Men with boobs.

[Nat]

I spent most of the day reading, re-reading and gathering quotes from the earlier parts of the thread in order to best respond to people who responded to my post regarding femme expectations, etc. Unfortunately, the thread is getting away from me while I've been at it.

Now it's past my bedtime. If, by the time I finish writing a response, it is in any way appropriate to where the thread has gone by that time, I will post it. I do want to thank the people who replied to me and I do hope I have not irreparably offended anyone. I have of late avoided controversy because it stresses me out and so I have been kinda put out with myself for writing what I wrote even though it spoke to my own feelings at the time. It's just emotionally hard to handle - especially if I feel like my words have wounded or even further frustrated anybody at all whatsoever.

Before I go to sleep, I wanted to say something about the info I've gathered - which is still only from pages 1 - 14 of this thread. I am not a natural at categorization or organization, but as I gathered quotes, I tried to fit them into some sort of category. Most overlapped or could have been categorized in more than one way. I just wanted to provide a list of the categories I came up with based on the quotes. I'd include the quotes too, but I'd basically be reposting the entire first 14 pages of the thread.

I think the sheer amount of issues we are simultaneously grappling with is really pretty amazing within this one topic.

The categories I saw were:

- The Treatment of Masculine Women in the World and in this Community
- Gender Hierarchy (within the butch identity and within the world)
- Issues of Shared Space within the Butch Identity
- The Personal/Individual vs ? (Political? Community standards? Ideology?)
- Butch Pronouns
- Influence of the Dash site
- Femme Troubles and Trouble with Femmes (Troubles voiced by femmes and troubles voiced regarding femmes)

Are there others I'm missing?

[Softhearted]

Derailing here:

But I'm a bit perpexled when I see the word "sie" perceived as neutral...

Must be 3 trimesters of german (years ago) that makes me go UH?

In german:

sie (without a capital s) is used either as: 3rd person singular for genus femininum (she) or for 3rd person plural for all genus (maskulinum/femininum/neutrum).

When capitalized, Sie is consider the formal form of you (the equivalent of "Vous" in french).

Done with my derail...

[Heart]

I believe "per" comes from Marge Piercy's amazing book, "Woman on the Edge of Time." It stands for "person."

[Dylan]

This is going to be a bit of an overshare, but...

From the time I can remember, I have been answering the 'are you a boy or a girl?' question. From kindergarten thru about middle school, I was called 'he/she'. High school brought 'lez' and 'man/girl'. My gender presentation elicits stares, finger-points, comments, threats, name-calling, etc EVERYDAY and EVERYWHERE I go. I no longer talk to most of thee people in my family because of my gender (going on 20 years now).

I have from my earliest memories had to sit and listen to salespeople and the like trip and stumble over a fucking pronoun with me. Whether they sir me or ma'am me at first, I then have to sit and listen to them trip over themselves and apologize and correct themselves. Theb, I have to (usually) apologize and c@oddle them, because they just 'feel so bad' about screwing it up...even when they got it right the first time.

I have been reminded multiple times a day from the time I can remember that my gender is 'difficult work' for countless lazy people.and I KNOW I share this same story with just about every butch on this website.

So really, when I'm in my own community of queer people who claim to be so very aware, I really can't take hearing, 'but but but it's just so hard'. Nor can I take the flippancy...especially from people who have NOT ever dealt with any of this.

People don't change their pronouns on a whim. This isn't brain surgery. If you think 'remembering' the people you deal with frequently is 'work' try dealing with the flippancy and having other people decide FOR you.


Dylan

[SuperFemme]

Not being seen for who you are is worse than not being seen at all.

[Dylan]

I would also like to add that for many many years I have also had to sit idly by while friends changed up my pronoun to better suit THEIR conversations, or so that servers (for example) didn't look at THEM weird.

If people don't think sitting there while a FRIEND changes your pronoun, so a server in a restaurant doesn't look at your friend weird isn't work...

I don't see how ANYONE can piss and moan about how 'difficult' this shit is to 'remember'. There really is no excuse besides shear uncaring, disrespect, and laziness. At least Arwen had the chutzpah to just say, 'yeah, sometimes I'm lazy' instead of making excuses and blaming the victim...or turning it into the plight of the perpetrator.

Dylan

[apretty]

sorry, it seems a little like femmes who i believe, 90% of the time, DO get it right and DO mean well and are AMAZING. period. full stop. --are getting just a tad maligned by all this lazy-talk. i mean, did more than one person mention LAZY, here? please stop painting us with your LAZY-brush.

[Lynn]

Originally Posted by SuperFemme

Not being seen for who you are is worse than not being seen at all.

For me, this isn't the case at all. Being invisible is a state of non-existence. Not being seen for who you are is definitely alienating, as well. But, once you are *seen* at all, then the dialogue can begin, if it's important that others actually see you for who you are. On the subject of labels, I try to get it right and be aware of the other person's identity and preferences. Sometimes I get it wrong, at least in my head, because I do tend to form an opinion based on what I see and hear. It's wrong, and I do it less than I used to.

[AtLast]

Originally Posted by Dylan

This is going to be a bit of an overshare, but...

From the time I can remember, I have been answering the 'are you a boy or a girl?' question. From kindergarten thru about middle school, I was called 'he/she'. High school brought 'lez' and 'man/girl'. My gender presentation elicits stares, finger-points, comments, threats, name-calling, etc EVERYDAY and EVERYWHERE I go. I no longer talk to most of thee people in my family because of my gender (going on 20 years now).

I have from my earliest memories had to sit and listen to salespeople and the like trip and stumble over a fucking pronoun with me. Whether they sir me or ma'am me at first, I then have to sit and listen to them trip over themselves and apologize and correct themselves. Theb, I have to (usually) apologize and c@oddle them, because they just 'feel so bad' about screwing it up...even when they got it right the first time.

I have been reminded multiple times a day from the time I can remember that my gender is 'difficult work' for countless lazy people.and I KNOW I share this same story with just about every butch on this website.

So really, when I'm in my own community of queer people who claim to be so very aware, I really can't take hearing, 'but but but it's just so hard'. Nor can I take the flippancy...especially from people who have NOT ever dealt with any of this.

People don't change their pronouns on a whim. This isn't brain surgery. If you think 'remembering' the people you deal with frequently is 'work' try dealing with the flippancy and having other people decide FOR you.


Dylan

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Right on! I don't think any of us should accept the laziness factor (or simply dismissing the significance that goes far beyond a word)- not even a little bit. Not any of us. The pronoun trials in everyday life for all of us really does get to be too much. Dealing with it here is just not acceptable. Either is any default, really. If one isn’t certain, ask. And concerning this site, there is a place to state your preference, use it. And taking a look at this designation is just not difficult.

Even though I think I less internal turmoil with getting sired, being told I’m in the wrong public bathroom, etc., it gets very old as it is something we deal with daily.

I have to add something about the femme infraction factor- it isn't true... and I certainly did not mean to insinuate by some of the posts I made to do so, I was just telling some personal stories that did involve femmes. Also, unfortunately, on the site, even with my filling in the pronoun space with she, etc., the folks that have called me him, he in posts have been femmes. I think that is just what happened, up to this point. Tomorrow, a butch could do the same thing.

Sometime ago in the midst of the butch wars on the old site, a female identified butch organization formed here in the Bay Area. At first, I thought it was great. However, the membership of both butch members and allies rested on not using terms like hy or hym. A butch I know and like very much that uses these terms wanted to join as an ally. Hy was turned away.... by butches and they refused to even use hy or hym in talking with hym during this process! Hence, I withdrew from the organization. This did more harm to butch relating to each other, I believe and was just making things worse between FIBs, MIBs, TG/IG people and we do not need more of that. This issue runs across butch & femme and really boils down to disrespect. The male-default goes to what the OP first mentioned concerning male over female and the overriding thought that butches will of course evolve into masculine and male identifications.

Please, I personally did not mean to sound like I think femmes are the only ones guilty of this. The laziness statement in a post did touch off a lot for me... and it looks like others. It was made by a femme, but could have been made by a butch as well.

[BullDog]

What has frustrated me over the years is not honest mistakes in pronoun usage- it's the male defaults (which goes well beyond pronouns) that have continued to be put on butch despite all of the butch women/female id butches speaking up. That certainly has not just been from just a few femmes, or anyone for that matter, slipping up on pronouns. It is deeply rooted in online butch femme communities.

Certainly great efforts are being made on this website to change that.

[firie]

Originally Posted by Nat

I spent most of the day reading, re-reading and gathering quotes from the earlier parts of the thread in order to best respond to people who responded to my post regarding femme expectations, etc. Unfortunately, the thread is getting away from me while I've been at it.

Now it's past my bedtime. If, by the time I finish writing a response, it is in any way appropriate to where the thread has gone by that time, I will post it. I do want to thank the people who replied to me and I do hope I have not irreparably offended anyone. I have of late avoided controversy because it stresses me out and so I have been kinda put out with myself for writing what I wrote even though it spoke to my own feelings at the time. It's just emotionally hard to handle - especially if I feel like my words have wounded or even further frustrated anybody at all whatsoever.

Before I go to sleep, I wanted to say something about the info I've gathered - which is still only from pages 1 - 14 of this thread. I am not a natural at categorization or organization, but as I gathered quotes, I tried to fit them into some sort of category. Most overlapped or could have been categorized in more than one way. I just wanted to provide a list of the categories I came up with based on the quotes. I'd include the quotes too, but I'd basically be reposting the entire first 14 pages of the thread.

I think the sheer amount of issues we are simultaneously grappling with is really pretty amazing within this one topic.

The categories I saw were:

- The Treatment of Masculine Women in the World and in this Community
- Gender Hierarchy (within the butch identity and within the world)
- Issues of Shared Space within the Butch Identity
- The Personal/Individual vs ? (Political? Community standards? Ideology?)
- Butch Pronouns
- Influence of the Dash site
- Femme Troubles and Trouble with Femmes (Troubles voiced by femmes and troubles voiced regarding femmes)

Are there others I'm missing?

I would add homophobia, and transphobia, and sexism.

Which kind of interlace a few of your categories and from all sides, perhaps.

I have to admit, and I apologize in advance if this post is long, but when I first started reading the thread I had a real bratty, privileged response in my head, and diminished heart's points by getting really frustrated by our community giving credence to hollywood (I hate that somehow queer actors, or any actor for that matter, all the sudden gets to be a spokesperson for us) and I also really personally hate Sex and the City, as I find it entirely sexist and, well, quite classistly vapid. It's also entirely stereotypical in its portrayal of gay men in the fashion world, but that's an entirely another thread.

So I dismissed heart's bringing Nixon's "men with boobs" comment here, because my first response was purely personal and so therefore all about me. I apologize, heart, truly I do. I didn't post this fuckery, thankfully, and if I had, would have deserved a verbal reality check.

Because after reading for days now, I have had to call myself on my own initial thinking above, and quite a bit. I think it is privileged of me to assume this is not a worthy conversation to be had, and Dylan and I have had quite a few conversations about our initial responses in saying that Cynthia Nixon is an idiot and well not worthy of listening to. Well, sure, that may be true, but it is privileged of both of us to say that butches or even further, this community, not discuss/criticize/breakdown the implication of that here.

I am perturbed at myself. I want to say I am sorry to butches, honestly, and have been thinking about a number of ways that I am so very privileged in my pronoun. And it has really hit me of late that I don't have any issues there--no one ever grapples over my pronoun, I never face anything dangerous or awkward because of it, no one confuses it, makes me pay more money for it for things like licenses, birth certificates, etc; no one requires that I go to court over it, get harassed in a bathroom over it, no one expects me to deal with them and their issues around my pronoun, nor does anyone ever expect me to bend in my pronoun over their discomfort at it. I should likely also apologize to femmes who do have issues with their pronouns. That "sorry" to you all is not because something so insignificant could alleviate all the bullshit you experience around pronouns, but just simply to say, fuck, it hit me, and well, I am going to do my best to not perpetuate any of that bullshit, because it's undue to you, and you shouldn't have to deal with it. And you shouldn't have to dismiss it, or not talk about it, or cater to those who don't get you, because well, that's perpetuating the bullshit.

Re: men with boobs. I think the ripple or tidal effect of this statement may not mean much to Cynthia Nixon at all, or her partner, but it impacted us in a way to then weave through all sorts of discussions that continuously need to be had here. I don't think we can ever talk enough about the implications these things have on our daily lives, despite what stupid or not so stupid person may have said them.

I just wanted to really thank everyone here for the epiphanies I have had reading this discussion.