Something horrible just happened

[WildHorses]

I am sorry that happened to you anaisninja but you MUST go to work.

Taking care of you and what is best for you is what counts. I am NOT saying
it is easy. But in the end we are really the only ones who "look after" ourselves.

Many times when we give our hearts it gets handed back to us looking like
it was in a blender for a month.

YOU take care of you which includes (in my pea brain) going to work and doing what you need to do.

WH

Originally Posted by anaisninja

I don't even know where to put this post.

(And for the first time since I joined this forum, the chat room is not working tonight.)

The woman I thought liked me, went up to move her truck and never came back.

On our date.

I feel... like I've just been stabbed. Like there is something deeply, terribly wrong with me. Like I'm not worth loving. Or even fucking.

This has never happened to me. No one has ever treated me this way. Except for the woman in Illinois. So that is twice in 2 weeks now.

For a split second, when she went to go move her truck, I thought - if she doesn't come back I'm going to quit my job and leave the state. But I didn't believe it. I didn't believe a person could be so cruel. But then, she never came back.

Maybe this is a message from the Universe. I can't go to work tomorrow, even though it's my 3rd day on the job. That's it. I give up. I'm done.

[Smiling]

Once upon a time when I was going through a particularly nasty breakup, a dear friend gave me a piece of advice. He told me, "Throw yourself into your work."

In retrospect, this was good advice for the following reasons -
First of all, it keeps you busy and your mind on something [else] productive. Secondly, it increases your self-esteem when you do something, do it well, and can take pride in it. And finally, maybe you have some ambition and might like to move up the ladder. Being good at what you do will always help in that regard.

I, of course, took his advice to the extreme and became focused on my job to the exclusion of everything else, lol. Please don't do that; just know that his advice really does work.

What has happened to you is a reflection of your date's character and says nothing at all about you - except maybe that you really got lucky and dodged a bullet. Whew!

Try to force yourself to go to work tomorrow. It won't do you any good to stay home and fixate on it.

(I realize this is easier said than done, of course, so take what you can from my advice and leave the rest; but please do try to realize that the problem isn't yours).