Coming Out

[2qt]

How do I smile this shame inside,
My life isn't theirs why do I hide,
Do I tell them or live in this lie,
Feeling pressure in this society's eye.

I'm different I guess however still me,
I shattered the dream of this future they see,
What i've become well I am who I am,
Confused and alone in this world that I stand.

Do you love enough to stand by me in life,
I deny this tradition of a man and a wife,
Inside me i'm still the daughter you knew,
With a different life just keeping me true.

I know it will be forbidden by some,
I tried to fight it but the battle was won,
Let me be happy not live in a lie,
It's not a phase I no longer deny.

A lesbian woman in this path that I tread,
Don't look at me like I have sins to be bled,
Just love me be proud of this woman you see,
I'm still your daughter just now being me.

[2qt]

The smell of the earth, a glimpse of rebirth,
I am born back into the world.
The rustling of tree's, wind blows in the breeze,
To the ground im tumbled and hurled.

The country is vast, a history of past
My soul is raw and exposed.
Animals roam free, on land and the sea,
My sight is newly composed.

An eagle soars high, to a sky it will fly,
My feet are planted to ground.
A lioness prowling, a wolf starts howling.
Taking steps in this life im bound.

[2qt]

I am here still breathing surviving you.
You can't hurt me now there's nothing to endure.
I still sense you and imagine you there.
Though I am stronger by mind not left in despair.

You exposed all the hidden fears in my mind,
You didn't break me though for my sight is not blind.
You made me weak by a heart made of stone,
It took just some weeks though for you only broke bone.

You took away my freedom of choice,
You certainly didn't leave me without any sound in my voice,
With the blade of a knife you cut through my skin,
The battle in the end though was only mine to win.

You lost your control for my life has no bind,
Distant memory you are and one not so kind,
Though i'm not chained to the bed i'm not chained to the floor,
I picked myself up and I walked out that door.

[2qt]

If by day you won’t give me your smile,
Then by night I’ll creep into your dreams to retrieve it,
Cleaving misty shadows and braving night time demons,
Searching until I find where you hide.

And I will be the eyes that shine upon you,
Penetrating warmth quietly captivating,
And I will be the breath that catches your attention,
Inviting you to desire my sweet kiss.

And I will be the elusive thoughts that drift though your mind,
Leaving you longing to grasp and become one with,
And I will be the touch that magically caresses,
Simultaneously creating satisfying and yearning.

And I will be the spirit that lifts you,
Gently upon my wings and takes you away,
And when you awake perhaps you will smile,
And wonder why you will always think of me.

[2qt]

Touch, touch me,
Touch me upon my skin,
With your soft sensual wandering fingertips,
Until my skin dances with pure ecstatic pleasure.

Trace, trace me,
Trace me out of the colour of your imagination,
With your mind so full of images that will leave no line undrawn,
Until there is no space between where you and I exist.

Feel feel me,
Feel me as I penetrate the unknown fears of y our mind,
Our warm skin wrapped around each other touching on ecstasy,
Until our bodies meld into one.

See, see me,
See me as I stand before you,
With all my vunerabilities exposed for you to see,
Until you tend to me with all your hidden desires.

Hear, hear me,
Hear my cries of passion breathe deep into your soul,
With a breath so deep it penetrates your being,
Until our breaths simultaneously become singular.

Believe, believe me,
Believe in me when I whisper your beautiful,
With a whisper so soft it leaves goosebumps upon your softened skin,
Until you feel all I have to offer the beauty you posses the beauty of you.

[Massive]

(Im)Patiently waiting for more ...

[2qt]

Lies, deceit, illusion, confusion,
A past, a future, one path, one destiny,
Haunted, reminded, forgotten, forgiven,
Lost, stuck in between, what was, what now is.


Questions, fear, frustration, refection,
She was, she is, we can't, we can,
Sorrow, aggression, regret, remorse,
Alone, stuck in between, what was, what now is.


Pain, hurt, mind, heart,
What if, what will, who is, who isn't,
Wanting, needing, craving, giving,
Afraid, stuck in between, what was, what now is.


Let go, hold on, run away, remain,
What is it, who is it, why am I torn,
My heart, their heart, I am caught,
Still, stuck in between, what was, what now is.

[2qt]

Don't judge take a step in my shoes,
Look at the things i've seen,
Feel my pain in your vision,
Then tell me this is a life I choose.

Don't assume you know who I am,
Breathe the air I breathe,
Feel my fear in your knowledge,
Then tell me it's treachery please ma'am.

Don't tell me it's all in my mind,
Sleep with the visions I see,
Look at my demons in your slander,
Then tell me all about me you find.

Don't make me the subject of talk,
Hear the things I hear,
Feel my sorrow in your judgement,
Then tell me what I am in your walk.

Walk in my shoes before you brand,
Breathe my air before you judge,
See my vision before you hate,
Feel my pain before you land.