Holiday Blues

Andrew, Jr. · 11-27-2009, 04:41 PM

I don't know how you all stay focused and positive. I am just

. I have fed the homeless. I have tried to be hopeful, and happy, but I am not. I have been through too much. I have been beaten down...

Blaze · 11-27-2009, 05:15 PM

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Originally Posted by Andrew, Jr.

I don't know how you all stay focused and positive. I am just

. I have fed the homeless. I have tried to be hopeful, and happy, but I am not. I have been through too much. I have been beaten down...

Then you should hold your head up for contributing to the less fortunate. Andrew, one can only be beaten down when at one's lowest point. Hence, even when I served in the Military, Yes they broke me, and rebuilt my aggression, but once I got out, I re-broke my teachings and rebuilt my compassion towards my fellow people.
Depression is very hard. But you don't have to be alone and suffer. There are many, many people that are here to lend a helping hand. We can help with the tools, but You and You alone will have to take these tools and build your own castle.
Once your castle is built, then you invite us in...
And the festivities begin! Smile Andrew, You have a Heart of Gold

Deborah · 12-09-2009, 11:59 AM

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Originally Posted by Blaze

Then you should hold your head up for contributing to the less fortunate. Andrew, one can only be beaten down when at one's lowest point. Hence, even when I served in the Military, Yes they broke me, and rebuilt my aggression, but once I got out, I re-broke my teachings and rebuilt my compassion towards my fellow people.
Depression is very hard. But you don't have to be alone and suffer. There are many, many people that are here to lend a helping hand. We can help with the tools, but You and You alone will have to take these tools and build your own castle.
Once your castle is built, then you invite us in...
And the festivities begin! Smile Andrew, You have a Heart of Gold

Blaze...what a special person you are

Andrew, Jr. · 12-09-2009, 01:02 PM

Jaqueline,

I agree with you about Blaze. He is a wonderful guy.

Andrew

Andrew, Jr. · 12-22-2009, 09:25 AM

How is everyone doing today? I am praying for you all.

Peace.

Love,
Andrew

christie · 11-27-2009, 05:18 PM

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Originally Posted by Andrew, Jr.

I don't know how you all stay focused and positive. I am just

. I have fed the homeless. I have tried to be hopeful, and happy, but I am not. I have been through too much. I have been beaten down...

Andrew,

I think the trick for me is that I realize that I have a choice in how I feel. Sure, I could be all down in the dumps and such, but I WANT to be happy. It IS hard to stay focused and positive, but dammit, I am gonna win! Life isn't going to kick my ass and me lie down and give up.

I get up every morning, literally chanting in my head, "I choose to be here. Find the joy in it."

I don't mean to sound trite, and its not meant to marginalize just how crippling depression can be. I know, first hand, how you may be tired to your bones in feeling the way you do. For me, I had to believe that I deserved to be happy, I was more than capable of navigating MY life and that I would be a shaker and a mover, that I wouldn't let life just happen around me or to me.

Here's hoping that tomorrow, you wake and find a small spot of joy.

Christie

Andrew, Jr. · 11-27-2009, 05:26 PM

Blaze and Christie,

Thank you for your kind words.

Andrew

Andrew, Jr. · 11-29-2009, 07:29 PM

Still at the same place as I was before.

atomiczombie · 11-29-2009, 07:53 PM

I feel pretty lonely this holiday season so far, even though I am close to my parents and aunt. I just wish I could spend more time with my kid. And I wish I had a girlfriend, to be honest. I also wish I were closer to all the friends that I have drifted away from during my illness the past year and a half. So I do have this lonesome, empty feeling inside. *sigh*

Niteshift · 11-30-2009, 02:43 AM

This holiday season is/is going to be a little difficult for me as well. I am waay to far from home and my wonderful family. I have made some fantastic friends here but it is just not the same. I'm out here working, a job I could probably find at home but for less money. I'm to the point of "screw the money," I'm going home. I told her I'd live in cardboard box and by damn I may just have to prove that...at least we'd be together...hmm, and closer too, if for nothing other than warmth. My God, how I miss her.

Apocalipstic · 12-01-2009, 04:18 PM

The holiday season makes me sad too. It's been a tough year.

Hugs all around

We will somehow all make it though.

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Niteshift Junior Member How Do You Identify?: Butch woman Preferred Pronoun?: She/Her Relationship Status: Hers Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Nashville Posts: 24 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 6 Thanked 55 Times in 9 Posts Rep Power: 10695	This holiday season is/is going to be a little difficult for me as well. I am waay to far from home and my wonderful family. I have made some fantastic friends here but it is just not the same. I'm out here working, a job I could probably find at home but for less money. I'm to the point of "screw the money," I'm going home. I told her I'd live in cardboard box and by damn I may just have to prove that...at least we'd be together...hmm, and closer too, if for nothing other than warmth. My God, how I miss her.