Random Thoughts

[Jedi]

Originally Posted by LipstickLola

Jedi, feeling the exact same way about someone now gone from my life, and wishing (praying really) for another chance. The days, weeks, months, did add up, and maybe enough time has passed? who knows? Shall I keep my torch a burning?? Maybe a bit longer.

Lola,
I truly believe that if you have faith and you show God you are willing to make the changes for which she is "worthy" that the opportunity will present itself and God will give you back that with which you love. I just did. After months of praying and being depressed and fighting it. I did. And I have to show God this. My new group of friends prayed with me the other night that I find a job. They want to go to church with me....and on the same note they wanna do karaoke and have beers and get silly. They are healthy friends.....I made that change. I let myself go out and face the world. It wasn't easy. And my behavior wasn't always good. But it's better than it was. I'm not perfect. At least that is how I feel about it. I was making positive changes in my life after mourning a great loss...but this one wouldn't be a permanent loss. It's nice to know that someone has some mutual feelings on this journey. I am definitely not alone.....although that was how it felt at the time. I wasn't about to let go.

I hope that makes a little sense to you....because really......only YOU can decide for yourself how long you let the torch burn.

Namaste,

Jedi