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[Nurse Darlin]

Originally Posted by SelfMadeMan

Nurse Darlin - I am *SO* incredibly sorry, not only for the loss of your brother, but also on the loss of your son. I have survived the loss of my parents, so I know the grief of losing someone you love dearly, but losing a sibling and a child is beyond my comprehension. My heart goes out to you and your family. I send you all the positive energy and healing thoughts I can muster, and I will keep your family - and his - in my thoughts. Please take care of yourself and let us know when you need someone to lean on. - Mike

I thank you. I have so many thoughts going through my head. I get mad at things I shouldn't I get jealous of people that talk about the last time the seen him. I am selfish to believe that no one else has the right to hurt like me and my other brother and parents. When people come to moms house all crying and carrying on, I want to scream. They don't know my pain. I almost punched a man yesterday. He Was at my moms half drunk and God knows what else. He really didn't even know Mike, my brother. He was cussing a lot. "F" this and "GD" that. I finially told him to shut up or leave. He was standing right beside my daughter the whole time. There were church people and my family who are christians there. My grandma...you just say stuff like that in front of my grandma. He finially left. My brothers wife...I feel she's too calm. But, I know that's wrong of me. I want to smack her sometimes and tell her to stop giggling with her friends and flippin cry! Then she tried to make my 8 year old nephew hug everyone in the room(lots of people) only seconds after telling him about his Daddy. Poor baby was so distraught and crying. He didn't want to walk around the room hugging people. I'm sorry I'm just rambling. I'm hurting and have so much inside me I'm a confused mess. Thank you for your thoughts.