloyd after my grandfather. Relatives reminded me of This
constantly while growing up. My last name will not be
carried on because of me not finding a wife to bear me
some chillens. Snort ! At times, I even thought of adopting.
Slapping a name on an adopted kid feels gross to me now, too.
A name would not have made a kid feel more loved , ONLY love
does that!!! . I know that after watching my nephews grow
up with fathers who were not bioligical. Ha , I nearly slipped
just now and said " real" fathers. Its gross , how we are so programmed
to view love as an ownership.

Last week, I saw a butch introducing her wife as only " MY wife."
It was a disgusting display ( to me) of ownership, coupled with
what felt to be butch postering ( My woman, not yours ,MINE)
She said it ovah
and ovah to anyone who would listen ,until I said
" that's nice, so what' s her name?" :l

As much as I want someone being exuberant and
proud to be with me , don't evah forget I have a fucking
name. I am complete ,all on my own and I aint
Becoming ONE with anyone. Fuck that.
To me, that mind-set reeks of co-dependancy.
So because of that stupid jerry McGuire movie
that way of thinking is glamorized again?
There are soo many ways to be romantic without
having to go theah.