[weatherboi]

great post thanks!

Originally Posted by waxnrope

Thank you for the thread, weatherboi, and for all the deeply considered replies.
Thanks waxnrope for your valued input. I look forward to hearing more from you.

In my enigmatic fashion, I consider myself primarily an OFOS stone butch Top... yet I continue the process of tapping into the place/s of desire, curiosity, and the muddied waters of my actuality. Through fantasy and exploration, I discover, for myself, how my positioning (LOL) bends, so to speak.
I get it, no pun intended. Funny. For me it came down to total reality. I was looking to be owned, so before throwing myself into the waters I had to spend some time evaluating what was going to work for me. I am not privy to choosing positions.

I "run the show" ... except when my partner's imagination exceeds my own and seduces me with prospects of tantalizing pleasures. But only (at this time ...) IF done in a way that she remains "feminine." So, for now (cause who knows how I will think later!) I have managed to leave the door open for possibilities.

i am ok with not running the show. i know the show will be exactly what my Ms decides i need. now i am ok with my Ms and her masculine energy. it is not like she dresses like buck from the united states of tara or she touches me in some feminizing way...it is energy.

If I borrow from the French philosophical concept of the navette, or shuttle, Metaphorically, I have come to realize that this little vessel, known as my self, sometimes takes off without a specific landing point. It/I might have a destination in mind, but the current, the winds, the vegetation on another shore draws attention. This direction change might occur because my femme sub has a marvelous bit of creative imagery and imagination. And so I alter my course, to investigate - with her. Hopefully for both to enjoy. I will remain primarily a Top ... but there is much space to explore between the mountain and the sea ... I love the vastness of possibilities.