Cancer Support and Caregivers Who Are Trail Blazers!

[~ocean]

I was in pain last weekend so off to the ER I went ~ after a cat scan I have kidney stones << no big deal but they saw area's of concern near the esophagus and liver now I get a PET scan Aug. 5th . I am keeping my fingers crossed after being in remission for 5 years lot's of blood work this coming week . I just found out I am going to be a grandmother again ))) this will be grandchild # 2 ~ I'm very excited ~ did you all know the new neutral color is in grey tones a floor or a rug ok ~ but infant clothes ~ no no . they find out in a 3 weeks or 4 if it's a boy or girl. I'm not buying grey ! there will be 14 years between Jonathan and this baby . lol I told him when he will be walking with the baby the girls are going to flirt with him. lol it's like having a cute puppy ! I just don't want to cause my daughter any stress w/ my health. with the news of the cat scan last week her tears broke my heart. this is no time for God to have a sense of humor ~ sort to speak ~

[clay]

Originally Posted by ~ocean

I was in pain last weekend so off to the ER I went ~ after a cat scan I have kidney stones << no big deal but they saw area's of concern near the esophagus and liver now I get a PET scan Aug. 5th . I am keeping my fingers crossed after being in remission for 5 years lot's of blood work this coming week . I just found out I am going to be a grandmother again ))) this will be grandchild # 2 ~ I'm very excited ~ did you all know the new neutral color is in grey tones a floor or a rug ok ~ but infant clothes ~ no no . they find out in a 3 weeks or 4 if it's a boy or girl. I'm not buying grey ! there will be 14 years between Jonathan and this baby . lol I told him when he will be walking with the baby the girls are going to flirt with him. lol it's like having a cute puppy ! I just don't want to cause my daughter any stress w/ my health. with the news of the cat scan last week her tears broke my heart. this is no time for God to have a sense of humor ~ sort to speak ~

Ohhhssshhhh...will lift you up & keep space for you in my heart! YOU.GOT.THIS!! I also agree...tones of grey..for a baby...nahhh...a house or room, yes, BUT not a baby's wardrobe....

(((((((((((((((((((Ohhhsshhhhhhhh)....xo
ETA: Congratulations on the new grandbaby!

[firegal]

Originally Posted by ~ocean

I was in pain last weekend so off to the ER I went ~ after a cat scan I have kidney stones << no big deal but they saw area's of concern near the esophagus and liver now I get a PET scan Aug. 5th . I am keeping my fingers crossed after being in remission for 5 years lot's of blood work this coming week . I just found out I am going to be a grandmother again ))) this will be grandchild # 2 ~ I'm very excited ~ did you all know the new neutral color is in grey tones a floor or a rug ok ~ but infant clothes ~ no no . they find out in a 3 weeks or 4 if it's a boy or girl. I'm not buying grey ! there will be 14 years between Jonathan and this baby . lol I told him when he will be walking with the baby the girls are going to flirt with him. lol it's like having a cute puppy ! I just don't want to cause my daughter any stress w/ my health. with the news of the cat scan last week her tears broke my heart. this is no time for God to have a sense of humor ~ sort to speak ~

Congrats on another grand baby..... and ill be praying for good results on your blood work. Hugs to you.

[rustedrims]

Feeling restless all last week waiting to see the Dr. on friday. Had a kid in town on thursday so spent some time with her. Had a good time. After she left i see that Mom called. Called her back. I could tell by her voice somethin was up. Her sister my aunt had passed. Feel sad we couldnt get in there to see her. She was just to busted up to make her new again. I will miss her.

Well now it is friday 10:30am. Waiting to see the Dr. .Starring at the floor and pickin at my finger. My name is called and I look up and follow Nancy to "the room" . No hug or kiss. She went right into my kidney biopsy. Yeah I got it back. Almost 3 years in remisson. Start treatments in a few weeks. Why do i gotta f####ng wait!! I hope I dont go into stage 4 waiting on insurance to approve my treatments. Thats messed up !! Getting an IV drip insted of chemo or radiation. Had radiation last time. Its the same stuff I had in my head. Slow growing. Give insurance time to get caught up. Stayed home yesterday to just be quiet and think whats gonna happen. Thinkin that I should be doing something at my yards. Better not cause my head wasnt in it. Might hurt myself not thinkin.

Today again balls to the wall to get my stuff done before treatments. Makes me feel good doing that.That stuff does what it does BUT it is NOT takin my yards away from me!

Thank you very much for reading my ramblings and caring.

s

[clay]

Originally Posted by rustedrims

Feeling restless all last week waiting to see the Dr. on friday. Had a kid in town on thursday so spent some time with her. Had a good time. After she left i see that Mom called. Called her back. I could tell by her voice somethin was up. Her sister my aunt had passed. Feel sad we couldnt get in there to see her. She was just to busted up to make her new again. I will miss her.

Well now it is friday 10:30am. Waiting to see the Dr. .Starring at the floor and pickin at my finger. My name is called and I look up and follow Nancy to "the room" . No hug or kiss. She went right into my kidney biopsy. Yeah I got it back. Almost 3 years in remisson. Start treatments in a few weeks. Why do i gotta f####ng wait!! I hope I dont go into stage 4 waiting on insurance to approve my treatments. Thats messed up !! Getting an IV drip insted of chemo or radiation. Had radiation last time. Its the same stuff I had in my head. Slow growing. Give insurance time to get caught up. Stayed home yesterday to just be quiet and think whats gonna happen. Thinkin that I should be doing something at my yards. Better not cause my head wasnt in it. Might hurt myself not thinkin.

Today again balls to the wall to get my stuff done before treatments. Makes me feel good doing that.That stuff does what it does BUT it is NOT takin my yards away from me!

Thank you very much for reading my ramblings and caring.

s

S....I am so very sorry to hear this, & I know exactly how devastating that hearing a diagnosis of the C is, firsthand.

Remain as focused & as positive as you can. Holding space for you, my friend!!

My heartfelt condolences to you & your family on the death of your aunt. I am very sad you are having to deal with this doubly heartbreaking news.

Hang in there. be gentle with you. Loving hugs, S.

[rustedrims]

Gotta start with an apology. I am sorry bout my last post. Kinda went off on my stuff. Sittin here alone thinkin bout what I am going to be going through. I did get my phone call today. Insurance didnt take as long as I thought it was going to. I start my treatments wednesday. Would start tomorrow but I am not going to miss Aunt Sherrys funeral. Going to get 5 treatments then a CT scan to see if that stuff worked. Then after that life goes on with me in it. thankyou

s

[rustedrims]

On Wednesday I will be getting my 3rd treatment. Starting my 2nd fight with this stuff. I am a little scared.Sometimes I don't want to go to sleep. Going to step quietly out the back door and get myself through this as best as I can. Thank you all for all the kind words and support over the past years. Prayers for us all.

s

[clay]

Originally Posted by rustedrims

On Wednesday I will be getting my 3rd treatment. Starting my 2nd fight with this stuff. I am a little scared.Sometimes I don't want to go to sleep. Going to step quietly out the back door and get myself through this as best as I can. Thank you all for all the kind words and support over the past years. Prayers for us all.

s

Saving space for you. Healing energies, S. Take care of you!!