Love Letter's To My Baby Girl....

bigbutchmistie · 05-22-2010, 09:38 PM

Dear:

Just so you know you will be the only one who ever could tame this Beast

I saw this and thought of us. Cause I know that once in a life time fairytales exist for us all. And one day, I will find mine with you.

Guy · 05-22-2010, 09:45 PM

Really sweet thread BBM, hope you find her soon.

bigbutchmistie · 11-02-2011, 09:15 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by bigbutchmistie

Dear:

Just so you know you will be the only one who ever could tame this Beast

I saw this and thought of us. Cause I know that once in a life time fairytales exist for us all. And one day, I will find mine with you.

Dear:

Yep Im a Beast. Are you Belle?

Signed,
Me

bigbutchmistie · 11-04-2011, 07:42 PM

Dearest You :

Sometimes when I am aching badly inside I can close my eyes and just imagine what it would be like to feel your love, and it brings a certain calm to me.

I have lived my life without love in it. And made it by ok. I know I dont want that for myself. I know I love myself. But not having that one person I can count on no matter what, I dont know what that's like. I dont know what its like to feel the safety of someone's arms. To feel her touch, and so much more. I know I am missing out. Just how much I am not sure. I can bet its better than winning the lottery....

When I almost died a few years ago, I laid alone in the hospital bed, and though to myself. Im going to die in this hospital and I will not have ever known true undying, unapologetic love.

It caused me to fight. And I beat that illness. The other day, when I walked into my bosses office and plead my case for my old position back, I got it.

Every aspect of my life I can go get what I want. But you elude me. I think daily what I have done to cause to live with the emptiness and loneliness.

I am a good person. I do for others more than I do for myself. And yet, you are but a fantasy to me.

I just wanna belong. love and be loved. Im not sure where that is so wrong.

I wonder about you. If you are out there feeling the same way I feel. I wonder if you are being loved. Or if you are out there and gave up cause you have been hurt so many times.

I pray one day, fate blesses us both. I pray that we cross paths. Im 35. Im tired of being alone, not feeling love and acceptance.

All I am trying to say baby is that its a cold, lonely and dark world without you.

But I will get up tomorrow, and put my clothes on and go about my day. But you will not be far from my thoughts.

I love you even before I have met you. I hope one day you read these and realize how much I wanted you long before your arrival.

Signed,

Just A Boi

bigbutchmistie · 11-13-2011, 10:56 PM

Dear You :

Sigh. Best friend just came back from getting her Domestic Partnership papers from Austin this past week.

Im happy for them but Im jealous at the same time. I wonder when and if we will ever have a time. I hope so.

Im busy for now though bettering myself. There is always room for improvement but I do wish you were here. Life is so short.

And I live with the constant daily fear that I will never know you, or what true love is really like.

Maybe I dream too much. Maybe I watch too many movies. Maybe in my real world its just not possible.

And I am so not ok with that... Sigh...

Wishing again this year for Chistmas. All I want is YOU... US... And the life we are supposed to have.

Come find me. Wherever you maybe

Signed,

Im Ready

05-22-2010, 09:38 PM	#1
bigbutchmistie Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Since You Need A Label. Butch Relationship Status: Still Dreaming Of My Happily Ever After Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Arlington Texas Posts: 4,009 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 4,950 Thanked 5,364 Times in 1,941 Posts Rep Power: 21474856	Dear: Just so you know you will be the only one who ever could tame this Beast I saw this and thought of us. Cause I know that once in a life time fairytales exist for us all. And one day, I will find mine with you.

05-22-2010, 09:45 PM	#2
Guy Senior Member How Do You Identify?: . Join Date: Dec 2009 Location: . Posts: 1,858 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 2,258 Thanked 2,574 Times in 889 Posts Rep Power: 21474853	Really sweet thread BBM, hope you find her soon.

11-04-2011, 07:42 PM	#4
bigbutchmistie Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Since You Need A Label. Butch Relationship Status: Still Dreaming Of My Happily Ever After Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Arlington Texas Posts: 4,009 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 4,950 Thanked 5,364 Times in 1,941 Posts Rep Power: 21474856	Dearest You : Sometimes when I am aching badly inside I can close my eyes and just imagine what it would be like to feel your love, and it brings a certain calm to me. I have lived my life without love in it. And made it by ok. I know I dont want that for myself. I know I love myself. But not having that one person I can count on no matter what, I dont know what that's like. I dont know what its like to feel the safety of someone's arms. To feel her touch, and so much more. I know I am missing out. Just how much I am not sure. I can bet its better than winning the lottery.... When I almost died a few years ago, I laid alone in the hospital bed, and though to myself. Im going to die in this hospital and I will not have ever known true undying, unapologetic love. It caused me to fight. And I beat that illness. The other day, when I walked into my bosses office and plead my case for my old position back, I got it. Every aspect of my life I can go get what I want. But you elude me. I think daily what I have done to cause to live with the emptiness and loneliness. I am a good person. I do for others more than I do for myself. And yet, you are but a fantasy to me. I just wanna belong. love and be loved. Im not sure where that is so wrong. I wonder about you. If you are out there feeling the same way I feel. I wonder if you are being loved. Or if you are out there and gave up cause you have been hurt so many times. I pray one day, fate blesses us both. I pray that we cross paths. Im 35. Im tired of being alone, not feeling love and acceptance. All I am trying to say baby is that its a cold, lonely and dark world without you. But I will get up tomorrow, and put my clothes on and go about my day. But you will not be far from my thoughts. I love you even before I have met you. I hope one day you read these and realize how much I wanted you long before your arrival. Signed, Just A Boi

11-13-2011, 10:56 PM	#5
bigbutchmistie Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Since You Need A Label. Butch Relationship Status: Still Dreaming Of My Happily Ever After Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Arlington Texas Posts: 4,009 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 4,950 Thanked 5,364 Times in 1,941 Posts Rep Power: 21474856	Dear You : Sigh. Best friend just came back from getting her Domestic Partnership papers from Austin this past week. Im happy for them but Im jealous at the same time. I wonder when and if we will ever have a time. I hope so. Im busy for now though bettering myself. There is always room for improvement but I do wish you were here. Life is so short. And I live with the constant daily fear that I will never know you, or what true love is really like. Maybe I dream too much. Maybe I watch too many movies. Maybe in my real world its just not possible. And I am so not ok with that... Sigh... Wishing again this year for Chistmas. All I want is YOU... US... And the life we are supposed to have. Come find me. Wherever you maybe Signed, Im Ready