Grieving

[not2shygrrl]

Hey Ma !!

Just wanted to say that spring is soon to be here. All the lil buds and touches of greenery here, there and everywhere will start happening. The trees which were always your friends will soon show their buds in preparation of opening up and 'leaf-ing' all the branches of these trees..... ahhh so beautiful!! The re-growth that you so loved and helped you come out of that fall and winter funk! All the new life happening, sights, sounds and smells. The dirt you longed to dig into with your fingers, always new flowers or shrubs and an occasional fruit tree. Where your earthy body lays is surrounded by a forest of trees, so appropriate. 4 years Ma, and then some. Still is as painful, still is as heartbreaking, still missing you every day.

Spring also brings new growth for me Ma. Additions to my life, love and happiness. All newness even at my age. All welcomed. What a feeling of growth, I am thankful for the love I am given and so much more in this life. My spring newness starts in a place I have never been, she is there....and I want to be no where else but by her side, her in my arms. Her beauty parallels all that comes with spring, her heart is the most beautiful flower I have ever seen, always in bloom.

Ma, I know you are here, I can see you in all that surrounds me. I love you Ma......

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