[tapu]

Officially, as in the sense Is there a girlfriend there with you or not?, I have been single for 5+ years. Longer than I ever thought I could be single, that's for sure. Especially because I Don't Cook. But, I haven't starved to death and I've gotten used to being alone. (Nothing can happen to this dog, though, dammit.)

I have had this strange, running hook-up where I loved someone but we hardly ever saw each other. We met here on the planet. She was in CAnada; I, in the states. We did get together a few times but that idea faded out as we fully realized the international situation, I had kids, she had... well, a strong allegiance to her country and living situation.

For the last year, I've loved her but knew she didn't love me in the way necessary to bridge our situation. She's open to seeing other people. I am not, but I've come to the point where I know I have to say goodbye for good. She stretches my heart strings as to break them. I can't go on this way.

So, putting it out there for support. (And maybe a new girlfriend if I get lucky--what? what'd I say?)