Friends of Bill W.

Lady Pamela · 10-10-2010, 12:08 PM

" 19 " Years ago today...I recieve my new birthday...From choosing to leave what I thought was what made me live...Meth !!!. I was a size 2 pants..weighed in at a whooping 87lbs and my skin tone was grey and molding...I was dieing. 19 years ago today, I chose to live one day at a time...Live my life with truth and dignity....And from doing that..I found great joy and love from all..But most important...I FOUND ME.

Tommi · 10-10-2010, 12:47 PM

Happppppy Happpppy Birthday Lady Pamela

Who knew 6490 days ago you could turn your life around. Way to go.

Congratulations.

RockOn · 10-10-2010, 02:26 PM

Happy

Birthday

to

Lady Pamela

:clap

I vote we all go to the

and have a

in honor of Lady Pamela's special day. This IS a very big deal! After the cookout and before the dance, Lady P, in following tradition .... you must tell us how you did it.

In all seriousness, thank you for sharing the news. What an accomplishment! Enjoy your day!

LeftWriteFemme · 10-10-2010, 07:38 PM

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Happy Anniversary!!!!

Quote:

Originally Posted by Lady Pamela

" 19 " Years ago today...I recieve my new birthday...From choosing to leave what I thought was what made me live...Meth !!!. I was a size 2 pants..weighed in at a whooping 87lbs and my skin tone was grey and molding...I was dieing. 19 years ago today, I chose to live one day at a time...Live my life with truth and dignity....And from doing that..I found great joy and love from all..But most important...I FOUND ME.

LeftWriteFemme · 10-11-2010, 05:42 AM

October 11

Ping Pong Balls and Possession

I keep an aquarium with a goldfish on my counter and sometimes he splashes my work proving to me that the thing I think I have contained often has a mind of its own. I have heard that goldfish don’t remember much, but mine always knows which side of the tank provides him a view of me. Memory may be reflexive. Assumption possibly is as well. I must keep a fresh account of what is within my grasp and what can swim away. I have heard the many fish tales from the part of me that likes to lie. The scales shimmer and lure me to pretend control when in truth it is all just a game of chance.

Confiscate excuses
*

BIRTH OF AN APPLE

When an apple gives birth what is the result?
Seed or sauce, crunch or crisp?
The act of creation is so much an act of sacrifice
How can it be limited to one delivery?

The children of effort produce fruit of their own.
Who am I to call them other then kin?
How many times have I thrown over bluster for blizzard
But snow is snow.

I can accept every squall if I keep clear and willing
I may finish my days in a winter orchard
If I spend my life picking not choosing.

LeftWriteFemme · 10-12-2010, 03:39 AM

October 12

Message with no Bottle

I found a note while I was cleaning the art cupboard. It was written in my hand. I don’t remember writing it, or thinking it for that matter. The note said, “Total disregard for the survival of your soul” and I have no idea if it was a warning or a suggestion; a place to start or a destination at which not to arrive. If it was written during one of those dark days it could be the former, I hope it is the latter; a sign post on my recovery road. I bring it out here to write to you about it, share it and take me to a place where I am no longer alone with this flyer. I sit down to the keyboard lift the note to read it again with care. I scan the edges for clues and see that it is a memo sheet torn in half and when I flip it, on the back I see, “2 loaves & 5 fishes to feed a multitude” and though I may not believe in that miracle I do believe in this one.

Don’t keep good night sweetness in the bowl, pour it out

*

ABUNDANCE OF WATER

Waterfalls fail the catch basin
And run off to make mud slide from the hills.
Power showers down but the channels it uses
Are not always beneficial.

High tide with the push of tsunami wipes out the coast.
Water is the stuff of life but God forbid it get out of control
There is no living with it.
I cannot regulate the weather but today I have a plan.

I don’t have to stand out waiting to see how much will come down.
I may not have every contingency covered,
I do have a backup for the worse than average season.
Yes, I did dig myself a French-drain
But I started by not living on the flood plain.

Tommi · 10-12-2010, 09:38 AM

Happy Birthday to one hella writer and very special person. Take today and eat of the cake of life and drink from the cup of now. Sending you a special wish here to remind you of all the people you have given to, and helped in your years of daily service. Writing your inspirations, and this year adding the poems at the bottom and managing to do so without fail, because there may that one day, that one person waiting on that miracle, and it could be you.

Happy Birthday dearest sherrie

from the Dude. Peaches and Tiggee (and on JennyBoo's behalf too).

Quote:

Originally Posted by LeftWriteFemme

October 12

Message with no Bottle

I found a note while I was cleaning the art cupboard. It was written in my hand. I don’t remember writing it, or thinking it for that matter. The note said, “Total disregard for the survival of your soul” and I have no idea if it was a warning or a suggestion; a place to start or a destination at which not to arrive. If it was written during one of those dark days it could be the former, I hope it is the latter; a sign post on my recovery road. I bring it out here to write to you about it, share it and take me to a place where I am no longer alone with this flyer. I sit down to the keyboard lift the note to read it again with care. I scan the edges for clues and see that it is a memo sheet torn in half and when I flip it, on the back I see, “2 loaves & 5 fishes to feed a multitude” and though I may not believe in that miracle I do believe in this one.

Don’t keep good night sweetness in the bowl, pour it out

*

ABUNDANCE OF WATER

Waterfalls fail the catch basin
And run off to make mud slide from the hills.
Power showers down but the channels it uses
Are not always beneficial.

High tide with the push of tsunami wipes out the coast.
Water is the stuff of life but God forbid it get out of control
There is no living with it.
I cannot regulate the weather but today I have a plan.

I don’t have to stand out waiting to see how much will come down.
I may not have every contingency covered,
I do have a backup for the worse than average season.
Yes, I did dig myself a French-drain
But I started by not living on the flood plain.

LeftWriteFemme · 10-12-2010, 09:43 AM

Thank you, Daddy!

Quote:

Originally Posted by Tommi

Happy Birthday to one hella writer and very special person. Take today and eat of the cake of life and drink from the cup of now. Sending you a special wish here to remind you of all the people you have given to, and helped in your years of daily service. Writing your inspirations, and this year adding the poems at the bottom and managing to do so without fail, because there may that one day, that one person waiting on that miracle, and it could be you.

Happy Birthday dearest sherrie

from the Dude. Peaches and Tiggee (and on JennyBoo's behalf too).

LeftWriteFemme · 10-13-2010, 04:37 AM

October 13

Alarm

I have lived life like one long fire drill. Is there smoke? Not always, but I fear flames. The alarm in my head is with me always and I walk from my life single file and silent. I don’t move on, this is only a drill, ‘I don’t want to take drastic action, this will pass,’ is my constant thought, though, I can not remember a time without the buzz. I have stood outside my life so long practicing in case of an emergency that there is no life to protect. I have been conscientious to the point of being consumed by caution. Balance requires risk. I must be brave enough to have it all.

Remember old leaves turn over, too

*

FISH OF CHAOS

Out of chaos come very tiny fish,
Well maybe not fish but a very swimmy feeling.
How can I go around with my feet off the ground,
My mind racing on a squirrel cage?

Breathing helps, breathing is a place to start.
Once I get breathing regularly I can gingerly probe
With one foot for a place to stand.

The chaos may race around and past my legs
Like so many eels on a summers evening
But with time and practice
I can step from this current as well.
Out of chaos come very tiny fish but I can come out too.

RockOn · 10-19-2010, 08:40 PM

Oh Sherrie, I missed your Belly-Button Birthday. Hope it was a great time! Wishing you Happy Belated Birthday!

Spent Saturday morning with my sponsor at her house - doing some recovery work, reading literature, talking steps. Then we went and looked at furniture, went by the Market and got fresh veggies. The tomatoes were fantastic! It was late afternoon when I dropped her off.

Went to the 6:00 meeting tonight. When we split after doing all the beginning meeting stuff, I went to the Beginner's Meeting. Been doing that some lately.

Okay, time to start getting the dogs ready for bed. They are so sweet.

10-10-2010, 12:08 PM	#1
Lady Pamela Senior Member How Do You Identify?: A Lady..Femme..Free Spirit with a touch of survivalist woman in me. Preferred Pronoun?: Spiritual Warrior..She Ra..Baby Doll, or anything close..ha! Relationship Status: In perfect love and perfect trust I believe that will be directed..for now Just friends in my life. Join Date: Mar 2010 Location: Live in Utah but take trips to Arkansas. Plan to move there eventually. Posts: 2,579 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 11,073 Thanked 5,939 Times in 1,609 Posts Rep Power: 21474854	" 19 " Years ago today...I recieve my new birthday...From choosing to leave what I thought was what made me live...Meth !!!. I was a size 2 pants..weighed in at a whooping 87lbs and my skin tone was grey and molding...I was dieing. 19 years ago today, I chose to live one day at a time...Live my life with truth and dignity....And from doing that..I found great joy and love from all..But most important...I FOUND ME. __________________ Believe what people show you the first time. It will keep you in balance, and will show you truth! ~~ Author unknown ~~ When negative thoughts come to mind, Let them die stillborn. Speak and do posotive in any situation, And watch your dreams grow and flurish. If you can't say anything posotive, Zip it up. Do not give birth to that which you do not want to see grow. See it, Believe it, Own it, Have it! ~~ Lady Pamela ~~

10-10-2010, 12:47 PM	#2
Tommi Infamous Member How Do You Identify?: Usually "Hello" Relationship Status: Married and Bound to Tommi's kaijira (Ts_kaijira ) Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Suthun.... California that is. Across the ridge from Laguna Beach. Posts: 8,151 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 13,621 Thanked 21,337 Times in 5,970 Posts Rep Power: 21474860	6490 days have gone by Happppppy Happpppy Birthday Lady Pamela Who knew 6490 days ago you could turn your life around. Way to go. Congratulations.

10-10-2010, 02:26 PM	#3
RockOn Senior Member How Do You Identify?: sitting over there ----->>>>> :) Preferred Pronoun?: .... Relationship Status: .... Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: .... Posts: 3,522 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 9,081 Thanked 10,304 Times in 2,610 Posts Rep Power: 21474855	response to Lady Pamela Happy Birthday to Lady Pamela :clap I vote we all go to the and have a in honor of Lady Pamela's special day. This IS a very big deal! After the cookout and before the dance, Lady P, in following tradition .... you must tell us how you did it. In all seriousness, thank you for sharing the news. What an accomplishment! Enjoy your day!

10-11-2010, 05:42 AM	#5
LeftWriteFemme Practically Lives Here How Do You Identify?: Daddy's good girl Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Jersey Posts: 16,642 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 2,529 Thanked 12,285 Times in 5,184 Posts Rep Power: 21474868	October 11 Ping Pong Balls and Possession I keep an aquarium with a goldfish on my counter and sometimes he splashes my work proving to me that the thing I think I have contained often has a mind of its own. I have heard that goldfish don’t remember much, but mine always knows which side of the tank provides him a view of me. Memory may be reflexive. Assumption possibly is as well. I must keep a fresh account of what is within my grasp and what can swim away. I have heard the many fish tales from the part of me that likes to lie. The scales shimmer and lure me to pretend control when in truth it is all just a game of chance. Confiscate excuses * BIRTH OF AN APPLE When an apple gives birth what is the result? Seed or sauce, crunch or crisp? The act of creation is so much an act of sacrifice How can it be limited to one delivery? The children of effort produce fruit of their own. Who am I to call them other then kin? How many times have I thrown over bluster for blizzard But snow is snow. I can accept every squall if I keep clear and willing I may finish my days in a winter orchard If I spend my life picking not choosing. __________________ Clicking on these dragon eggs will take you to my new erotic novella: Dragon Bait .........Hope you enjoy it! ________________________________________________ Please take a look at my work Click on flashing smilie to see my website To look at my Daddy/girl erotica book Click on pompom girl to see Elbows on the Table, Palms Flat

10-12-2010, 03:39 AM	#6
LeftWriteFemme Practically Lives Here How Do You Identify?: Daddy's good girl Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Jersey Posts: 16,642 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 2,529 Thanked 12,285 Times in 5,184 Posts Rep Power: 21474868	October 12 Message with no Bottle I found a note while I was cleaning the art cupboard. It was written in my hand. I don’t remember writing it, or thinking it for that matter. The note said, “Total disregard for the survival of your soul” and I have no idea if it was a warning or a suggestion; a place to start or a destination at which not to arrive. If it was written during one of those dark days it could be the former, I hope it is the latter; a sign post on my recovery road. I bring it out here to write to you about it, share it and take me to a place where I am no longer alone with this flyer. I sit down to the keyboard lift the note to read it again with care. I scan the edges for clues and see that it is a memo sheet torn in half and when I flip it, on the back I see, “2 loaves & 5 fishes to feed a multitude” and though I may not believe in that miracle I do believe in this one. Don’t keep good night sweetness in the bowl, pour it out * ABUNDANCE OF WATER Waterfalls fail the catch basin And run off to make mud slide from the hills. Power showers down but the channels it uses Are not always beneficial. High tide with the push of tsunami wipes out the coast. Water is the stuff of life but God forbid it get out of control There is no living with it. I cannot regulate the weather but today I have a plan. I don’t have to stand out waiting to see how much will come down. I may not have every contingency covered, I do have a backup for the worse than average season. Yes, I did dig myself a French-drain But I started by not living on the flood plain. __________________ Clicking on these dragon eggs will take you to my new erotic novella: Dragon Bait .........Hope you enjoy it! ________________________________________________ Please take a look at my work Click on flashing smilie to see my website To look at my Daddy/girl erotica book Click on pompom girl to see Elbows on the Table, Palms Flat

10-13-2010, 04:37 AM	#9
LeftWriteFemme Practically Lives Here How Do You Identify?: Daddy's good girl Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Jersey Posts: 16,642 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 2,529 Thanked 12,285 Times in 5,184 Posts Rep Power: 21474868	October 13 Alarm I have lived life like one long fire drill. Is there smoke? Not always, but I fear flames. The alarm in my head is with me always and I walk from my life single file and silent. I don’t move on, this is only a drill, ‘I don’t want to take drastic action, this will pass,’ is my constant thought, though, I can not remember a time without the buzz. I have stood outside my life so long practicing in case of an emergency that there is no life to protect. I have been conscientious to the point of being consumed by caution. Balance requires risk. I must be brave enough to have it all. Remember old leaves turn over, too * FISH OF CHAOS Out of chaos come very tiny fish, Well maybe not fish but a very swimmy feeling. How can I go around with my feet off the ground, My mind racing on a squirrel cage? Breathing helps, breathing is a place to start. Once I get breathing regularly I can gingerly probe With one foot for a place to stand. The chaos may race around and past my legs Like so many eels on a summers evening But with time and practice I can step from this current as well. Out of chaos come very tiny fish but I can come out too. __________________ Clicking on these dragon eggs will take you to my new erotic novella: Dragon Bait .........Hope you enjoy it! ________________________________________________ Please take a look at my work Click on flashing smilie to see my website To look at my Daddy/girl erotica book Click on pompom girl to see Elbows on the Table, Palms Flat

10-19-2010, 08:40 PM	#10
RockOn Senior Member How Do You Identify?: sitting over there ----->>>>> :) Preferred Pronoun?: .... Relationship Status: .... Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: .... Posts: 3,522 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 9,081 Thanked 10,304 Times in 2,610 Posts Rep Power: 21474855	Oh Sherrie, I missed your Belly-Button Birthday. Hope it was a great time! Wishing you Happy Belated Birthday! Spent Saturday morning with my sponsor at her house - doing some recovery work, reading literature, talking steps. Then we went and looked at furniture, went by the Market and got fresh veggies. The tomatoes were fantastic! It was late afternoon when I dropped her off. Went to the 6:00 meeting tonight. When we split after doing all the beginning meeting stuff, I went to the Beginner's Meeting. Been doing that some lately. Okay, time to start getting the dogs ready for bed. They are so sweet.