The Lost MP3 Files

[I'mOneToo]

I have more songs by Cris on the mp3, but cannot find youtubes of them. Might have to turn a few of them into youtubes, wonder why there is such a dearth of women's music on the internet. This one, though I know every note by heart, the lyrics seem almost too simple to grasp.


strange paradise
seems like there is no choice
only a pawn in the game
it's all the same

you win and you lose
but still you choose
you know you do
it's up to you

strange paradise
ancient fire and ice
making their moves once again
beginning and end

you win and you lose
but still you choose
you know you do
it's up to you

stranger in paradise
cold and alone
later and later now
no place to go
what does it matter
now you are your own home

paradise
taking your turn at the throw of the dice
in the game

paradise
taking your turn at the throw of the dice
in the game

danger in paradise
taking your turn at the fire and ice
once again

i'm just a stranger

paradise

i'm just a stranger

paradise

[I'mOneToo]

Nancy can sure play a guitar. I love this intro.


If we still have time we might still get by
Every time I think about it, I wanna cry
With bombs and the devil
and the kids keep comin'
No way to breathe easy, no time to be young

But I tell myself that I'm doin' all right
There's nothin' left to do at night
But go crazy on you..... crazy on you
Let me go crazy, crazy on you... oh...

My love is the evening breeze, touchin' your skin
The gentle, sweet singin' of leaves in the wind
The whisper that calls after you in the night
And kisses your ear in the early light

And you don't need to wonder, you're doin' fine
And my love, the pleasure's mine
Let me go crazy on you.... crazy on you
Let me go crazy, crazy on you.... oh.....


Wild man's world is cryin' in pain
Whatcha' gonna do whan everybody's insane
So afraid of one who's so afraid of you
What you gonna do...? Ohhh...

(Ah.......)

Ooooo... Crazy on you... crazy on you
Let me go crazy, crazy on you...... oh....

I was a willow last night in a dream
I bent down over a clear running stream
I sang you the song that I heard up above
And you kept me alive
with your sweet flowing love

Crazy... yeah, crazy on you
Let me go crazy, crazy on you... oh...

Crazy on you, crazy on you
Let me go crazy, crazy on you... yeah!

Crazy on you, crazy on you
Let me go crazy, crazy on you... oh...











A Heart two-fer, and another great intro from Nancy, this one always reminds me of Annie B.


Heading out this morning, into the sun
Riding on the diamond waves, little darlin' one
Warm wind caress her, her lover it seems
Oh Annie, dreamboat Annie, little ship of dreams
Oh Annie, dreamboat Annie, little ship of dreams

Going down the city sidewalk, alone in the crowd
No one knows the lonely one whose head's in the clouds
Sad faces painted over with those magazine smiles
Heading out to somewhere, won't be back for a while

[I'mOneToo]

The last one for tonight. couldn't find a youtube of her singing this on the american music awards in 1991, which was her first public performance after a death-defying accident in 1990. Years later I came to identify with her 'comeback' for different reasons, but at the time she was an inspiration to me. still is. The ability to come out on the other side from adversity, shows great strength. One of my pet phrases is "nobody gets out of this alive" meaning we all gotta go eventually. But to kick ass and knock death down a few times on the way out, that's how life goes too.

This video is symbolic of her life before the accident, showing her singing and dancing, adoring crowds, etc. It feels so reflective... maybe that's not the word. A retrospective? I can imagine her in the hospital, thinking about what she had lost, perhaps forever. but in 1:57, when she knelt on the edge of the stage and then at 1:59 the same stance from years before is superimposed, that is *the moment* that all of her hard work was for. the fact that she COULD bend again, is the miracle that is not lost on me. Then, at 3:00 she goes from sitting upright to leaning all the way back, holding her core tight until she is lying flat on the ground and that was NOT done with ropes or strings... phenomenal. How many people who have NOT had a broken spine, could achieve that feat? She has eight inches of titanium on the sides of her spinal column.

In an article, Gloria said: "I found I had discipline I never dreamed possible. I also realized I had the ability to help in the healing process. I believe we all possess the ability to help heal ourselves." So utterly true. In all things, whether it is your spine, your brain, your heart, your arms, your legs, whatever gets broken, we all possess the ability to HELP heal ourselves. It does not mean we will always be restored completely. Nor will we be unscarred. If we do not choose to heal, we will not be healed. It's that simple to me. The word 'discipline' means to teach. There are many ways to learn how to stay stuck, stay broken, and stay in a rut. It's the easiest way, sometimes. It's not 'wrong' for those who choose that path. But I discovered something, and it's that learning how to heal is not more difficult than staying broken, it just requires a different kind of energy. I learn by practicing, over and over the lessons that I learn until they become a habit. Like reading and singing out loud.

Nope, I'm not gonna get out alive (never gonna win a grammy either) but I'ma gonna kick death's ass a couple more times on the way out.


Why be afraid
if I'm not alone
life is never easy
the rest is unkown
Up to now for me it's been
hands against stone
each and every moment
Searching
for what to believe

Coming out of the dark,
I finally see the light now
It's shining on me
Coming out of the dark
I know the love that saved me
You're sharing with me

Starting again
is part of the plan
And I'll be so much stronger
holding your hand
Step by step I'll make it through
I know I can
It may not make it easier
but I have felt you
Near all the way

Coming out of the dark,
I finally see the light now
It's shinning on me
Coming out of the dark,
I know the love that saved me
You're sharing with me

Forever, forever I stand on the rock of your love
Forever I'll stand on the rock
CAN'T NOBODY STOP ME, WATCH ME
Forever, forever I stand on the rock of
Love is all it takes, no matter what we face

(I'm not able yet to write down the ending chorus yet because it repeats with subtle differences, gotta work on
that, though I do start with lyrics found on the internet I listen several times to go over the words to make sure
they are accurate and complete. Sometimes, though, just get stumped. mea culpa.)

[I'mOneToo]

A song familiar to most people. Mel Torme (also known as "The Velvet Fog") wrote this with Bob Wells in 1944, Mel was 19 years old and wrote all of the music and some of the lyrics. Bob started writing it not as a Christmas song, but something he wrote to try to keep cool during a sweltering hot day. This version has slightly different lyrics than what we typically hear at the end.

I'm not typically down with religious messages or inflicting them on others. This song is intended to be shared by me with goodwill and cheer. With that, I'm out until after Christmas on some "secret missions" (as my parents used to call them, conferring with "Santa" to make sure he can fit his sack down the chimney) so I wish everyone a happy holiday, may your days be merry and bright!


Chestnuts roasting on an open fire,
Jack Frost nipping at your nose,
Yuletide carols being sung by a choir,
And folks dressed up like Eskimos.

Everybody knows
a turkey and some mistletoe,
Help to make the season bright,
Tiny tots with their eyes all aglow,
Will find it hard to sleep tonight.

They know that Santa's on his way
He's loaded lots of toys and goodies on his sleigh,
And ev'ry mother's child is gonna spy,
To see if reindeer really know how to fly.

And so I'm offering this simple phrase,
To kids from one to ninety-two,
Although it's been said
Many times, Many ways
Merry Christmas to you.

And so I'm offering this simple phrase,
To kids from one to ninety-two,
Although it's been said
Many times, Many ways
Merry Christmas to you.

Love and joy come to you
and to you your Christmas too
and god bless you and send you
a happy new year

and god send you a happy new year

[I'mOneToo]

Tonight, in descending alphabetical order, all from the lost 'n found:





Someone told me
It's all happening at the zoo.
I do believe it,
I do believe it's true.

Mmmmm. Mmmmm. Whoooa. Mmmmm.

It's a light and tumble journey
From the East Side to the park;
Just a fine and fancy ramble
To the zoo

But you can take the crosstown bus
If it's raining or it's cold,
And the animals will love it
If you do
If you do

Something tells me
It's all happening at the zoo
I do believe it,
I do believe it's true

Mmmmm Mmmmm Whoooa Mmmmm

The monkeys stand for honesty,
Giraffes are insincere,
And the elephants are kindly but
They're dumb.
Orangutans are skeptical
Of changes in their cages,
And the zookeeper is very fond of rum

Zebras are reactionaries,
Antelopes are missionaries,
Pigeons plot in secrecy,
And hamsters turn on frequently
What a gas!

You gotta come and see

At the zoo
At the zoo
At the zoo
At the zoo
At the zoo
At the zoo
At the zoo
At the zoo

[I'mOneToo]

If you like tuba solos (who could NOT love a tuba solo???) this one delivers at 3:00, goes on for a little over two minutes. This version on youtube is awesome.


I'm not scared of dying,
And I don't really care.
If it's peace you find in dying,
Well then let the time be near.
If it's peace you find in dying,
And if dying time is here,
Just bundle up my coffin
'Cause it's cold way down there.
I hear that its cold way down there
Yeah, crazy cold way down there

And when I die, and when I'm gone,
There'll be one child born
In this world to carry on,
to carry on.

Now troubles are many, they're as deep as a well.
I can swear there ain't no heaven but I pray there ain't no hell.
Swear there ain't no heaven and I pray there ain't no hell,
But I'll never know by living, only my dying will tell.
Yes only my dying will tell.
Yeah, only my dying will tell.

And when I die, and when I'm gone,
There'll be one child born
In this world to carry on,
to carry on.

Give me my freedom for as long as I be.
All I ask of living is to have no chains on me.
All I ask of living is to have no chains on me,
And all I ask of dying is to go naturally.
Oh I want to go naturally.

Here I go,
Hey Hey!
Here comes the devil,
Right Behind.
Look out children,
Here he comes!
Here he comes! Hey...

Don't want to go by the devil.
Don't want to go by demon.
Don't want to go by Satan,
Don't want to die uneasy.
Just let me go naturally.

and when I die,
When I'm dead, dead and gone,
There'll be one child born in our world to carry on,
To carry on.

[I'mOneToo]

Let us be lovers,
We'll marry our fortunes together.
I've got some real estate here in my bag.
So we bought a pack of cigarettes,
And Mrs. Wagner's pies,
And walked off
To look for America.

"Kathy", I said,
As we boarded a Greyhound in Pittsburgh,
Michigan seems like a dream to me now.
It took me four days
To hitch-hike from Saginaw.
"I've come to look for America."

Laughing on the bus,
Playing games with the faces,
She said the man in the gabardine suit was a spy.
I said, "Be careful,
His bow tie is really a camera."

"Toss me a cigarette,
I think there's one in my raincoat."
We smoked the last one an hour ago.
So I looked at the scenery,
She read her magazine;
And the moon rose over an open field.

"Kathy, I'm lost", I said,
Though I know she was sleeping.
"I'm empty and aching and
I don't know why."
Counting the cars
On the New Jersey Turnpike
The've all come
To look for America,
All come to look for America,
All come to look for America.