Holiday Blues

purepisces · 12-23-2009, 09:06 AM

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Originally Posted by Andrew, Jr.

Thank you for sharing. I too am a broken man (person). I am just looking inside at the world from another demension. It is just how it is. If someone had to walk in my shoes, then they too would feel the same pain I feel on a regular basis. It can't be erased or dismissed. It is. I accept it. And I am trying to move on as best I can.

Some understand this, and some don't & never will.

I wish you well, and peace.

Namaste,
Andrew

Andrew, I think of you when I read these words:

“The world breaks everyone and afterward many are stronger at the broken places.”
~ Ernest Hemingway

Even though you are suffering personally, I see you continuously reaching out to lift others up, to comfort them, to help them find the peace that eludes you. There is such a beautiful strength in that.

I hope that you and all who are suffering today find a moment of peace.

Andrew, Jr. · 12-23-2009, 11:39 AM

Thank you Purepisces.

WolfyOne · 12-23-2009, 02:20 PM

I wasn't sure i wanted to read this thread from the title because I'm having enough holiday blues without becoming any sadder over others posts. It was actually nice to read some of these posts, so I'd like to thank the OP for starting this.

This is a very hard year for me. Seems like if it could fall apart, it is or has. I'm home alone for this holiday and really have no friends in this state I now call home. Mindy went back to Michigan to live and R after dropping her off, is in Illinois. I've never had to be alone for any holiday before this. It's just me and 14 cats. Yes, someone had to stay and take care of them. Boarding all of them at the vet would be way to costly. I find myself pretty darn depressed this season. Part of my family is in Illinois and the other part is in Vegas. My friends are all in other states. I long for a weekend getaway, but it's no fun when you have to go alone. I'm not as outgoing as some may think I am. It's much easier to be social online than in person. Seems the older I get, the harder it gets. I don't do the reach out and call someone because my hearing is going and I don't always feel comfy on a phone anymore. Especially when I have to ask someone to repeat themselves more than once if I don't catch the words they speak.

Andrew, Jr. · 12-23-2009, 03:32 PM

Hi Wolfyone,

We all are glad you are here with us!

Don't worry about asking someone to repeat themself. I do it all the time. It is part of my learning disability. I have to ask people to repeat themself all the time. It has nothing to do with hearing loss, but how my brain processes things.

As I have aged, I have changed quite a bit. What was once a day trip is now an overnight trip because I just can't take the long car ride.

My eyesight is changing drastically. I have some problems with my diabetes that is really changing my vision each year.

I am slowing down quite a bit. I still am active playing tennis, and golf. But I am really working on loosing more weight. I want to be off all of my diabetic pills.

I so get it when you talk about being online here. When you are online, people think of me one way, but when they meet me in person they realize what I have been saying for years is true. I have swiss cheese for a brain, and really am slow. When I say slow, I mean slow.

I used to be very social, but not too much any longer. It takes too much energy now. Unless someone special is coming to town, and I really want to meet up with them, forget it. I am just exhausted by the end of the day.

I very rarely drive any longer because of the freq. of my seizures. I have to rely on my neighbors, friends, and Rosie for help. If they didn't help me, I would be in a pickle.

So, please do not feel isolated. We have this beautiful home that Jack and Medusa built for us. We all are welcome. And this spot is just for us!

As for the holidays, I always try to volunteer somewhere. To serve a meal to the homeless, or to help out with St. Vincent de Paul Society at my Parish giving out coupons for various stores. I just make xerox copies of their id's. I also go to Mass several times. I figure if I am going to give a big burden to God, the least I can do is go to Mass 2x's.

I usually get a phone call from my mother Christmas morning. It is very short, and sweet. Nothing memorable. I consider Rosie and my furkids my family. They are all I have, and without them I would be lost.

Andrew

12-23-2009, 02:20 PM	#3
WolfyOne Magically Delicious How Do You Identify?: Gentle Butch Relationship Status: Single and content Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Minnesota Posts: 6,558 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 22,052 Thanked 15,391 Times in 4,138 Posts Rep Power: 21474859	I wasn't sure i wanted to read this thread from the title because I'm having enough holiday blues without becoming any sadder over others posts. It was actually nice to read some of these posts, so I'd like to thank the OP for starting this. This is a very hard year for me. Seems like if it could fall apart, it is or has. I'm home alone for this holiday and really have no friends in this state I now call home. Mindy went back to Michigan to live and R after dropping her off, is in Illinois. I've never had to be alone for any holiday before this. It's just me and 14 cats. Yes, someone had to stay and take care of them. Boarding all of them at the vet would be way to costly. I find myself pretty darn depressed this season. Part of my family is in Illinois and the other part is in Vegas. My friends are all in other states. I long for a weekend getaway, but it's no fun when you have to go alone. I'm not as outgoing as some may think I am. It's much easier to be social online than in person. Seems the older I get, the harder it gets. I don't do the reach out and call someone because my hearing is going and I don't always feel comfy on a phone anymore. Especially when I have to ask someone to repeat themselves more than once if I don't catch the words they speak. __________________ Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength; loving someone deeply gives you courage --- Lao Tzo

12-23-2009, 11:39 AM	#2
Andrew, Jr. Timed Out How Do You Identify?: Me Preferred Pronoun?: He Relationship Status: Unavailable Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Over the Rainbow in a House Posts: 5,072 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 16,004 Thanked 5,249 Times in 2,216 Posts Rep Power: 0	Thank you Purepisces.

12-23-2009, 03:32 PM	#4
Andrew, Jr. Timed Out How Do You Identify?: Me Preferred Pronoun?: He Relationship Status: Unavailable Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Over the Rainbow in a House Posts: 5,072 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 16,004 Thanked 5,249 Times in 2,216 Posts Rep Power: 0	Hi Wolfyone, We all are glad you are here with us! Don't worry about asking someone to repeat themself. I do it all the time. It is part of my learning disability. I have to ask people to repeat themself all the time. It has nothing to do with hearing loss, but how my brain processes things. As I have aged, I have changed quite a bit. What was once a day trip is now an overnight trip because I just can't take the long car ride. My eyesight is changing drastically. I have some problems with my diabetes that is really changing my vision each year. I am slowing down quite a bit. I still am active playing tennis, and golf. But I am really working on loosing more weight. I want to be off all of my diabetic pills. I so get it when you talk about being online here. When you are online, people think of me one way, but when they meet me in person they realize what I have been saying for years is true. I have swiss cheese for a brain, and really am slow. When I say slow, I mean slow. I used to be very social, but not too much any longer. It takes too much energy now. Unless someone special is coming to town, and I really want to meet up with them, forget it. I am just exhausted by the end of the day. I very rarely drive any longer because of the freq. of my seizures. I have to rely on my neighbors, friends, and Rosie for help. If they didn't help me, I would be in a pickle. So, please do not feel isolated. We have this beautiful home that Jack and Medusa built for us. We all are welcome. And this spot is just for us! As for the holidays, I always try to volunteer somewhere. To serve a meal to the homeless, or to help out with St. Vincent de Paul Society at my Parish giving out coupons for various stores. I just make xerox copies of their id's. I also go to Mass several times. I figure if I am going to give a big burden to God, the least I can do is go to Mass 2x's. I usually get a phone call from my mother Christmas morning. It is very short, and sweet. Nothing memorable. I consider Rosie and my furkids my family. They are all I have, and without them I would be lost. Andrew