Feelings of fayedoll

[~baby~doll~]

Today

i feel adrift upon the sea of lost
my heart beats so empty
never has it been so cold

there is a time for thinking
a time to kiss
and to heal

my lips may never touch hers
our arms may never embrace
our lives passed by so quickly
what we had is lost

our love will never be forgotten
it will never go away
i will take you to the end my love
and in the last breathe say your name

[~baby~doll~]

at play
in the field of love
i dance
i sway

euphoric is my music
glorious is my stage
my harmony is in balance
as i dance and sway

at rest
in the field of love
i slumber
i dream

rays of tender sunlight
embrace my shuttered eyes
i roll my fingers touch the lids
they open and glimpse to see

my vision
it compels me
the color red beholds
in the field and in my wonder
i see the greens and browns
but here in all it's heavenly luster
stands before me
the final bitter rose

[~baby~doll~]

Life is a looking glass
When you look in it looks back
Times I have viewed and seen all things shaded grey to black
I look in and her eyes don't look back.
My soul is on fire for my need
My posture has changed from standing tall to lying in wait
Dawn comes when the hands of my angel lovers,
touch me
Time is when I look in and she need not look back.
I will see the festival of life in the dance with my loves.
For now I ache and bleed and cry
i feel so little I want to die
Dawn comes when light falls upon me when the festival begins
and the woman dance and i finally can feel again the touch of the loves
in my life
Done done done Come to me oh looking glass that I may see what lies for me
Come and we shall dance in a bed of roses and know all things are good

[~baby~doll~]

Beautiful are the stars or night
gentle flows there radiant light
shine upon me she once said
and sun sweet sun shined more bright

She touched her with such fragrant breeze
once lingered there amongst the trees
An angel like a wisp of wind, touched her and only then
could she see

Oh touch me our sweet Mother's
envelop me and create me whole
Cleanse me earth and nature please
let me know what is reality

Oh mountain
oh grassland
oh stretch of silken sea
How long in my deafness have you called to me

Madness sweet taste of distant sands
Buries me with lost romance
Desolate rests the dessert bare
my steps are lost with no one there

The maiden walks upon new soil
she to is lost and just my toil
her salty tears caressed and washed each petal of the flower we all know
the petals opened wide as she bloomed

Her garden it was divine
the life and breath a new springtime
i tasted of forbidden fruits
The lush and velvet taste within

Oh garden call as she opens wide
oh lust oh love I cannot hide
Oh Mother's Earth and Nature set me free
I rest my lips where I yearn to be

[~baby~doll~]

kneel at door
desirous yearning
passion fire burning

bowed toward pointed toe
lips, tongue, crimson leather, embrace
heels deliciously divine

leash, collar lead
cuff ankle, wrist
naked straddled

sweetness forced
lips to lips
nectar to savor
juice pour forth

decadent devour
honeyed tongue
thirsting
come

metal leather
leather flogger
flogger flesh
pain released
love rain free
thirsting
come

[~baby~doll~]

Waiting creates a turbulent me.
Her eyes scream yearning, yet she is patient as can be
I wait on bended knee, her will overrides mine
She springs like a cat forcing me

We race to our gift of mutual delight
Mine a sharper consciousness realizing her joy as my body wails
Hers from the love of seeing the look of joy from pain in her objects eyes
We taste the fruits of love taken when the spirit of sexual nature guides her hand
It embraces the ropes with glorious lust
My fruit is to submits to the harshness, such a loving way to bind.

Vivid color of love becomes my breasts
Wax delivers my eyes the tears of utter bliss.
Wrap me twist me take me
The flower of me
You take as you will


1989 kwin, Your Will

[~baby~doll~]

Crushed, smashed, shattered
Empty, lost. confused
My is torn in ten thousand pieces and scattered into broken glass
The fire storm of bloody feelings mashes at me spine.

Oh loss oh how broken the feelings desert me and now I sit alone

[~baby~doll~]

Today love embraces me
With a sense of warmth
Such peaceful feelings
I do not always know

Love most times
Involves the roughest play
Yet today is a misty haze
It sends me on my way
Oh sweet ecstasy I twist and turn in the wind

But how says I
This altered state of mind
I relish the new today
But recall last night
Through loves haze

Twist and turn me on my head
Bend me sideways and call loves praise
My distant heart I seem to see
This phantom love
Such mystery

Bent not broken
The flame and candle to persuade
Oh passion and tender tears
Bewildered your servant plays

Oh touch me harshly with words and tongue
Sweet love by which I am overcome
Relieve me, as love me in your special way
Let me dangle all the day

Love it twists and turns me
It leaves me exhausted yet filled with life
Bitter is the sting that shares such passion on my wings
Let me serve you on bended knee
Today I yearn to be tender held

Embrace me with all you are
Oh my love be not far
The soil which is Mother Earth
Has touched me with her love
Though I worship you
Sweet Helen and wondrous Dan the women so dear at heart

My love it bends to fill you both
It carries me like bitter smoke.
And when it clears to shine anew
Twist and turn me oh please do.

[~baby~doll~]

i felt lost at times
drifting on a sea of wind and misery
then SHE found me
i became HER life
HER life became my joy
the completion of HER is me
i am solely and extension if HER desire
i have faded and am only a shadow of what she is
to some it would be fearful to lose self so completely
for me it has purified and made me better
it has filled me with more than i could ever give myself
perfect
wondrous
amazing
no need to fear in HER
as i am complete in knowing i serve HER

[~baby~doll~]

New Way

Somehow i have changed
forced or choice or just rearranged

over years i examined self
not i have moved to a different shelf

dresses and heels now set me free
how long have i yearn to let this side be

i find a femme a different light
no longer always is the night

what more i am is still to be seen
in the end what will it mean

am i me
or what you perceive me to be

i now find beauty means much more
i am a femme to the core

i am now what i long to see
finally i have found the real me

[~baby~doll~]

in lingerie i gaze in a mirror to see
a reflection of a woman and who is she?

my fingers glide over silk and satin
seeking out hidden secrets within

i stand in lingerie and heels gazing upon this mysterious reflection
for this girl, woman feminine thing, what lies in store
i never imagined this before

how does a mind grasp such a dainty change?
i fall into the arms of this feminine heart it is what remains
perhaps i wanted this from the start
How is it SHE knew i would fit the part?
i had no inkling from the start

i am woman
i am she
i am her
i have a woman's heart
it's not who i was at the start

i slide the, charmeuse trumpet, skirt over my hips
i apply gloss over my lips
my body resides in this feminine home
i adore what i have become

i am woman
i am she
i am her
it's not who i used to be

i have fully become her lovely doll
in my feminine i have finally evolved
in this form i achieved my dream
i fully disappeared no more am i seen
i am HER property forever HERS
SHE accepted my gift to be HER slave
i delivered my old self to the grave
this woman has a heart of the brave

those questions and doubts have disappeared
after years of service and bowing my wish was granted
by the Goddess above

my feminine has set me free
the i, i was has faded into my LOVE
i have become what i want to be
my life is gone and i am happy be
the reflection of her finally see
SHE is and i am gone

there is a woman smiling in my heart