What is on your mind - Page 399

luv2luvgirls · 05-08-2012, 06:51 AM

WOW that was a hell of a lot easier than Ebay.. people coming a little later to pick it up all done and free for me to sell

thanks baby

WingsOnFire · 05-08-2012, 07:52 AM

how sweet hy is and how hy worries when he hasn't heard from me. I am blessed to have two special people in my life.

PinkieLee · 05-08-2012, 07:59 AM

What's on my mind.... wishing this horrible headache would go away. It's a throbbing pain at the base of my head... OUCH

StoneOne · 05-08-2012, 10:48 AM

what will it be ? what will we need to do ? will we have to go on defense ? will we be able to breath easy ? I guess the answer is not the point it is not knowing ......

Breezy · 05-09-2012, 06:34 PM

How to help one of my co-workers?

TimilDeeps · 05-09-2012, 06:47 PM

Wednesday Night Baseball

girl_dee · 05-09-2012, 07:27 PM

a long chat with my old boss and friend, he sounded like he did the last time i talked to him, burnt out and tired. i worry about him.

dixie · 05-09-2012, 07:34 PM

I'm relieved that my financial aid for fall and next spring came through. I'm happy to have only one class this summer rather than a full load, because it will allow me to have more time with my honey. I miss her something fierce.

princessbelle · 05-09-2012, 07:42 PM

What great men i raised, who are pro women and respectful and stand up for our rights.

I had wanted girls, honestly, but was given boys. I thought OMG what do i do with them, how do i teach them, how do i relate to them. Somehow along the way they turned out pretty dad gum wonderful. Now, that they are men, they are so in tune to the gay world, our struggles, our daily fight with prejudice, and they recognize the misogyny and will stand up for our rights.

I am just so darn proud i could bust.

pajama · 05-09-2012, 07:48 PM

I've had so much on my mind lately. Enough that it's kept me tossing and turning the last two nights. But today, some of it got resolved. Some of it money, some of it logistics, and some of it relationship.

And while I knew it would come, and I knew it would be painful for Her. I still hate to see Her go through it.

I love this community that gives me an outlet and a support system.

BrutalDaddy · 05-09-2012, 08:36 PM

Just wishing like hell that I wasn't so internally torn when it comes to what is best for everyone versus what's best for me.

Ever since I've been able to think for myself, I've had no issues with going down paths less used by those like me. I always tried to put the good of others in front of my own selfish wants/needs. Yet here I sit now struggling because of what I've learned in the past few hours.

Why can't I just have it my way and their way? It's not like I can just ignore the facts and do what I feel like I want. Just doesn't work that way anymore.

Maybe I'm evolving. Maybe I'm just getting cranky with each passing year. Maybe I just need to sleep on it. Maybe I just need to realize that it'll never be easy to decide which will take priority. Damned if I do, damned if I don't.

It's just so hard to understand. Having one foot in one part of this world because of my beliefs and the other foot in the other part of the world because of who I am. That makes it so much harder. One side judges me because of where my left foot is planted and the other judges me because of where my right foot is planted.

Why can't everyone else just come out of the dark ages so EVERYONE can be happy and feel like they belong.

Bleh,
Brute.

PinkieLee · 05-10-2012, 08:06 AM

What's on my mind...

a long overdo vacation. Daydreams about someplace tropical, floating in a pool, shutting the whole world off for awhile. And a cabana boy & girl wouldn't hurt either

Ginger · 05-10-2012, 08:15 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Miss_Tia

I am taking high doses of pain meds to deal with the tooth infection I have. I am seeing the dentist on Weds. But while I am waiting, the razor sharp pain in my mouth is wearing me down. I cant even put my tongue on that tooth. Thus, the pain meds.

Pain medication does a number on my personality. I am not so much fun to be around. I have to give it to chrissy for understanding how to deal with me. he darts in and out of the room, bringing me items, checking on me, then giving me space. I hate being fussed over when I am in pain. I am likely to chew someone's arm off.

I remembered today, some of my exes and how they dealt with me when I was in pain. Some did rather good. And a few, deserved Worst Partner of the Century awards. Glad those days are over. Glad the one here is a good person, and reads me well.

Weds is just a day and a half away...we can do this...

I hope you felt better after seeing the dentists. (I think your appointment was yesterday.) I wish you hadn't had to wait, that seems so cruel.

ruby_woo · 05-10-2012, 11:53 AM

Allergies, unfortunately. I never had them until I moved to BC. I sneezed so loudly in the bathroom at work a minute ago that it actually echoed.

Point~Of~No~Return · 05-10-2012, 12:02 PM

next steps in the cause of action

who to bring in who to leave out

pictures speak volumns

which course of action for phase 2

Talon · 05-10-2012, 12:19 PM

I'm just really worried and concerned about a very close relative, who may have to have one of her eyes removed...(the good one).

I truly love her...and it's really killing me to see her emotional anguish, and dealing with so much physical suffering.

....

.....

shiagirl · 05-10-2012, 12:56 PM

If i told ya then i'd have to _ _ _ _ Ya!

and get Your mind outta the gutter please. tee hee

Luv · 05-10-2012, 01:35 PM

I just found out that all three of my brothers kids got Baptized this past Sunday..we were at their house Saturday and they didnt say anything to us about it..Im kinda frustraited cause that sucks..so much for the family huh ?

sylvie · 05-10-2012, 07:49 PM

The other night, walking home from an OA meeting, a man attempted to attack me..

As i came to the corner and started to turn, he stepped out and pushed me against the building with his arm across my chest, holding me tight so i could barely breathe.. He kept yelling in my face, and i could barely understand him..i remember trembling, and thinking what do i do.

In any situation i feel threatened in, my first instinct is to kick.. i have strong legs, and given the chance i kick like a mule.. He was pressed hard against me, yet i managed to lift my leg enough to get my foot on him and push him off me, i admit i was aiming for his nuts, but whatever worked at that point.

Once i pushed him a bit off me, i grabbed my bag full of recovery books, and swung with all my might, connecting my bag to the back of his neck/head and i screamed while doing so, and took off running... Once i got myself to a more open and populated area, i turned and was ready to take him on again if need be, i was seriously ready to kick his ass i think...Not sure where it all came from, but he had ran in the other direction..

Once i got home, after calling the police, etc....i had my meltdown followed by a hot shower and Daddy helped calm me down.. The upset doesn't hit me until i am safe, i was scared, SO scared...

And be darn if that jerk will make me paranoid and scared to walk like i do.. i am happy that i 'can' defend myself now, and very happy that he wasn't behind me when i turned back around. The last couple of days, i have been petrified at every corner i turn. i have been looking over my shoulder and glaring at every passerby.. i don't want to be this way!

But seriously, counting my blessings that he didn't get whatever he was after, and that i wasn't hurt..that's what counts..
(well okay, that AND the fact i clobbered him with recovery books!!)

Cid · 05-10-2012, 08:00 PM

OMG Sylvie, you're amazing! I'm not sure how I would have reacted. So many times I've thought...if this ever happened, this is how I would react. Until the day that it does happen and I react totally different from what I thought.

You were a hero! You stepped up and took care of yourself and defended yourself to the point where you had him running away from you! You did so good!! You should be so proud of yourself.

I'm sorry that happened to you and I'm pretty sure you wished it didn't. But at least you know that you can defend yourself when confronted.

What you might want to do now though is find someone that you can talk to about this. This is really a traumatic event and should be treated as such. Don't just shrug it off. You need to deal with this before it gets to you.

05-08-2012, 07:52 AM	#7962
WingsOnFire Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Queer..femme.. .babygirl...girl Preferred Pronoun?: Female Ones... Relationship Status: Enjoying life but ready to meet someone Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Portland Oregon Posts: 3,945 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 12,015 Thanked 12,476 Times in 3,357 Posts Rep Power: 21474855	how sweet hy is and how hy worries when he hasn't heard from me. I am blessed to have two special people in my life. __________________ Previously known as MidnightBlueEyes ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ http://gailsforum.files.wordpress.co...-psd340941.png

05-08-2012, 10:48 AM	#7964
StoneOne Timed Out How Do You Identify?: StoneOne Preferred Pronoun?: SyrDamon Join Date: Aug 2011 Location: Washington State Posts: 462 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 9,965 Thanked 1,441 Times in 382 Posts Rep Power: 0	waiting ..... waiting ........ what will it be ? what will we need to do ? will we have to go on defense ? will we be able to breath easy ? I guess the answer is not the point it is not knowing ......

05-09-2012, 07:42 PM	#7969
princessbelle Infamous Member How Do You Identify?: femme Preferred Pronoun?: femme ones Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Tennessee Posts: 6,100 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 29,380 Thanked 30,496 Times in 5,198 Posts Rep Power: 21474858	What great men i raised, who are pro women and respectful and stand up for our rights. I had wanted girls, honestly, but was given boys. I thought OMG what do i do with them, how do i teach them, how do i relate to them. Somehow along the way they turned out pretty dad gum wonderful. Now, that they are men, they are so in tune to the gay world, our struggles, our daily fight with prejudice, and they recognize the misogyny and will stand up for our rights. I am just so darn proud i could bust. __________________ ~ I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel. ~ Maya Angelou

05-09-2012, 08:36 PM	#7971
BrutalDaddy Member How Do You Identify?: Her Asshole. Preferred Pronoun?: Him, hym, he, whatever. Relationship Status: Bitch has no more excuses now. Join Date: May 2012 Location: Lower Alabama Posts: 519 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 206 Thanked 2,785 Times in 499 Posts Rep Power: 21474850	What isn't on my mind???? Just wishing like hell that I wasn't so internally torn when it comes to what is best for everyone versus what's best for me. Ever since I've been able to think for myself, I've had no issues with going down paths less used by those like me. I always tried to put the good of others in front of my own selfish wants/needs. Yet here I sit now struggling because of what I've learned in the past few hours. Why can't I just have it my way and their way? It's not like I can just ignore the facts and do what I feel like I want. Just doesn't work that way anymore. Maybe I'm evolving. Maybe I'm just getting cranky with each passing year. Maybe I just need to sleep on it. Maybe I just need to realize that it'll never be easy to decide which will take priority. Damned if I do, damned if I don't. It's just so hard to understand. Having one foot in one part of this world because of my beliefs and the other foot in the other part of the world because of who I am. That makes it so much harder. One side judges me because of where my left foot is planted and the other judges me because of where my right foot is planted. Why can't everyone else just come out of the dark ages so EVERYONE can be happy and feel like they belong. Bleh, Brute.

05-10-2012, 12:19 PM	#7976
Talon Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Divine Feminine Preferred Pronoun?: . Join Date: Oct 2011 Location: . Posts: 4,921 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 16,246 Thanked 10,223 Times in 3,305 Posts Rep Power: 21474854	I feel so utterly helpless. I'm just really worried and concerned about a very close relative, who may have to have one of her eyes removed...(the good one). I truly love her...and it's really killing me to see her emotional anguish, and dealing with so much physical suffering. ..............

05-08-2012, 06:51 AM	#7961
luv2luvgirls Timed Out How Do You Identify?: Asshole Join Date: Apr 2011 Location: Kentucky/Austin/Wherever Posts: 2,310 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 6,387 Thanked 5,470 Times in 1,827 Posts Rep Power: 0	WOW that was a hell of a lot easier than Ebay.. people coming a little later to pick it up all done and free for me to sell thanks baby

05-08-2012, 07:59 AM	#7963
PinkieLee Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Femme Relationship Status: I need ya boo, gotta see ya boo Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Big Money Texas Posts: 4,708 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 24,309 Thanked 13,074 Times in 3,049 Posts Rep Power: 21474856	What's on my mind.... wishing this horrible headache would go away. It's a throbbing pain at the base of my head... OUCH

05-09-2012, 06:34 PM	#7965
Breezy Member How Do You Identify?: . Join Date: Apr 2012 Location: . Posts: 1,372 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 7,337 Thanked 4,555 Times in 1,199 Posts Rep Power: 21474851	How to help one of my co-workers?

05-09-2012, 06:47 PM	#7966
TimilDeeps Senior Member How Do You Identify?: queer fucker Preferred Pronoun?: Mine Relationship Status: I'm dating myself. It's really working out. I think I'm the one!!! Join Date: Jan 2012 Location: To your right and a bit South. Posts: 1,522 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 108 Thanked 1,470 Times in 445 Posts Rep Power: 19646657	Wednesday Night Baseball

05-09-2012, 07:27 PM	#7967
girl_dee Practically Lives Here How Do You Identify?: Femme Preferred Pronoun?: dee Relationship Status: Hitched up Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Livin’ the Dream Posts: 24,079 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 30,560 Thanked 54,833 Times in 13,908 Posts Rep Power: 21474873	a long chat with my old boss and friend, he sounded like he did the last time i talked to him, burnt out and tired. i worry about him.

05-09-2012, 07:34 PM	#7968
dixie Infamous Member How Do You Identify?: I usually just poke it with a stick. Preferred Pronoun?: Bitch Relationship Status: Intertwined deeply Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: We're all a little mad here. Posts: 6,627 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 10,972 Thanked 21,383 Times in 4,808 Posts Rep Power: 21474858	I'm relieved that my financial aid for fall and next spring came through. I'm happy to have only one class this summer rather than a full load, because it will allow me to have more time with my honey. I miss her something fierce.

05-09-2012, 07:48 PM	#7970
pajama Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Klingon Preferred Pronoun?: She Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Just South of Nashvegas Baby Posts: 3,115 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 7,546 Thanked 7,476 Times in 1,808 Posts Rep Power: 21474855	I've had so much on my mind lately. Enough that it's kept me tossing and turning the last two nights. But today, some of it got resolved. Some of it money, some of it logistics, and some of it relationship. And while I knew it would come, and I knew it would be painful for Her. I still hate to see Her go through it. I love this community that gives me an outlet and a support system.

05-10-2012, 08:06 AM	#7972
PinkieLee Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Femme Relationship Status: I need ya boo, gotta see ya boo Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Big Money Texas Posts: 4,708 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 24,309 Thanked 13,074 Times in 3,049 Posts Rep Power: 21474856	What's on my mind... a long overdo vacation. Daydreams about someplace tropical, floating in a pool, shutting the whole world off for awhile. And a cabana boy & girl wouldn't hurt either

05-10-2012, 11:53 AM	#7974
ruby_woo Member How Do You Identify?: queer femme Preferred Pronoun?: her/she Relationship Status: single Join Date: Dec 2009 Location: Vancouver, BC Posts: 427 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 1,848 Thanked 1,941 Times in 376 Posts Rep Power: 17615392	Allergies, unfortunately. I never had them until I moved to BC. I sneezed so loudly in the bathroom at work a minute ago that it actually echoed.

05-10-2012, 12:02 PM	#7975
Point~Of~No~Return Timed Out How Do You Identify?: Andro-SMILES Preferred Pronoun?: Andro~Hey You~Yeah I mean you!~ Relationship Status: i hold the keys to my heart and i am only willing to give it to one Join Date: Oct 2011 Location: California ~talking to the moon~ Posts: 145 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 567 Thanked 277 Times in 107 Posts Rep Power: 0	next steps in the cause of action who to bring in who to leave out pictures speak volumns which course of action for phase 2

05-10-2012, 12:56 PM	#7977
shiagirl Member How Do You Identify?: Femme, girly girl. Daddies girl Preferred Pronoun?: Whatever is respectful and nice Relationship Status: Heart Captured and Spoiled rotten by the love of my life. Join Date: May 2012 Location: In my Boifriends arms Posts: 296 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 849 Thanked 643 Times in 171 Posts Rep Power: 7530301	Well... If i told ya then i'd have to _ _ _ _ Ya! and get Your mind outta the gutter please. tee hee

05-10-2012, 01:35 PM	#7978
Luv Member How Do You Identify?: .... Relationship Status: .. Join Date: Mar 2010 Location: ..... Posts: 753 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 1,199 Thanked 1,217 Times in 367 Posts Rep Power: 12549741	I just found out that all three of my brothers kids got Baptized this past Sunday..we were at their house Saturday and they didnt say anything to us about it..Im kinda frustraited cause that sucks..so much for the family huh ?

05-10-2012, 07:49 PM	#7979
sylvie Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Mr Mtn's babygirl Preferred Pronoun?: girly, she Relationship Status: fiercely protected ♥ Join Date: Jan 2010 Location: Moving home in OR with Him VERY soooon !! Posts: 2,548 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 4,834 Thanked 7,501 Times in 1,850 Posts Rep Power: 21474854	The other night, walking home from an OA meeting, a man attempted to attack me.. As i came to the corner and started to turn, he stepped out and pushed me against the building with his arm across my chest, holding me tight so i could barely breathe.. He kept yelling in my face, and i could barely understand him..i remember trembling, and thinking what do i do. In any situation i feel threatened in, my first instinct is to kick.. i have strong legs, and given the chance i kick like a mule.. He was pressed hard against me, yet i managed to lift my leg enough to get my foot on him and push him off me, i admit i was aiming for his nuts, but whatever worked at that point. Once i pushed him a bit off me, i grabbed my bag full of recovery books, and swung with all my might, connecting my bag to the back of his neck/head and i screamed while doing so, and took off running... Once i got myself to a more open and populated area, i turned and was ready to take him on again if need be, i was seriously ready to kick his ass i think...Not sure where it all came from, but he had ran in the other direction.. Once i got home, after calling the police, etc....i had my meltdown followed by a hot shower and Daddy helped calm me down.. The upset doesn't hit me until i am safe, i was scared, SO scared... And be darn if that jerk will make me paranoid and scared to walk like i do.. i am happy that i 'can' defend myself now, and very happy that he wasn't behind me when i turned back around. The last couple of days, i have been petrified at every corner i turn. i have been looking over my shoulder and glaring at every passerby.. i don't want to be this way! But seriously, counting my blessings that he didn't get whatever he was after, and that i wasn't hurt..that's what counts.. (well okay, that AND the fact i clobbered him with recovery books!!) __________________ my Mantra: i am letting go of angers, continuing to find forgiveness, welcoming inner peace & deserving of it all. my facebook weight loss page: http://www.facebook.com/asyllyjourney

05-10-2012, 08:00 PM	#7980
Cid Member How Do You Identify?: ultra femme princess Preferred Pronoun?: she, lady..whichever Relationship Status: waiting for the right one Join Date: Nov 2011 Location: Don't follow me, I'm lost. Posts: 807 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 2,627 Thanked 2,731 Times in 632 Posts Rep Power: 21474850	OMG Sylvie, you're amazing! I'm not sure how I would have reacted. So many times I've thought...if this ever happened, this is how I would react. Until the day that it does happen and I react totally different from what I thought. You were a hero! You stepped up and took care of yourself and defended yourself to the point where you had him running away from you! You did so good!! You should be so proud of yourself. I'm sorry that happened to you and I'm pretty sure you wished it didn't. But at least you know that you can defend yourself when confronted. What you might want to do now though is find someone that you can talk to about this. This is really a traumatic event and should be treated as such. Don't just shrug it off. You need to deal with this before it gets to you. __________________ Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass, it's about learning to dance in the rain.