Stressed OUT!?!

JustBeingMe · 09-04-2010, 12:57 AM

Stressed is not even a word that describes the meaning of what I truly feel lately. Mom has to have another angiogram due to her heart not getting enough oxygen and failing her stress test. My mom has had so many damn surgeries already it's not even funny. She has P.A.D. and high cholesterol, she's been on meds since her first surgery 22 years ago, when she was my age, 47...my bday is this month, so same age as mom on her first surgery. My mom died during her first open heart triple bypass, of which they had to revert to only doing a double, then the following year doing the other bypass surgery. She has plastic aorta in her stomach to both legs, and just had surgery in Dec for the 5th time to save her left leg, she now has plastic artery in that too. She has had both carotid arteries done, her right leg has had 2 surgeries already, and her right brachial artery has been done as well. I just worry that this may be the surgery that takes my mom from me. She's all I have and I love her with all my heart. My stepfather died Jan. 13th, and it just makes it even harder emotionally. I'm going through so much since Feb, that it's just taking it's toll on me. Hopefully if mom has to have her surgery, I can be here with her. I have to attend to personal matters I wish not to discuss, on Sept, 21st and I don't know how long it will take me to be able to get back here and be here for my mom. Man, I just wish I could get a break, just once. I wish my mom wasn't in the condition she is in, but it's hereditary, and I have the same problems,....luckily I haven't had to have any surgeries yet, Thank The Lord. I want to move back to Austin, but I am torn because of my mom and her condition. I know I can't fix it, but I wonder if I should just remain here so I am here for her always. I miss my friends badly, and have no support system here really. No queer friends here that I know of, this town is so small you could call it Hee Haw Land.
UGH, I feel heartburn coming on.

lipstixgal · 09-04-2010, 04:49 AM

Well this dogs are up early and making noise so no sleep for me. I'm stressed out due to illness and the dogs just make it worse!! Gonna try to lay back down and see if sleep willl help!!

JustBeingMe · 09-09-2010, 12:03 AM

Got a huge weight lifted off my shoulders today. My moms angiogram came out really well. No blockages to her heart at all.
Doctor said her heart bypass from 22 years ago is still doing well and much better than expected. No surgery needed. This has lifted a huge amount of stress off me on top of my own personal issues going on. I feel somewhat relieved and grateful and thankful.
Now...........to deal with my own stuff beginning this month, and hopefully I can put that particular issue to rest and be done with it so I can move on to taking care of business in my own life.

JustBeingMe · 09-22-2010, 10:16 AM

Got another HUGE weight lifted off my shoulders Yesterday. I am finally no longer stressed over this particular issue. WOOOOHOOOoooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!

girl_dee · 09-22-2010, 06:41 PM

I feel stressed out because I feel I want to be in two, three places at one time.

JustBeingMe · 10-06-2010, 05:05 PM

lipstixgal · 10-06-2010, 05:10 PM

Stressed due to new internship coming up tomorrow all day too. 9-5 pm I hope I can do it going to bed early too.

09-04-2010, 12:57 AM	#1
JustBeingMe Senior Member How Do You Identify?: as ME Relationship Status: I don't need no stinking status. Join Date: Mar 2010 Location: somewhere you're not..... Posts: 1,808 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 1,961 Thanked 1,690 Times in 694 Posts Rep Power: 12813869	Stressed is not even a word that describes the meaning of what I truly feel lately. Mom has to have another angiogram due to her heart not getting enough oxygen and failing her stress test. My mom has had so many damn surgeries already it's not even funny. She has P.A.D. and high cholesterol, she's been on meds since her first surgery 22 years ago, when she was my age, 47...my bday is this month, so same age as mom on her first surgery. My mom died during her first open heart triple bypass, of which they had to revert to only doing a double, then the following year doing the other bypass surgery. She has plastic aorta in her stomach to both legs, and just had surgery in Dec for the 5th time to save her left leg, she now has plastic artery in that too. She has had both carotid arteries done, her right leg has had 2 surgeries already, and her right brachial artery has been done as well. I just worry that this may be the surgery that takes my mom from me. She's all I have and I love her with all my heart. My stepfather died Jan. 13th, and it just makes it even harder emotionally. I'm going through so much since Feb, that it's just taking it's toll on me. Hopefully if mom has to have her surgery, I can be here with her. I have to attend to personal matters I wish not to discuss, on Sept, 21st and I don't know how long it will take me to be able to get back here and be here for my mom. Man, I just wish I could get a break, just once. I wish my mom wasn't in the condition she is in, but it's hereditary, and I have the same problems,....luckily I haven't had to have any surgeries yet, Thank The Lord. I want to move back to Austin, but I am torn because of my mom and her condition. I know I can't fix it, but I wonder if I should just remain here so I am here for her always. I miss my friends badly, and have no support system here really. No queer friends here that I know of, this town is so small you could call it Hee Haw Land. UGH, I feel heartburn coming on. __________________ Nothing more, Nothing less, I'm Just Being Me

09-09-2010, 12:03 AM	#3
JustBeingMe Senior Member How Do You Identify?: as ME Relationship Status: I don't need no stinking status. Join Date: Mar 2010 Location: somewhere you're not..... Posts: 1,808 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 1,961 Thanked 1,690 Times in 694 Posts Rep Power: 12813869	Got a huge weight lifted off my shoulders today. My moms angiogram came out really well. No blockages to her heart at all. Doctor said her heart bypass from 22 years ago is still doing well and much better than expected. No surgery needed. This has lifted a huge amount of stress off me on top of my own personal issues going on. I feel somewhat relieved and grateful and thankful. Now...........to deal with my own stuff beginning this month, and hopefully I can put that particular issue to rest and be done with it so I can move on to taking care of business in my own life. __________________ Nothing more, Nothing less, I'm Just Being Me

09-22-2010, 10:16 AM	#4
JustBeingMe Senior Member How Do You Identify?: as ME Relationship Status: I don't need no stinking status. Join Date: Mar 2010 Location: somewhere you're not..... Posts: 1,808 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 1,961 Thanked 1,690 Times in 694 Posts Rep Power: 12813869	Got another HUGE weight lifted off my shoulders Yesterday. I am finally no longer stressed over this particular issue. WOOOOHOOOoooooooo!!!!!!!!!!! __________________ Nothing more, Nothing less, I'm Just Being Me

10-06-2010, 05:05 PM	#6
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09-04-2010, 04:49 AM	#2
lipstixgal Senior Member How Do You Identify?: femme Preferred Pronoun?: She Relationship Status: coupled Join Date: Feb 2010 Location: New Jersey Posts: 3,028 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 201 Thanked 1,690 Times in 1,064 Posts Rep Power: 1494761	Well this dogs are up early and making noise so no sleep for me. I'm stressed out due to illness and the dogs just make it worse!! Gonna try to lay back down and see if sleep willl help!!

09-22-2010, 06:41 PM	#5
girl_dee Practically Lives Here How Do You Identify?: Femme Preferred Pronoun?: dee Relationship Status: Hitched up Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Livin’ the Dream Posts: 24,079 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 30,560 Thanked 54,829 Times in 13,908 Posts Rep Power: 21474874	I feel stressed out because I feel I want to be in two, three places at one time.

10-06-2010, 05:10 PM	#7
lipstixgal Senior Member How Do You Identify?: femme Preferred Pronoun?: She Relationship Status: coupled Join Date: Feb 2010 Location: New Jersey Posts: 3,028 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 201 Thanked 1,690 Times in 1,064 Posts Rep Power: 1494761	Stressed due to new internship coming up tomorrow all day too. 9-5 pm I hope I can do it going to bed early too.