[Ebon]

I knew I was trans growing up. I never felt like I was in the right body, never understood why my chest couldn't be flat like it was supposed to be and wondered where my penis was(I made my own when I was little). Then I realized that apparently I'm in a girl's body. WTF?! Then I thought ok I can deal with this. This led me to being extremely unhappy, an alcoholic, abusing my body because I didn't give a shit about it, smoking (cigs), being lazy, and eating crap. I don't give a shit it's not the right body. It's not my body.

As I got older I became comfortable in this body, not happy but comfortable. Better able to deal with it by numbing myself with alcohol.
The cycle continued. Then I met a young man that I would become really good friends with. I had soooo many questions. I had no idea that I could make myself appear on the outside, like I did on the inside. Like he did. I thought it was beautiful. From that moment on it has been my goal. Recently (within the past couple of years) the Universe have put people in my life/path that accept that part of me and that also bring it out.

I thank the Universe for these people. Right now I am working on my inner self and my physical self. Once those are complete then it will be time for the last piece of the puzzle. I still have quite a way to go but at least I am on my way.

Disclaimer: When I say abusing my body and I talk about drinking and smoking and sinning and what not, that is my story for my body. I don't care or judge what anyone else does to theirs.