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Honesty?

Why even bother saying it,
If you don’t mean it?
Why keep on saying something,
When you know it hurts?
If it’s so hard for you to say,
Then I say fucking save it for the next fool.
I didn’t think it was possible to be this pissed off,
To be so totally unable to believe the words,
Coming from someone who allegedly loves me.
Right people,
Wrong time?
Really??
Is that seriously all you could say?
And then wonder why I may just happen to be upset,
If that’s the only reasoning you can give,
When you said it was forever,
YOU said it,
Repeatedly and publically.
Guess what?
I can’t believe you,
I can’t believe I let myself trust you again,
More fool me.
Just another fool that’s me,
Cos I can’t possibly know my own mind,
Or what I want out of life...
Oh, wait, no, I have issues with my emotions and expressing them...
Oh, no, that would be you.
You have taught me one thing,
To never take things at face value again,
To not trust people and see what good could be in them,
To not believe a word anyone else says,
To only see the negative,
To pick faults with what makes someone themselves.
Thanks,
I really needed that.
Like a hole in the head.
Yet more lies.
Self-perpetuating bullshit.
You don’t love someone and dump them,
In the real world you’re honest enough to admit to not feeling anything at all.
Honesty?
Yeah, not sure I believe that word any more.

30/09/11
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