Bringing It Up: Describe The Butch You Are

[Morgan]

I had come across a thread "Describe the Femme that you are" but, when I searched to find a counter part for this thread I could not....I find it interesting and would enjoy hearing from other butches on how they see themselves as individuals.

As I have aged, my views of myself have not so much changed, but have developed and brought me to the place I am today. I look back 10, 20 and 30 years ago and it makes me laugh, I thought I was the toughest, baddest, fucking butch around....and as the years went by, I realized I am not that bad...tough yes, strong definitely and well although my wildest years are behind me, I am still pretty wild.

I am not afraid of the soft, sensitive side of me, I thought it was a weakness years before, but I can embrace it.....yes, I am a woman. I identify with female pronouns because that is how I feel....when I first came out in my teens, I did not like this, I wanted to identify as a male, but like I said I have come to be okay with who I am. I say this for myself and would never judge anyone, I am me, and I am learning it is okay to have my own opinion of me.

I am at times impulsive, but it is alright, I find myself growing daily....I learn from my mistakes, pick myself up and go on. I don't blame others for the things that happen to me, I don't like chaos and I hate drama....

Ok now for the good things about me....I am great with my hands, I can fix anything, design anything, create anything. I am a visual and sensual person, I love to gaze at the stars, walk along the beach, smell wild flowers, breathe in and take in all life has to offer. I love dancing, candle light dinners with a wonderful femme, and long nature walks....

I can be wild and aggresive, passionate and sensual, or playful and serious.... I sometimes wonder if I will ever grow up, but then again I wonder why I would want to....yes, I would want to take care of a femme in my life, but I know it is okay to have a playful side, a silly side that does not need to change.

I would want the femme in my life to feel safe, to feel protected and to know she has all the love and support possible... I would want her to feel she always has a safe place to land. There would be no question about her being treated special....I am very much a gentle wo(man), doors open, order first, sit first, etc, etc.....

I am sure I will think of more things, but for now, this is all I have to say...I would enjoy hearing from others.