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Originally Posted by Vincent
I did not know this thread existed
after constant dreaming about my ex
mainly having PTSD and this being sugested by my therapist
I wrote her a thank you letter
I wanted to tie up loose ends,she was the love of my life
I met her 10 mths coming out of a toxic 14yr R'ship
I was only with her for one yr,so for me length means nothing
I thanked her for teaching me to read
for never yelling or belittling me
for showing me love is gentle and funny and an adventure
I thanked her for pursuing me,even though I took ages to get it
I told her how happy I was,that she had suceded in her career,I had seen a interview she did,and I was proud she had contributed to good policy for ppl with disabilities in Aust
I thanked her,that when I think of her,I smile and can still hear her laugh
I thanked her for the feeling of knowing real love,a feeling I only felt from my father.
I sent this by snail mail,through registered post,so she had to sign for it
I did not send any contact information for me.
But I did add a link to my youtube and soundcloud,and for a lil while someone had me singing on repeat in Sydney where she lives.
And I feel free now,dreams stopped,and I can stop looking for her now,and be content on my own,coz
If the sun refused to shine
I will still be loving you
thankyou-Led Zeplin
I can write this here,she will never see it
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I actually got a reply,through email
I was blown away,she found me
She had followed my political career for trans rights,in Australia
No there is no fairytale happy ending.lol
But her reply was so Jenny.
thoughtful,humble,honest and gentle and loving
And her response was full of all she had got from loving me.
I must admit I got it 2 months ago,and am still processing it
All I can say is,I feel free and that it was a good thing to do
But also it confirmed the reality,that although our time short,it had a life long impact on us both and it can sometimes be a good thing to tie up loose ends.
She has asked If I should want to respond it would be welcomed
But not necessary.
If I can sum up Jenny as a person,I use this story.
I had an old cattle dog,and he was in hospital after removing a tumor.
I went to pick him up,they told me his Mum had been to see him.
I thought it was my ex,his mum of 13 yrs,and asked "the woman with red hair"
They said no she was tall thin blonde,woman.
Jesse died,never seeing my ex of 14 yrs,who lived 5 min walk to the vet and had reared him since 6 weeks.
His last visitor was Jenny
only Jen,would do that and never tell you.
I only found out from the vet nurse
Life can certainly be strange
sometimes we can mistake length,for quality
But it's been the opposite in my life
some people stay for a moment,but the imprint lasts a lifetime
I'm sure there's a song in here somewhere LOL