Reading back its kinda funny how some things have changed drastically in 2 years and other things have stayed the same.
Now:
1. What can you do today that you were not capable of a year ago?
This year my relationship is at the stage where it has gotten clear we're both definitely in it for the long haul and that we love each other more than anything. I wouldn't trade that for anything. I also have more stable housing than last year. I can sleep at night without being eaten alive by bed bugs or having to run to emerg at 2 am because my eyes are swelling shut.
2. What's been on your mind most lately?
How much I love our current living situation, the people that should still be in this world but aren't, and also money/employment.
3. In order of importance, how would you rank: happiness, money, love, health, fame?
1. Happiness. 2. Love. 3. Health. 4. Money 5. Fame.
4. Right now, at this moment, what do you want most?
A little financial stability so that I can stop going crazy over certain things.
5. What word best describes the way you’ve spent the last month of your life?
Stressed lol
6. What is the #1 motivator in your life right now?
Love and fear
7. In one sentence, who are you?
Human
8. What do you want to be known for?
Still don't know.
9. If you had to move 3000 miles away, what one thing would you miss most?
Still my community (I assume I'd be moving away with my partner...)
10. In one year from today, how do you think your life will be different?
With all the things that can happen in a year, who knows.
11. Who makes you feel good about yourself?
My partner and one of my old housemates.
12. What are the top three qualities you look for in a friend?
Honesty. Trustworthiness. Community-oriented.
13.What has fear of failure stopped you from doing?
A lot of the small things.
14. What is something you have always wanted since you were a kid?
Still top surgery
15. What stands between you and what you want?
I still has it
16. What do you do when nothing else seems to make you happy?
Still just ride it out. When I feel depressed sometimes I just need to sleep it off and wake up the next day feeling less hopeless.
17. When did you first realize that life is short?
Don't know, but after this year death fucking terrifies me.
18. What do you need to spend more time doing?
Hard to say.
19. What issues do you continually refuse to confront?
A lot of anxiety, but I'm working through it.
20. What’s something a lot of people do that you disagree with?
Not sure.
21.What’s a common misconception people have about you?
Still unsure.
22.What’s something no one can take away from you?
Love.
23. What is something that you would hate to go without for a day?
Still pants or shorts
24. When you look into the past, what do you miss the most?
My cousin and my grandmother. Some friends that I don't see as often.
25. What memory from this past year makes you smile the most?
Telling my partner I love her for the first time.
26. What’s the number one change you need to make in your life in the next twelve months?
Job.
27. If not now, then when?
Still a good question!
28. What have you done that you are truly proud of?
Found someone this damn awesome
29. What’s something new you recently learned about yourself?
That's it's never too late. That I shouldn't have to compare where I'm at in life to other people because everyone has their own challenges and their own path.
30. What do you want to remember forever?
How good it feels being with her.
31. What could society do without?
Still don't know where to start...
32. What is one thing right now, that you are totally sure of?
Love.
33. If you had the opportunity to get a message across to a large group of people, what would your message be?
N/A
34. What’s something you said you’d never do, but have since done?
Dance some more.
35. What’s something you changed your mind about when you grew older?
Too much to list.
36. What didn’t last forever, but was still worth your while?
Community houses...too many shit landlords in this world.
37. If you could go back in time and tell a younger version of yourself one thing, what would you tell?
I'd still probably want to tell myself what a trans guy is to save myself the grief of figuring it out much later.
38. If you knew you were dying in 60 seconds, what would your last words be?
I don't know, but I'd sure as hell be shitting myself.
39. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?
Almost certainly.
40. What questions do you often ask yourself?
Will I always be this crazy?