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Life

I don’t want to wait,
I have to believe in fate.
I have to stop being afraid of having my heart broken.
I need to be able to trust,
Not only myself but someone else.
Living with pain isn’t a life,
It isn’t a reason to want to get up every morning,
I have to be honest,
I need to let go of the past.
But how do you do that?
It happened for a reason,
It’s what made me who I am now,
Yet it’s holding me back,
It’s stopping me from growing and living and being a whole person.
I know who I am now,
I know where I am now,
But how can I keep facing this when I’m all alone?
I don’t want to be all alone,
But how can I be there for someone else when I’m so afraid?
I’m scared of being alone,
I’m scared of being with someone who will have to take care of me.
I need to take care of myself,
Even though every day is a living hell,
It’s a struggle to get up,
To keep on keeping on.
I don’t want to wait,
But I have to,
I have to do it for me,
I need to prove that I can do it,
Alone or not,
I have to live.
People need me,
They rely on me,
They need me.
So I’ll keep on waiting,
Wondering if I’ll ever find someone,
But this life is what it is,
It happens,
Nothing will change that.
So I’m waiting,
And waiting,
Just waiting.

16/02/12
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