[Karysma]

I'm trying not to speculate on how my spouse-ish's future is going to pan out. I know she will do ok - she is smart, she is very attractive. She has a lot to offer. I do not think the relationship that she is pursuing now will work out - but if it does it will hurt. I am trying to stay away from that kind of thinking.

I do wish the best for her.. unfortunately I also still think that even with my issues I am the best for her. Sure we needed some work. Any relationship does.

I will just have to chalk it up to.. I don't know. Her loss?

I am not there yet. lol!