What is on your mind

[Ginger]

Originally Posted by sylvie

The other night, walking home from an OA meeting, a man attempted to attack me..

As i came to the corner and started to turn, he stepped out and pushed me against the building with his arm across my chest, holding me tight so i could barely breathe.. He kept yelling in my face, and i could barely understand him..i remember trembling, and thinking what do i do.

In any situation i feel threatened in, my first instinct is to kick.. i have strong legs, and given the chance i kick like a mule.. He was pressed hard against me, yet i managed to lift my leg enough to get my foot on him and push him off me, i admit i was aiming for his nuts, but whatever worked at that point.

Once i pushed him a bit off me, i grabbed my bag full of recovery books, and swung with all my might, connecting my bag to the back of his neck/head and i screamed while doing so, and took off running... Once i got myself to a more open and populated area, i turned and was ready to take him on again if need be, i was seriously ready to kick his ass i think...Not sure where it all came from, but he had ran in the other direction..

Once i got home, after calling the police, etc....i had my meltdown followed by a hot shower and Daddy helped calm me down.. The upset doesn't hit me until i am safe, i was scared, SO scared...

And be darn if that jerk will make me paranoid and scared to walk like i do.. i am happy that i 'can' defend myself now, and very happy that he wasn't behind me when i turned back around. The last couple of days, i have been petrified at every corner i turn. i have been looking over my shoulder and glaring at every passerby.. i don't want to be this way!

But seriously, counting my blessings that he didn't get whatever he was after, and that i wasn't hurt..that's what counts..
(well okay, that AND the fact i clobbered him with recovery books!!)

Some people just have to be hit over the head with the power of recovery before they change their behavior.

Seriously...your instincts and actions were RIGHT ON!! What a brave woman. That fucker will think twice before he tries that one again.

[Reader]

Originally Posted by sylvie

The other night, walking home from an OA meeting, a man attempted to attack me..

As i came to the corner and started to turn, he stepped out and pushed me against the building with his arm across my chest, holding me tight so i could barely breathe.. He kept yelling in my face, and i could barely understand him..i remember trembling, and thinking what do i do.

In any situation i feel threatened in, my first instinct is to kick.. i have strong legs, and given the chance i kick like a mule.. He was pressed hard against me, yet i managed to lift my leg enough to get my foot on him and push him off me, i admit i was aiming for his nuts, but whatever worked at that point.

Once i pushed him a bit off me, i grabbed my bag full of recovery books, and swung with all my might, connecting my bag to the back of his neck/head and i screamed while doing so, and took off running... Once i got myself to a more open and populated area, i turned and was ready to take him on again if need be, i was seriously ready to kick his ass i think...Not sure where it all came from, but he had ran in the other direction..

Once i got home, after calling the police, etc....i had my meltdown followed by a hot shower and Daddy helped calm me down.. The upset doesn't hit me until i am safe, i was scared, SO scared...

And be darn if that jerk will make me paranoid and scared to walk like i do.. i am happy that i 'can' defend myself now, and very happy that he wasn't behind me when i turned back around. The last couple of days, i have been petrified at every corner i turn. i have been looking over my shoulder and glaring at every passerby.. i don't want to be this way!

But seriously, counting my blessings that he didn't get whatever he was after, and that i wasn't hurt..that's what counts..
(well okay, that AND the fact i clobbered him with recovery books!!)

Wow, Sister. Good job. Glad your instincts kicked in.

[Ginger]

Originally Posted by Cid

OMG Sylvie, you're amazing!

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What you might want to do now though is find someone that you can talk to about this. This is really a traumatic event and should be treated as such. Don't just shrug it off. You need to deal with this before it gets to you.

Absolutely. Sylvie, the cops should have pointed you toward crisis counseling when you gave your report. I'm sure there's something in your town...often those services generate from a women's center (just as LGBT services start at a women's center, before they get their own).

(And tangentally, I might say, why is that so? Why do women's organizations give up their meager funding to take care of the world? Because we're trained to do so... let the Elks fund it out of their pocket for a change! Okay, my rant is over.)

[Reader]

Originally Posted by IslandScout

Absolutely. Sylvie, the cops should have pointed you toward crisis counseling when you gave your report. I'm sure there's something in your town...often those services generate from a women's center (just as LGBT services start at a women's center, before they get their own).

(And tangentally, I might say, why is that so? Why do women's organizations give up their meager funding to take care of the world? Because we're trained to do so... let the Elks fund it out of their pocket for a change! Okay, my rant is over.)

Having worked a bit in the system, I think this might partly be because a lot of the same folks work (or volunteer) in places that have overlapping populations. So, folks who work or volunteer at the Food Bank also may work or volunteer at the Rape Crisis Center, etc., and they tend to advocate for the clients across agencies.

[StoneOne]

it that Doc's can forget everything and then look at you that you have lost your mind or even call you a liar???? when you say that you have been mistreated by some one in their office????

[sylvie]

Thank you so muchly, everyone..<3

Definitely proud today of how i handled it..
Thinking back to some years ago, i was beat up by two women who didn't like me because i am gay - i remember curling in a ball hoping they would stop, crying..not once did i defend myself, even with words..

And even being bullied over the years, i took it.. Every emotional beating.

< new confident girl feeling her worth & ready to protect self when need be.. i am mindful about what's going on internally about all of this, and will seek help!

Unmanageability. I slept straight through two alarms and have missed the first session of a training course this morning...tsk!

[Ebon]

Thinking about all the crap I have to do for my birthday party.

[Lazy Daze]

Originally Posted by sylvie

The other night, walking home from an OA meeting, a man attempted to attack me..

As i came to the corner and started to turn, he stepped out and pushed me against the building with his arm across my chest, holding me tight so i could barely breathe.. He kept yelling in my face, and i could barely understand him..i remember trembling, and thinking what do i do.

In any situation i feel threatened in, my first instinct is to kick.. i have strong legs, and given the chance i kick like a mule.. He was pressed hard against me, yet i managed to lift my leg enough to get my foot on him and push him off me, i admit i was aiming for his nuts, but whatever worked at that point.

Once i pushed him a bit off me, i grabbed my bag full of recovery books, and swung with all my might, connecting my bag to the back of his neck/head and i screamed while doing so, and took off running... Once i got myself to a more open and populated area, i turned and was ready to take him on again if need be, i was seriously ready to kick his ass i think...Not sure where it all came from, but he had ran in the other direction..

Once i got home, after calling the police, etc....i had my meltdown followed by a hot shower and Daddy helped calm me down.. The upset doesn't hit me until i am safe, i was scared, SO scared...

And be darn if that jerk will make me paranoid and scared to walk like i do.. i am happy that i 'can' defend myself now, and very happy that he wasn't behind me when i turned back around. The last couple of days, i have been petrified at every corner i turn. i have been looking over my shoulder and glaring at every passerby.. i don't want to be this way!

But seriously, counting my blessings that he didn't get whatever he was after, and that i wasn't hurt..that's what counts..
(well okay, that AND the fact i clobbered him with recovery books!!)

So very very very proud of you Sylvie! You did a great job!

On a side note...THIS is why Everyone should take a self defense class of some sort! I used to volunteer and teach free classes when I was in Indiana. The free classes are out there, so take advantage!

[BrutalDaddy]

Fixing to change careers again.....lordy. This economy is making it hard to support family but I refuse to let it get me down!

So truck driving here I come!!!! Gonna suck being gone all week long and only seeing her on weekends but I am stoked that the money will start flowing right away. That makes it all worth it.

Kinda Worried About the Honey-Do on the Weekend,
Brute.

[WingsOnFire]

worrying about things I can't do anything about but wishing I could help in some way.

Also the chicken enchiladas for my anniversary dinner

[genghisfawn]

So...

This guy on my project team at work is a buddy of mine. His wife taught me Christian Ethics in my grade 9 year and she is a complete sweetheart - I won him over by sincerely saying so. He plays soccer and really tries to keep fit and all the rest.

He says to me the other day, "I'm trying this new diet cleanse. Basically all you eat for about a week is bananas, raw almonds and cruciferous vegetables. Greek yogurt is good too if you can't eat that many almonds. Want to try it with me?"

So yeah, I'm not rail thin like the other woman on our project team. I'm a curvy kind of baby deer and I affectionately refer to the podge on my belly and bum as "puppy fat" even though I'm a little past the age where it could still be true. But he's always got his foot in his mouth up to his knee anyhow and I like him, so I want to give this thing a go. Nothing he mentioned will poison me, and I'm a big girl and I'll either do it or give it up as I so choose...

... until I remembered how tenacious he is. So the determined streak in me began to show when I said, "Sure, let's do it," and I bloody meant it. He e-mailed me this diet sheet and all I could think was that it'll just give me gas and make me grumpy because you can't have cheese on ANYTHING, which to me is tantamount to misery.

See, when I was 9 my Baba offered me something to eat (which she did every 20 minutes, I swear to God, and now I am the same freaking way.) I said, "No thanks, I'm on a diet." SMACK up one side of the head and SMACK down the other, then she's yelling, "You must not diet! You will grow too thin and no man will ever want you!" Then of course I relented and she made me a snack, because at age 9 the idea of no man ever wanting you is so very empirical and absolute yet so grown up that you can't even wrap your head around it, so best not to diet... just to simplify matters so that worrying about men - or boys, even, for pete's sake - can come later.

So even when I adjusted my diet to suit living with celiac disease after my diagnosis, it didn't change that much. I still ate bread - just different bread. I still chow down on the pasta... just different pasta. And potato chips, Cheezies (Americans, do you know what you're missing there??) and Tostitos are gluten-free...

Thus I've never dieted to lose weight or feel better or anything. My diet is balanced but I can and sometimes do eat like a workhorse. I am sturdy and healthy and happy... but this little challenge stirred something a little odd in me. Maybe it's because I'm proving myself at work, or maybe it's because I was the kind of person in university who would do speed or coke or shrooms just once for the sake of knowing what it was like to be really screwed up. I'm going to put a positive spin on it, though... I think it's for the sake of team-building and because I want to try something I wouldn't ordinarily do that's a little more ethically neutral.

So here I sit, determined to see this thing out if only to see what kind of stuff an extreme diet will do to your body. I'm eating a bell pepper (which I've cored and pithed) like an apple and feeling more and more pissed off and hungry by the minute.

I want some cheese on this thing. Lots of it.

[Hollylane]

Gaige....Packing for our trip...what to wear, what to wear...OMG...what am I going to wear...


and now...thanks to genghisfawn...

[luv2luvgirls]

21days.. thats whats on my mind.. and her of course

Im thinking how long these next 3 weeks feel when I think about it being another 3 weeks. Then I think wow I have alot still to do and only 3 weeks

I am excited,the more I think about it the more excited I get

[luv2luvgirls]

Now I have my brother on my mind,I am helping him cut down 4 trees in his yard that have died,so far we got one down and cut up and piled near the fire pit. yesterday we tied the next one to come down off,and today we will cut it down and get it piled near the pit. I am really glad to have such a close bond with my bro. Im glad im the one he comes to when life gets to him. He's been calling me over alot the past few weeks,He was getting nervous about his job,and yesterday he came home early and called me over. I guess now we have all the time we need to cut down those trees.. im very thankful I am the one he leans on and vice versa.
I also lol when his wife and him fight she always says call Ri.. I calm him she says Hell she has called me and said call ur bro! lol

[girl_dee]

heading to work, bringing only good for me munchies and will keep my hands out of the candy bowl.

[Gemme]

Stupid phones and really bad customer service.

I loathe mediocrity.

[girl_dee]

That i can just imagine Gemme saying *LOAATHHHHH*


That i feel mothers day is a flippin Hallmark Holiday

[Julien]

Thinking wishfully....

[rustedrims]

Working on my 30th year at the same place..I make a comfortable living for myself..That isnt important to me anymore..
Kids are grown..
Think i need to start over doing something else..

Getting restless...