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The Delano’s Indifference is the backbone of power. It is a state of faithlessness, not infidelity, but rank apathy, saving every ounce of ardor for the prize you seek. I thought I was the prize and I am; I’m just no longer yours. Cast aside for the leviathan and the miscreants I wonder what I could have done to hold your attention, the answer is nothing. Nothing could be done. Blinded by the ambition of heroism the struggle is the goal and no gem no matter its brilliance can check your drive toward a place in the epic narrative. Tis the hero’s lament to save every life except your own. Bend with the tracks or don’t take the train * SEASONAL EXPECTATIONS If I am out of sync with the way the world turns I can be nothing but disappointed I arrive with ice skates on the hottest summer day And grieve the loss of spring I shiver in my sandals and ponder The need for a windshield scrapper, the autumn so long past I must orchestrate my moods and movements With the evolution and revolution about me I will learn to sing with the doves in the morning And the coyotes come the moon I can spin with the stars And grow with the grass I don’t need to counter-balance life If I learn to bend with the tides It all comes around again;
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Balustrade Just because you appeared from the dark doesn’t make you a wizard. Just because you make the world safe for mankind doesn’t make you Hercules, nor does your power and foresight make you his father. Your resourcefulness and guile doesn’t make you Ulysses. And just because you spend so much time strapped upon that cross doesn’t make you, well, we all know the rest of that refrain. Human is what you are whether I see that in you or not. Human is a blessing even if it feels to me a curse. I need the superhuman strength you seem to offer but I must live in the world of what is real. I want to be stolen away to the safety of your lair and not live on my feet and fight for my life. I have to stop wishing to be your captive and work harder at simply being your friend. If I can let you down off your pedestal perhaps I could then climb down off mine. Inscribe your heart’s values on your mind * MYTHIC ADULT My mythic adult is seen by the crowds around me Never is the charade exposed Close inspection has been suspended So we can keep each other’s secrets. Circulating through the crowd These children are impoverished From carrying this load of pretense Dropping this burden is a risk far too great. Exposure invites attack Stand tall, act brave, unreasonable expectations, Are the water which moves the wheel The power that generates this ongoing play. Hamlet is dead, yet I reprise the past daily, Daily I watch my fellows do the same I mimic a ghost I never knew in life Did it ever live or is it only a mythic adult?
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Princess No More Decent is less obvious than accent and so it is with dethroning; those who put you upon the gilt alter with much aplomb feel no qualm in taking you down with not as much as a word or a grunt. The wind has changed and your reign is over, the poor startled girl is suddenly in the street. For a scepter is not a club and why fight for a throne, which is proven to be nothing more than a straight backed chair once separated from its right relationships. The horror of unexpected common status is for the young bride an issue of safety and trust not of ego or presumption. Who is she without the Prince, the Knight, she is Princess No More. Take time to wipe unshed tears * NO GOLD STARS I look at my chart Then my chest There are no gold stars I long for the affirmation Of my Great And seemingly endless struggle I watch the movements of those shiny shoes And hope to be awarded With the gummed insignia When I hang by a thread I desire corroboration Of foil cutouts to assure me I have done the right I have stayed alive Punishment I fear less than lack of consolation But no one truly knows my bravery And if I want these paper emblems I can just go and buy my own.
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If Garfunkel Was Here Speak of the dead and paint the living. Paint them in a good light when you can and into a corner when you have to. Read the books of future generations rather than acting as the arrogant, who attempt to write these volumes. Expunge nothing leave it all on view, but move past it after taking in the implications. Water flows under the bridge until it collapses then it carries the bridge away. So, speak of the dead don’t drown them, paint the living don’t stain them, look to the future don’t dictate to it and let the water run. Rinse off your first impressions * FREQUENTLY When my daydream gets so threadbare I no longer use it I must turn to other sources. When I cannot conjure on my own And elucidation makes me cross-eyed I must turn to HP. I have puttered and prolonged The way to naming this legendary And fabulous enigma. I drew out even longer Any desire for close association With the same. I have milled with the millstone And surfed in the whirlpool Drug my feet and thrown a fit. This only stalled the inevitable result, Naming and interaction is the need And now is the time I have a Higher Power And I chose to call it Frequently.
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ROUSs Time passes, I clock it and count it and use its passage to construct a defense or accusation depending on my need. I use the calendar to condemn you because my feelings do not have sufficient leverage for my mental calculations. To prize disappointment from this scene I watch the water-clock waiting for adequate drops to lift the flood gate and free me from your unfulfilled promise and my unrealized hope. How long is too long to stand in a quagmire? Why do I feel the need for permission to leave the quicksand? Match persistence with cheer * DOLL Why is your face all red, asked my sponsor? I didn’t get my way, I responded And this crimson appearance is the result? You see that it is I was very careful about what I wanted And worked hard to be reasonable. And Baby , you were, you did nothing wrong Your ego was in check And you kept your expectations in proportion Said my sponsor Then why didn’t it work out my way? I only have a sad and simple answer for you The results had nothing to do with you. Your wants, expectations or desires, The whole experience boils down to only one thing It wasn’t that type of party, Doll. Oh.
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Estranged After long years I have made my own acquaintance, friendship is on a far distant shore. I know who I am and can recognize myself on the street or in a crowded room. I have a legitimate sense of wariness of the afore mentioned persona, nothing too nasty, just a discomfort. She is not someone I would bring home, maybe not even share a meal with but I can stand her, minus intimacy, minus any deep empathy. I feel an awkwardness in acknowledging her, strange as this might sound, she is no one to be ashamed of, not a truly bad actor and yet the reports say she doesn’t live up to her potential and I have it on personal authority that she actually surpasses it on most days and keeps this a closely held confidence. And there it is, I know her secrets but I don’t keep her. This is what makes me strange and her stranger. Catch your reflection in the eyes of a friend * THE ONE I BOUGHT There are fairy tales I never gave credence to Multiple bear stories don’t move me Cats with footwear have not warranted a second thought. True love----------- Now that one I still buy Hook line and sinker. Work hard--------- And true love will fix the rest That is what I have always believed. The evil spell I have walked under During my sad little life will be broken Only by the durable and fulfilling love of my betrothed. Each time this plan fell through The blame was left to the wrongness of the match But not the wrongness of the plot . Anytime I work to be restored to sanity by one person I have displaced a rightful power And thrown myself to the sea.
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Queens: More than a Borough My drama is bigger than yours. My drama can kick your drama’s ass. Well maybe not, but it sure is kicking mine. Like a rain soaked grave, I stand in this muddy hole, sides slick, unassailable and count the piles of tragedy ,all the while knowing it will bury me not facilitate a climb out. I attempt to display the face of comedy and yet the mask can not fool me, my true audience. I think if I can keep it all up on stage I will be alright, but then the point of theater is that everything is carried away in the minds of all who come and watch. Silence doesn’t help either for there is little worse than a bad mime and doing it well just makes me Lillian Gish. So, back to Bohemia for isn’t it all a rhapsody, though it would all be so much better if Freddy Mercury weren’t dead. String your dreams together and let them fly * HOSTAGE DOLL A doll stands wedged between two mailboxes Naked and exposed, The edge of the road passing her by. She is there to pay for my self-loathing I throw my treasures in the air As skeet to be shot and shattered. Hate is the obnoxious microbe Which sours my digestion And rids me of nutrition and affection. I purge love and tenderness I rip the covers from my playthings And leave them to bleed. I hide in my self-destruction I put garish displays streetside And cry my tears alone. I cannot ransom to pay the price of fear I must bring in the broken babies And put hate out on the curb.
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RAID !!! So, you stepped into a hornets nest and now how am I to respond? Blame you? No, I don’t think so, I mean you are the exterminator and some stings are to be expected, but this is far beyond even your honed ability to anticipate wasps. Cry, running from this ambush? Again, I decline I still want you after the war is over, even if I can not fight by your side. Protest, I try to refrain, I never want to make your job harder but I don’t want to leave the impression I have no concern, so I walk the fine line. Standing on the sidelines is harder than you think, I am helpless and lonely, not as exciting as your work and no comfort from this distance. I must hold my breath while you provoke the bees. Stack your honest intentions as a hedge against a cold winter * TROJAN PERSON I feel confused by the difference between love and war The intensity and rush are too much For my frazzled and betrayed emotions to sort out. I feel like a Trojan person I have all these children holdup inside And they are waiting for peace and safety So they can come out and sleep For a time I allowed them to leave For bathroom breaks one at a time This was not a workable solution. When these tykes would have a look around They started to set fires and break hearts Each child makes life a battleground Fights and claws her way across the living landscape. I must heal my insides from the center of my thoughts Not send fragments of me to blend With the unfamiliar and hostile world Only when I can stand together With my mind and heart safe within my being Will I see a way to make love on my own terms And leave war alone.
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Black & Dedication The brand of equipment endorsed by my Higher Power is built so that my hand is clasped inside lest I feel alone or unaided. A closed mouth and an open mind work very well when I can manage either of them and Step 10 works when I can’t. I am usually the problem in my life but I am always the solution. Others may change and contribute; I am the one and only one, responsible for my happiness. Dropping blame from my vocabulary and adding responsibility, learning to differentiate between what is mine and what is yours; these tools are keys and they open worlds of possibility to me. Also they shut out the demons of wrong thinking, wrong acting and desperation, which used to plague me. There are still greater tools I yearn for but like everything I must be patient and build my muscles to handle the heavier machinery. Dine with hope * GULPING The plug that lodges in my throat From too much, too fast Causes the anxiety to rise in me. The panic fills my contracting muscles Into rock solid revolt. I can’t live, is the predictable result Gulping attention, acclaim, excitement, sex, Does the same thing My heart clots and my personality stops in mid-flow Everything in carefully chosen, well chewed bites Makes the process proceed My life works along workable paths If I stay away from oversized freight I can never swallow myself whole Why would I keep trying to imbibe giants like desire?
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I’m not Brian I thought life was based on a system of ‘I will suffer and that will exempt you’. Then I would be horrified when you suffered, after I had already done so ahead of you. In an attempt to ease my dismay I would look to see who had broken the pact, you or me. Had I not endured sufficiently to protect you? Had you left the safety of the umbrella of sanctuary? Panic gives birth to blame and blame of course births nasty biting things that run loose and bury in all the tender spots. Now, the goals I tend are to end the breeding of those sharp and painful beasties, stop laying my neck upon the alter and start telling better jokes. Scramble cracked perceptions * DANCE OF DEATH Honeyed words pour from lips Shades of doubt color my mind Stained glass eyes look to blank walls And picture the gallery of imagination Attempting to sell it for hard currency Sirens sing from the throats of mute men The screams which rise in me fall on deaf ears Paradox feeds controversy but it needn’t Evolution from a cesspool is repugnant Though process is steady made Inertia is violent if that is from whence it came Afterbirth is always bloody and humans not always nice I must live and heal as others climb up and slide down I must keep the beat and forget the dance of death.
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The Attention Tax Paying attention is the price exacted for living in this society. A taxation which is like a leach; it takes the life force, diverts my brain waves, claims the water rights to my river of thought. What is left I use to wash off what I can, never quite managing to feel clean or clear. I sit in the mud puddle still unsure if I understand what just happened; harboring a dark fear of the wave to come. Cultivate creative ambition * BOTTLE THE ACID My sponsor said “bottle the acid” and I did I sat back in smug reflection until the plumbing backed up I grabbed the fast solution and poured it down the drain. My sponsor smiled as I learned ---- The baser things will eat my life away too. I can never just decant power and expect it to clean sweep The clogged pathways in my recovery. Sloshing caustic medicine into open orifices brought me here I long for the ease of a liquid resolution In the end, I must clean the pipes myself. The traps are simpler to cleanse the less I’ve lied Telling myself I don’t have to get my hands Or heart dirty is the biggest lie of all.
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Soul Chiggers If you can seed apprehension deeply in a generation, you can reap disillusionment for a hundred years. Bent foresight twists hindsight. Admiring ignorance, signs death’s warrant. Evil splintered to a thousand slivers burrows under the skin without killing their host. Death delayed spreads destruction along with melancholy; a septic contagion if ever there was one. And how do we fight this systemic blight? It is embedded in the water, the air, the mind, and try what I might; I can’t seem to live without any of these. Chiggers of the soul feed and breed no matter how I scratch and chew. I am raw, but still infested. How do I kill what is in me without killing the me? Step up to indecision * THE WORM Because there is never enough punishment For those who inflict pain, I punish myself Only I can tell if the depth of the pain is a match Only I can judge when enough is enough. This is the turn of the drunken worm-- Who lives in my brain The belief that what began in pain Must end there too. Even now in recovery I persist in hurting myself In a thousand tiny ways, setting trap after trap, To catch the perpetrators, making my heart a mine field A place unfit for me to live I must sober the worm And let myself off the hook.
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Head Wringing I have my say, though my fear is that I constantly repeat myself; very much the way a crow calls the same thing endlessly, but it all has different meanings to the crow. I would offer code keys to my readers if I could lay my hands on one. My mind whispers that the soothing people get from my work is like the calm induced by chanting monks. Possibly it is more the actor’s trick of reading repetitive lines each time putting the emphasis on a different word; a way of squeezing all the juice from nonsense. I jot ideas swearing these lines are to be found somewhere in my previous work, perhaps whole pages are redundant. Finally I stop this fight reminding myself I have but one voice and what I accuse myself of as similarity might merely be my style. Find satisfaction in the middle, too * OPEN WINDOWS I roll down the window in the rain Hoping reality will soak in with the droplets I tilt my face as I leave the car And let the water shower my features. The downpour is the jolt to living for which I have prayed I stand on my lawn and rinse the day out of my hair I clear my brain in the fresh rainwater. The driving rain pounds the house and trees But I feel massaged and cared for My skin reflexive, teaches my mind to absorb and hydrate I turn my thoughts to Greater Powers. Even if the doors have been closed I can open the windows And let the rain come in.
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The Hope Diamond My guess is the same god that wants me stupid also wants me to suffer. I ask myself what could be all powerful about that? I wonder is G-d like a friend or a lover? I carefully chose my friends whereas my lover found me against my greatest plans and well thought rules. And if this is to be like marriage, may I file for divorce if things go astray? Or am I stuck with this match, like I am stuck with my deformed ear there underneath hat or fringe of hair? I never thought of my relationship with G-d like a necklace I could take on and off at will, though the more I study it seems this beautiful thing enhances my beauty if all is right and will strangle me if it gets hung up. Sort genius from fortune * RED ROSES From tight green buds come beautiful roses. From small verdant places I blossom too. I open to richness unexpected and fullness unbelieved. I look at crumpled laundry Never anticipating the look of clean sheets blowing on the line Doors I perceive as blocked by vast boulders Are thrown open by willingness. Who I am today is no one I recognize I didn’t see myself coming. I write though I can’t spell I love though my heart is broken. I think though my mind is warped And I trust though the amulet is long shattered. Promise is not a laid out plan but the continuum of change I can fight it or let it carry me where it goes.
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June 6
Eggshells and Bethlehem A stable is a place to keep a horse and in fairytales a place to birth a baby, but stable is the story I told myself about you. Solid, a model of strength and here you are a tripod, upright only if the pressure is evenly applied. I blame myself for lopsided need and try to find a way to keep this coupling standing. Stripped down to minor contact I wonder if you actually remember me and then I wonder if I remember myself. This is what is at stake, this is the trophy I lose when I fall for you and you fall down. Where is the girl I worked so hard to create? Broken eggshells litter the nest and I look for the chick I used to be. I fear losing you, I cry at the thought of losing us, I die at the loss of me. Graft beauty to stability * IN THE MEADOW Being the only tree in the meadow often leaves me feeling lonely I tell myself of the camaraderie I imagine in the forest These images are more poetic than real. I believe in community and support I think of the woods as a place apart From the complications of my exposed life. I shrug off the very real competition and struggle From sharing every inch of root space And the search for each square of sunlight. There is much joy in being an individual An eco-system of diversity allows me to fully develop I can spread my branches and my roots. I can offer shelter to those in need of my reaching and my shadow Tender flowers and tired birds find me a haven I have unique abilities in this field Space can feel lonely But it is full of possibilities.
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