What's on your agenda today?

easygoingfemme · 05-08-2019, 10:47 AM

Wake up- check
Feed all of the freeloading animals- check
Coffee- check
Work out- check
Shower/dress/gussy up- check
Work and survive the experience- currently working on
Tonight- start grief counseling through Hospice
Go tuck nephews into bed
Go home and tuck myself into bed.

easygoingfemme · 05-11-2019, 05:28 PM

My agenda got hijacked and re-routed several times in mostly positive ways.

I woke up with a day ahead of me that was mine to decide upon.

I woke up with grief heavy on my chest making it hard to breathe right.

I drank coffee, I showered, I mowed the lawn, I ate half of a sandwich.

I got out on my bike with intentions of a good long ride. But the grief was so heavy on my chest that it was hard to breathe through it so I took the ride I could and told myself I was doing the best I can right now and I cut it short.

I came home and wandered around ADD style trying to decide what chore to do but nothing felt right.

The sun was out and it's beautiful and my mother and I have been having a really hard time deciding what to do for mother's day five weeks after my brother/her son dying. We are both having a really hard time doing anything that is "normal" around other people who don't know what is going on. I called her to see if she wanted to go to a green house to get some flowers and plant some gardens. She told me that she woke up wanting to do a garden with me. An herb garden that we share. (We live down the road from each other) So we did. I got us a really nice rustic barrel and we got basil and cilantro, lavender, and rosemary and thyme and dill and marigolds to keep the bugs away. We planted together. It was healing. It helped today.

I feel a little better now. A few more chores and reading on the porch for me tonight.

Gemme · 05-11-2019, 06:53 PM

I woke up with long list of stuff to do and by the middle of the day, my agenda had simply been reduced to just getting through the day. Thankfully, that was successful.

05-11-2019, 05:28 PM	#2
easygoingfemme Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Lil' Miss Sassy Pants Preferred Pronoun?: She/her Join Date: Oct 2012 Location: My place by the river Posts: 3,692 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 7,023 Thanked 14,974 Times in 3,318 Posts Rep Power: 21474852	My agenda got hijacked and re-routed several times in mostly positive ways. I woke up with a day ahead of me that was mine to decide upon. I woke up with grief heavy on my chest making it hard to breathe right. I drank coffee, I showered, I mowed the lawn, I ate half of a sandwich. I got out on my bike with intentions of a good long ride. But the grief was so heavy on my chest that it was hard to breathe through it so I took the ride I could and told myself I was doing the best I can right now and I cut it short. I came home and wandered around ADD style trying to decide what chore to do but nothing felt right. The sun was out and it's beautiful and my mother and I have been having a really hard time deciding what to do for mother's day five weeks after my brother/her son dying. We are both having a really hard time doing anything that is "normal" around other people who don't know what is going on. I called her to see if she wanted to go to a green house to get some flowers and plant some gardens. She told me that she woke up wanting to do a garden with me. An herb garden that we share. (We live down the road from each other) So we did. I got us a really nice rustic barrel and we got basil and cilantro, lavender, and rosemary and thyme and dill and marigolds to keep the bugs away. We planted together. It was healing. It helped today. I feel a little better now. A few more chores and reading on the porch for me tonight. Last edited by easygoingfemme; 05-11-2019 at 05:45 PM.

05-11-2019, 06:53 PM	#3
Gemme Practically Lives Here How Do You Identify?: Queer Stone Femme Girl of the Unicorn Variety Preferred Pronoun?: She, as in 'She's a GEM' Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: The roads are narrow here Posts: 36,631 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 182,498 Thanked 107,926 Times in 25,667 Posts Rep Power: 21474887	I woke up with long list of stuff to do and by the middle of the day, my agenda had simply been reduced to just getting through the day. Thankfully, that was successful. __________________ Gemme's Journal I'm misunderestimated.

05-08-2019, 10:47 AM	#1
easygoingfemme Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Lil' Miss Sassy Pants Preferred Pronoun?: She/her Join Date: Oct 2012 Location: My place by the river Posts: 3,692 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 7,023 Thanked 14,974 Times in 3,318 Posts Rep Power: 21474852	Wake up- check Feed all of the freeloading animals- check Coffee- check Work out- check Shower/dress/gussy up- check Work and survive the experience- currently working on Tonight- start grief counseling through Hospice Go tuck nephews into bed Go home and tuck myself into bed.