I'm a long way from being open to something new, but a friend of mine asked me the other day what I would want in a future person.
The first thing that came out was: a person who makes my life easier and not harder. Maybe I'm showing my age or my heart's exhaustion, but my willingness to twist myself into fun pretzel shapes to make things work seems to be significantly waning as is my willingness to make financial sacrifice for love's sake.
But also, chemistry, passion, trust, loyalty, friendship, love, honesty, consistency. Those are givens, right? Not givens in relationships, but givens in that - who doesn't want those things?
And I want to be cherished. And I love a good cuddler. And it's awesome be able to watch Shakespeare or read poetry or a novel with another person who actually enjoys that sort of thing. And it's really nice to be with a person who loves both my femme side and my boy side.
And though it feels like butches are a dying breed, they are my favorite. And if not butch, somewhere close.
And having written all that, I kinda think the best answer may be to just enjoy life and not think about any of that. Like, ever again.
Make the world my lover. Cherish my own self.