What is on your mind

[smouldering]

A lot of things, worried about if in the next few months will i be able to move where i want to move, and getting everything caught up.
On the upside I am glad it is the weekend and tomorrow I get to sleep in and relax.

...wondering where my mind has gone

[JustLovelyJenn]

How am I supposed to keep a seven year old ninja stealth specialist out of goodies and sweets at 4:30 in the morning when I was up doing homework and trying to wind down till midnight?

[TheDreadPirateRoberts]

Originally Posted by JustLovelyJenn

How am I supposed to keep a seven year old ninja stealth specialist out of goodies and sweets at 4:30 in the morning when I was up doing homework and trying to wind down till midnight?

we have what it takes to get through this.....i hope the new plan will start soon and you'll start noticing some improvement.....for the record though...i love staying up with you and just ...talking about whatever comes 2 mind

[grenade]

I'm on a work appointment and my tricep is spasming. It's driving me nuts.

[Sassy]

My newest staff member just gave notice, sort of. Tomorrow is his last day. I don't blame him for bailing. The job he is leaving is only temporary through July. He's taking a 3 year contract job in a different part of the state and his start date for his new job is in 2 weeks, so he has to find a new place and move. I get it. I'm just really annoyed. I just got him trained to the point he's reliable. ... Pardon my pity party. It's a helluva way to start the work day.

[Gemme]

Originally Posted by Sassy

My newest staff member just gave notice, sort of. Tomorrow is his last day. I don't blame him for bailing. The job he is leaving is only temporary through July. He's taking a 3 year contract job in a different part of the state and his start date for his new job is in 2 weeks, so he has to find a new place and move. I get it. I'm just really annoyed. I just got him trained to the point he's reliable. ... Pardon my pity party. It's a helluva way to start the work day.

I'm in the midst of training someone. Someone's who's just not getting it and when the dots are connected one day, they are completely forgotten the next.

*sigh*

That sucks for you. I hope you find someone soon.

[adorable]

I went to dinner tonight with my BFF of 20 years. I love her more than words. She was diagnosed last year with breast cancer. It's amazing to me how for so many years, I never knew anyone with cancer and then - I literally lost three people I cared deeply about to cancer last year and four friends were newly diagnosed all within a matter of months. Somehow buying something pink just doesn't cut it. It's a powerless feeling.
A diagnosis of fear. Truly.

[Legendryder]

I am a bit nervous about my interview tomorrow. It has been many years since I have had to look for a job and I am out of practice. I am glad it isn't until 3pm, so at least I will have the time to sleep in if I can't drop off tonight.

[girl_dee]

How good my reality feels.

[Honey]

How to get Mr. Bob Villa to come and fix This Old House

[1QuirkyKiwi]

You can tell a lot about a person from their home décor and the things adorning their walls and display cabinets; my walls are covered with various tribal wooden carvings and artworks from NZ (ancestral), Africa and Asia, along with decorative plates and hand embroideries….my cabinets with ornaments from my travels, etc.

My home looks like a small Museum entwined with feminine Shabby Chic and what seem like a gazillion cushions and hand embroidered blankets. My dinning room looks more like an Arts and sewing studio than a place for actually eating! LOL!

Ks’ home is a complete contrast to mine; nicely decorated in white (it felt a little like sitting in a posh snow blizzard! LOL!), and the walls have pictures hanging symmetrically. Her ornaments placed almost regimentally (it’s easy to see hy was an Army Medic for 25 years! LOL! No wonder the patients don’t give her any hassle, lol!). I felt a little nervous having lunch there yesterday in case I accidently spilt my tea, lol!

We are complete opposites of each other, yet, we share, believe and feel the same about things, only, we come at them from different perspectives….maybe opposites really do attract!

[~Bo]

Hearing that JoePa's condition has worsened.


JoePa

[Random]

Originally Posted by Gemme

I'm in the midst of training someone. Someone's who's just not getting it and when the dots are connected one day, they are completely forgotten the next.

*sigh*

That sucks for you. I hope you find someone soon.

You should have hired me... I'm sure the communte isn't as bad as everyone says...

[Random]

So....

Over the years, I have had a lover or two allude to the fact that I present a bit more butch than they would like.

Frankly it's fucked with my head quite a bit... (Cause in my head I am a lil raggamuffin doll with yarn hair and drooping sox... I don't feel butch at all.)

I've been working on it NOT fucking with my head for years....

I think some of the work is working....

So... I'm doing some banquet service for cash until I get a full time job...

What does one wear when doing white linen service?

You wear a tux... (no vest thank goodness, all those clothes are hot)

I generally don't do mirrors, but I needed to make sure my bow tie was correct and my shirt things were not all twisted...

I looked into the mirror and saw

Short, short, short, hair,round body, andro glasses, tux, no make up.... and I was ok with it... I saw a woman...

I don't know if it's just I don't care right now, or if I'm finally comfortable with who I am and have stopped wishing to be a carbon copy of my mom...

But it was nice... to see myself dressed like a guy and still feel like a girl...

[JustLovelyJenn]

Lately, what has been on my mind is all the stops along the way to where I am.

August of 2005 I moved in to my parents house with my two kids. My daughter was almost 3 and my baby son had just turned 1 that June. My husband, I had just found out, had been skimming our paychecks to pay for drugs. He was clean again... and the plan then was to find a new job, then send for us.

By October of 2005, I knew I didn't want to go back. I started back to school, and looked for ways to build a new life.

I came out that year as a lesbian. I think I was more surprised then anyone.

I started my first relationship with a woman that spring. I loved her dearly, and to this day we are still close friends. I lived with her for 2 years, she taught me many things, about myself, and about the new world I found myself in the middle of.

Since then there have been a steady stream of wishful possibilities, and all ending with the same result... Wanting me to be someone I wasn't. And in the end I was always too much or not in enough.

A year ago, two people came into my life. They became my friends quickly. Friends with a complicated history and obvious feelings for one another. I talked to each as they expressed their doubts of turning to one another again and I watched as they found the balance they didn't find before.

What I didn't expect was the jealousy of what they had... not because I didn't have it, but because I wasn't involved in it. I had grown to love them both, and in many ways... that love was stronger then the love of a friend.

I said nothing, started dating someone... Someone I shouldn't have. I ignored the red flags about this person, both from my friends, and from my own mind. These two dear friends never left my side, not when I ignored them, accused them, and started to turn away from them...

I finally saw what I was allowing to happen, and ended the manipulation I had not seen was there... and again I had back the wonderful friends that were so much more...

I kept myself at a distance, but found my feelings growing stronger. Not wanting to spoil the love between my friends or the friendship I had built so strong... It was them who broke the barrier... and once the curtain was drawn... I was amazed to see the space in their happiness where I fit perfectly.

Its been more than a month now since my Pirate made me realize that "as you wish" meant "I love you". I have never felt more at peace, or more confident about my life... And not just my relationship. I feel in control and confident in every area of my life. I found balance and joy in this relationship. The three of us, fit perfectly, stronger twisted together, then any of us could ever be alone.

[TheDreadPirateRoberts]

Originally Posted by JustLovelyJenn

Lately, what has been on my mind is all the stops along the way to where I am.

August of 2005 I moved in to my parents house with my two kids. My daughter was almost 3 and my baby son had just turned 1 that June. My husband, I had just found out, had been skimming our paychecks to pay for drugs. He was clean again... and the plan then was to find a new job, then send for us.

By October of 2005, I knew I didn't want to go back. I started back to school, and looked for ways to build a new life.

I came out that year as a lesbian. I think I was more surprised then anyone.

I started my first relationship with a woman that spring. I loved her dearly, and to this day we are still close friends. I lived with her for 2 years, she taught me many things, about myself, and about the new world I found myself in the middle of.

Since then there have been a steady stream of wishful possibilities, and all ending with the same result... Wanting me to be someone I wasn't. And in the end I was always too much or not in enough.

A year ago, two people came into my life. They became my friends quickly. Friends with a complicated history and obvious feelings for one another. I talked to each as they expressed their doubts of turning to one another again and I watched as they found the balance they didn't find before.

What I didn't expect was the jealousy of what they had... not because I didn't have it, but because I wasn't involved in it. I had grown to love them both, and in many ways... that love was stronger then the love of a friend.

I said nothing, started dating someone... Someone I shouldn't have. I ignored the red flags about this person, both from my friends, and from my own mind. These two dear friends never left my side, not when I ignored them, accused them, and started to turn away from them...

I finally saw what I was allowing to happen, and ended the manipulation I had not seen was there... and again I had back the wonderful friends that were so much more...

I kept myself at a distance, but found my feelings growing stronger. Not wanting to spoil the love between my friends or the friendship I had built so strong... It was them who broke the barrier... and once the curtain was drawn... I was amazed to see the space in their happiness where I fit perfectly.

Its been more than a month now since my Pirate made me realize that "as you wish" meant "I love you". I have never felt more at peace, or more confident about my life... And not just my relationship. I feel in control and confident in every area of my life. I found balance and joy in this relationship. The three of us, fit perfectly, stronger twisted together, then any of us could ever be alone.

i love u so much....we both do...and we're never leaving your side.....we will always be family....and you deserve every bit of happiness you found....the past made you stronger....i'll embrace every moment we share with gratitude...true love...and hope for the future we will build together.....YOU are amazing...thank you so much for the love ...and support you have given us in the last year.....you're worth it all....

[Lady Pamela]

Hoping all those in the storm path are safe.

[moxie]

Is it February 16 yet?

[TheDreadPirateRoberts]

just a lot of random little thoughts.....about time...family....doctor appts....wishing i could go shopping with you both at the moment....how intense this book is....and that i might need chocolate by the end of the night....