What is on your mind - Page 292

Soft*Silver · 04-13-2011, 03:27 PM

one can never have too many shoes...

04-13-2011, 03:31 PM

Next week. Me, night owl...her, working-up-at-4am-bed-at-8pm. *le sigh*

WingsOnFire · 04-13-2011, 07:51 PM

Excited to go on my scrapbooking trip with my best friend for the next 4 days. I will miss my Sir very much but I know I will have a blast!

violaine · 04-13-2011, 07:59 PM

a friend of twelve years was terribly ill- shaking in the sun today.

msW8ing · 04-14-2011, 03:03 AM

Use iced water?

Quote:

Originally Posted by Ink

Why won't my Jello set faster?

Kenna · 04-14-2011, 03:09 AM

Wishing for a full night's good sleep....
thinking of possibly renting that rustic cabin at the lake this weekend....even if it rains.

MysticOceansFL · 04-14-2011, 03:25 AM

Waking up an going to class!

cara · 04-14-2011, 03:37 PM

how much I hate the feel of wooden Popsicle sticks on my tongue.

Blech!

~Bo · 04-14-2011, 08:48 PM

All My Children is ending in September.

What will Susan Lucci do???

Bootboi · 04-14-2011, 09:02 PM

‎4 months of planning/redesign of our IT Change Mgmt Process will be presented tomorrow to Sr. Exec Mgmt. *whew* seeing the light at the end of a very longggggg tunnel.

Wish an old bear luck!

DamonK · 04-14-2011, 09:22 PM

Various situations and people

Soft*Silver · 04-14-2011, 09:36 PM

I am going to go to Massachussetts to see a horse. The percheron didnt work out. I am running out of time before the surgery that may or may not happen depending on if I do or do not have medical coverage..lol. My life is betwixt and between and I am NOT handling it well and I need to take a ..what do you call it? A 420 break? Nothing I do often but I cant get my damn medication and its the only pain altering depression alternative I have right now...and my submissive is long haired child of that culture...

now how did I get off topic?

JakeTulane · 04-14-2011, 10:12 PM

That I deserved it. I was a fool to hope. There is no reading between the lines.. it was right there before Me all along. Indeed.

scootebaby · 04-14-2011, 10:28 PM

here it is 1230 in the morning and im STILL awake...sleeping pill at 9--no effect....dilaudid about 45 min ago...nothing....felt horrible most of day--headache,dizzy,nauseous,and in pain---wtf is going on???

sylvie · 04-15-2011, 03:10 PM

my father's alcoholism... *sad sigh*

i do so well, to distance myself these days, but when the going gets tough, it's hard to seem uncaring.. i know it's not that i don't care, because i do, and i want him well and i want him to stop and it's been years and years of taking care of him and it tears me apart to see him do this to himself and constantly rush him to the hospital..

i had to distance myself for my own sanity, because it's not something i can stop and it's certainly not my addiction to own either.. and i feel for him, for being in what seems like this deep sadness and lack of energy and he just isn't well.. his liver isn't well.. his heart isn't well.. so i need to not take this on..

but part of me just feels soo soo guilty, for not being there for him when he's going through his pain, his feeling unwell, his looking unwell.. i'm scared he'll start taking the seizures from withdrawal symptoms, and i'm also so scared he'll hurt himself or someone else... i'm just scared.. i'm scared that i'm making a bad decision my distancing him when he's like this, i'm scared i'll lose my father to this addiction and feel an enormous amount of guilt for the rest of my life for not trying to do what i could.. though i've tried for about 30 years now - i have begged, i have pleaded, i have taken over being his next of kin and tried to intervene, i've tried everything.. there just isn't anything more i can do unless he seeks help.. i just want to break down and cry when i hear him this way..

this week, i will try and gain the strength to make that phonecall again, to attend al anon meetings.. the first time i tried, i didnt return after the first meeting, i was a twisted ball of emotions and petrified to go back. but i need something... anything...

=(

Miss Scarlett · 04-15-2011, 10:37 PM

Why my cell phone display just lit up for no apparent reason...Mercury, is that you?

Kenna · 04-18-2011, 09:40 PM

Today: I've had so much on my mind that I think my brain is melting or my head it about to explode!!
Please, someone, light the fuse so I can get this FizzleSizzlePopAndCrackle over with!!

I'm look forward to a "thought free, brain power free zone" this coming weekend; I will be....

scootebaby · 04-18-2011, 09:56 PM

thinking about how strange but cool my little brain damaged kitty is...i have to share(spoon feed) my lemon pie yogurt,jello,peanut butter sandwich,fudgesicles,and now banana bread with her....she was like an animal going crazy for the bread just a second ago.......i sure love that little confused,precious thing

Andrew, Jr. · 04-19-2011, 11:35 AM

Where can I find a bobble head of the Progressive Insur. lady?

SnackTime · 04-19-2011, 10:11 PM

The line of storms coming through

04-13-2011, 03:27 PM	#5821
SoftSilver Infamous Member How Do You Identify?: femme Preferred Pronoun?: she Relationship Status: Married Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: rose cottage Posts: 5,592 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 8,948 Thanked 15,906 Times in 4,062 Posts Rep Power*: 21474857	one can never have too many shoes... __________________ Pole bachit, a lis chuye. The field sees, the forest hears

04-13-2011, 07:51 PM	#5823
WingsOnFire Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Queer..femme.. .babygirl...girl Preferred Pronoun?: Female Ones... Relationship Status: Enjoying life but ready to meet someone Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Portland Oregon Posts: 3,945 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 12,015 Thanked 12,476 Times in 3,357 Posts Rep Power: 21474855	Excited to go on my scrapbooking trip with my best friend for the next 4 days. I will miss my Sir very much but I know I will have a blast! __________________ Previously known as MidnightBlueEyes ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ http://gailsforum.files.wordpress.co...-psd340941.png

04-14-2011, 03:09 AM	#5826
Kenna Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Fiery, Sassy, Tough As Nails, Femme Tomboy Preferred Pronoun?: She Relationship Status: I am your favorite hello and hardest goodbye. Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: NC & CO Posts: 4,806 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 4,624 Thanked 12,194 Times in 3,779 Posts Rep Power: 21474856	Wishing for a full night's good sleep.... thinking of possibly renting that rustic cabin at the lake this weekend....even if it rains. __________________ **************************** She has been through hell, so believe me when I say, fear her when she looks into a fire and smiles. ~E.Corona~

04-14-2011, 03:25 AM	#5827
MysticOceansFL Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Butch, Preferred Pronoun?: People call me by my nic name. Relationship Status: Not Single, Not Desperate. Join Date: Jun 2010 Location: Florida Posts: 3,833 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 4,645 Thanked 4,033 Times in 1,720 Posts Rep Power: 21474855	Waking up an going to class! __________________ Faith is not belief without proof, but trust without reservation. It is said, " Some lives are linked across time..... Connected by an ancient calling that echoes through the ages "......

04-14-2011, 03:37 PM	#5828
cara Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Queer/lesbian femme Preferred Pronoun?: She/her Relationship Status: Married to my love 08.15.15 Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Indianapolis, IN Posts: 3,401 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 11,995 Thanked 13,254 Times in 2,725 Posts Rep Power: 21474855	I'm thinking about... how much I hate the feel of wooden Popsicle sticks on my tongue. Blech! __________________ "The world in which you were born is just one model of reality. Other cultures are not failed attempts at being you; they are unique manifestations of the human spirit." ~Wade Davis

04-13-2011, 03:31 PM	#5822
Daktari Guest Tournaments Won: 1 Posts: n/a My Photo Gallery	Next week. Me, night owl...her, working-up-at-4am-bed-at-8pm. le sigh

04-13-2011, 07:59 PM	#5824
violaine Timed Out How Do You Identify?: atypical Preferred Pronoun?: plague words and phrases Relationship Status: love wise guys of the avian world Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: wekiva springs basin Posts: 3,236 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 9,934 Thanked 3,293 Times in 1,301 Posts Rep Power: 0	a friend of twelve years was terribly ill- shaking in the sun today.

04-14-2011, 08:48 PM	#5829
~Bo Senior Member How Do You Identify?: FTM Preferred Pronoun?: He Join Date: Jan 2010 Location: PA Posts: 1,590 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 2,247 Thanked 1,680 Times in 742 Posts Rep Power: 13485855	All My Children is ending in September. What will Susan Lucci do???

04-14-2011, 09:02 PM	#5830
Bootboi Member How Do You Identify?: Butch Bear Preferred Pronoun?: Mister Bear.. lol actually whatever not a big deal to me. Relationship Status: Solo sauntering along Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Minneapolis, Minnesota Posts: 216 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 127 Thanked 327 Times in 107 Posts Rep Power: 2089260	I may have a life soon... ‎4 months of planning/redesign of our IT Change Mgmt Process will be presented tomorrow to Sr. Exec Mgmt. whew seeing the light at the end of a very longggggg tunnel. Wish an old bear luck!

04-14-2011, 09:22 PM	#5831
DamonK Senior Member How Do You Identify?: . Preferred Pronoun?: . Relationship Status: . Join Date: May 2010 Location: . Posts: 2,199 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 1,527 Thanked 7,762 Times in 1,881 Posts Rep Power: 21474854	Various situations and people

04-14-2011, 09:36 PM	#5832
SoftSilver Infamous Member How Do You Identify?: femme Preferred Pronoun?: she Relationship Status: Married Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: rose cottage Posts: 5,592 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 8,948 Thanked 15,906 Times in 4,062 Posts Rep Power*: 21474857	I am going to go to Massachussetts to see a horse. The percheron didnt work out. I am running out of time before the surgery that may or may not happen depending on if I do or do not have medical coverage..lol. My life is betwixt and between and I am NOT handling it well and I need to take a ..what do you call it? A 420 break? Nothing I do often but I cant get my damn medication and its the only pain altering depression alternative I have right now...and my submissive is long haired child of that culture... now how did I get off topic? __________________ Pole bachit, a lis chuye. The field sees, the forest hears

04-14-2011, 10:12 PM	#5833
JakeTulane Timed Out How Do You Identify?: Mr. Prickly Porcupine Preferred Pronoun?: Butch - Hy, Hym, Hys Relationship Status: She has softened My quills Join Date: Dec 2009 Location: Permanently Banned 8/8/2011 Posts: 4,880 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 6,221 Thanked 5,264 Times in 2,732 Posts Rep Power: 0	That I deserved it. I was a fool to hope. There is no reading between the lines.. it was right there before Me all along. Indeed.

04-14-2011, 10:28 PM	#5834
scootebaby Timed Out How Do You Identify?: yes dear Preferred Pronoun?: she Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: south florida Posts: 2,494 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 3,264 Thanked 6,737 Times in 1,777 Posts Rep Power: 0	here it is 1230 in the morning and im STILL awake...sleeping pill at 9--no effect....dilaudid about 45 min ago...nothing....felt horrible most of day--headache,dizzy,nauseous,and in pain---wtf is going on???

04-15-2011, 03:10 PM	#5835
sylvie Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Mr Mtn's babygirl Preferred Pronoun?: girly, she Relationship Status: fiercely protected ♥ Join Date: Jan 2010 Location: Moving home in OR with Him VERY soooon !! Posts: 2,548 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 4,834 Thanked 7,501 Times in 1,850 Posts Rep Power: 21474854	my father's alcoholism... sad sigh i do so well, to distance myself these days, but when the going gets tough, it's hard to seem uncaring.. i know it's not that i don't care, because i do, and i want him well and i want him to stop and it's been years and years of taking care of him and it tears me apart to see him do this to himself and constantly rush him to the hospital.. i had to distance myself for my own sanity, because it's not something i can stop and it's certainly not my addiction to own either.. and i feel for him, for being in what seems like this deep sadness and lack of energy and he just isn't well.. his liver isn't well.. his heart isn't well.. so i need to not take this on.. but part of me just feels soo soo guilty, for not being there for him when he's going through his pain, his feeling unwell, his looking unwell.. i'm scared he'll start taking the seizures from withdrawal symptoms, and i'm also so scared he'll hurt himself or someone else... i'm just scared.. i'm scared that i'm making a bad decision my distancing him when he's like this, i'm scared i'll lose my father to this addiction and feel an enormous amount of guilt for the rest of my life for not trying to do what i could.. though i've tried for about 30 years now - i have begged, i have pleaded, i have taken over being his next of kin and tried to intervene, i've tried everything.. there just isn't anything more i can do unless he seeks help.. i just want to break down and cry when i hear him this way.. this week, i will try and gain the strength to make that phonecall again, to attend al anon meetings.. the first time i tried, i didnt return after the first meeting, i was a twisted ball of emotions and petrified to go back. but i need something... anything... =( __________________ my Mantra: i am letting go of angers, continuing to find forgiveness, welcoming inner peace & deserving of it all. my facebook weight loss page: http://www.facebook.com/asyllyjourney

04-15-2011, 10:37 PM	#5836
Miss Scarlett Infamous Member How Do You Identify?: Femme Relationship Status: . Join Date: Feb 2010 Location: . Posts: 5,530 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 4,478 Thanked 12,947 Times in 3,419 Posts Rep Power: 21474857	Why my cell phone display just lit up for no apparent reason...Mercury, is that you?

04-18-2011, 09:40 PM	#5837
Kenna Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Fiery, Sassy, Tough As Nails, Femme Tomboy Preferred Pronoun?: She Relationship Status: I am your favorite hello and hardest goodbye. Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: NC & CO Posts: 4,806 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 4,624 Thanked 12,194 Times in 3,779 Posts Rep Power: 21474856	Today: I've had so much on my mind that I think my brain is melting or my head it about to explode!! Please, someone, light the fuse so I can get this FizzleSizzlePopAndCrackle over with!! I'm look forward to a "thought free, brain power free zone" this coming weekend; I will be.... __________________ **************************** She has been through hell, so believe me when I say, fear her when she looks into a fire and smiles. ~E.Corona~

04-18-2011, 09:56 PM	#5838
scootebaby Timed Out How Do You Identify?: yes dear Preferred Pronoun?: she Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: south florida Posts: 2,494 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 3,264 Thanked 6,737 Times in 1,777 Posts Rep Power: 0	thinking about how strange but cool my little brain damaged kitty is...i have to share(spoon feed) my lemon pie yogurt,jello,peanut butter sandwich,fudgesicles,and now banana bread with her....she was like an animal going crazy for the bread just a second ago.......i sure love that little confused,precious thing

04-19-2011, 11:35 AM	#5839
Andrew, Jr. Timed Out How Do You Identify?: Me Preferred Pronoun?: He Relationship Status: Unavailable Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Over the Rainbow in a House Posts: 5,072 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 16,004 Thanked 5,249 Times in 2,216 Posts Rep Power: 0	What is on my mind... Where can I find a bobble head of the Progressive Insur. lady?

04-19-2011, 10:11 PM	#5840
SnackTime Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Transgender Preferred Pronoun?: He Relationship Status: UNattainable Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Feeling the ocean breeze... Posts: 4,868 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 10,393 Thanked 13,228 Times in 2,883 Posts Rep Power: 21474856	The line of storms coming through __________________ "There's something to be said for not saying anything"