Sometimes I can't fall asleep due to stress loads : for example, since last November, due to body injuries, I find I sleep due to my body caving in to the need to heal? In an other example, I've got immediate family crises in progress (my aunt passed away last night, my sweetheart's health condition is topsy-turvy due to cancer chemo treatments, or my mother's obsessive control tactics, etc)....this kind of stuff is wearisome, and becomes problematic if I allow it to have power. I do a L O T of self care during really stressful events. Some things I do to alleviate stress in my life is to detach (let go) from things or people or events. I let go because I want the the problematic issue to lose traction. I do that because there's many facets I am not always attuned to or have time and energy to problem solve. I put myself first, as much as possible. Sometimes though, there's nothing like a good cry to release pent up stress. Sometimes though, no matter how I try to put me first and take care of me, stressor's are still there, seemingly alive and thriving. It's such a tricky thing to do, the things I do to cope with things that really stress me out.
Last night I got about 6 hours of sleep. Three days ago I was up early 48 hrs, but then slept about 9 hours. My sleep patterns are somewhat out of sync, nowadays, but I rest when I can, and when I can, I sleep for as long as I am able to.
I'd say, on average, since last November, I get around 5 hours of uninterrupted sleep. It feels heavenly, though, if I've slept more than 5 hours.
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