[Nat]

What's on my mind tonight?

Sometimes I feel emotionally a bit like that fish at the end of the faith no more video.



But it's better to feel something than nothing, and I've learned how to feel calm even when there is anguish. The calm will last, the anguish won't.

Somebody told me recently that I embarrass myself and it's hard to watch. Maybe I do. Certainly I have. I don't always keep a lid on the things I should keep a lid on. I'm not always so discreet or modest or grown-up. I make a lot of mistakes. I have made a whole lot of them.

But life goes on, and I am aiming for something greater.



In the words of Charlie "Nuwanda" Dalton from Dead Poets Society -

Laughing, crying
tumbling, mumbling.
Gotta do more.
Gotta be more.

Chaos screaming
chaos dreaming.
Gotta do more!
Gotta be more!